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Listening to the most horrible music in prparation for dancehole ur welcome
In (mostly) seriousness: 1st half will *prob* be kinda disagreeable music w me guiding the dancfloor, 2nd hr jsut whatever bsngers cross my mind
No guarantees ever, idk whatll happen, come find out!🤞💖
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaacome (don't come) (no, come) (but only if you fucking MEAN IT!!!) (promising the worst dj set ever)
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Unironically there's something deep and spiritually advanced about this
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Hate so much how every "leave your 9-5" narrative ends with the guy making a living by "freelancing," "consulting," and making money from a beach in Bali by teaching other ppl how to freelance, consult, and make money from a beach in Bali by teaching other people how to-
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I think women don't know the extent to which men's brains are sometimes extremely different from ours and we would be instinctively horrified if it were all out in the open
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I just want a life (a job, a husband, an existence) where I can be honest
For once in my fucking life I want to be honest
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>we've only met once? idgaf I'm inviting you to my thing
>haven't spoken in 3 years? idgaf I'm inviting you to my thing
>didn't respond to my last text? idgaf I'm inviting you to my thing
Really helps to have Things to invite ppl to! Lower-stakes sussing-out/time-invest than 1:1
appreciating again that 99% of making & keeping friends is just messaging people unabashedly
we've only met once? idgaf I'm inviting you to my thing
haven't spoken in 3 years? idgaf I'm inviting you to my thing
didn't respond to my last text? idgaf I'm inviting you to my thing
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Actually insane how you can go around feeling baseline kind of bad all the time and not even realize it, for years, or all your life
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I never lied, as a child, and my mother said it was her favorite thing about me, my honesty
yet from the moment I could be perceived by others - school, family, strangers - lying was the first, primary thing I was taught to do.
I never recognized this dissonance until this year
I just want a life (a job, a husband, an existence) where I can be honest
For once in my fucking life I want to be honest
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I did not realize this for a long time but my depression is a symptom, not the disease
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Why does unconditional love go from being an absolute necessity in childhood to something unthinkable, totally unreasonable to expect, in adulthood? When does that shift happen?
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I once dated someone with 0 trauma, perfect childhood and completely self actualized.
Early in the relationship I worried that when I got depressed/crazy he wouldn't be able to handle it but he told me "don't worry, I'm here for you in any state, I'll love you no matter what :)"
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"Coaching" "blogging" "writing" "podcasting" "paid speaking" projects
I want to leave my 9-5 but these options also make me want to vomit and then KMS
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I'm relearning about a whole class of indirect feminine communication moves that many guys are completely oblivious to
women(me) don't realize the extent to which guys are oblivious and don't realize they have to be so direct it feels(to the women) like smacking him in the face
@Vrazumikhin
Erm I have this feeling that guys might not know that girls have ways to *graciously say no*, back away or just disappear into mist when they’re simply not up for whatever the guy is trying to push. Gracious ducking away could seem like “unreliable” when it’s actually “no ty”
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PSA: you should be making playlists for different periods of your life
i used to do this monthly like a maniac but now do quarters
start of each period, make an empty playlist; whenever a song hits you hard or rly evokes Now, add to playlist
laziest, MOST powerful time capsule
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The ChatGPTification of the search engine does not stop at polluting the commons.......
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Remember how they taught us octopuses r super smart but their intelligence is sooo unfathomably alien? thinking w arms! their brains in their head AND body!
Unlike us humans
Our intelligence is 100% definitely neck-up, brain-only, head running the rest of the meat machine
🤔
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I thought I was """depressed""" and lacked """agency""" and this story made me feel good in some ways but all of that was blown away into pathetic ridiculous insignificance when I discovered i just needed to be fucking held
i don't believe society has a meaning crisis. i believe society has a basic safety, love, and esteem crisis
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Yeah same?
I opened ATLA bc Id heard so much about it, and *15* minutes in I started thinking "is this like a nostalgia thing? Like ppl talk about how much they loved Rugrats or whatever but nobody's actually still watching Rugrats as an adult except for nostalgia??"
i tried watching A:TLA (the cartoon) but sadly in like 5 minutes my brain was like "mmm this is a kid's cartoon not interested" which happens, well, most of the time
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me in New York: ugh these pretentious liberal arts assholes
me in SF: I bet none of these sci fi clowns have read a word of Dostoevsky
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I think hippies sometimes repel me, in spite of ostensibly offering what I want (space-holding & an aura of peace), bc often there's no strength or substance behind their serenity: they project the signifiers of an aura, without the nervous system to back it up
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WHAT the FUCK who says even is KIKI PLEASE COME FORWARD
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Spoiler: he was not a reliable judge of what he would be able to handle
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my feelings around software engineering are
- deep deep impostor syndrome
- learned helplessness
- and the resigned "someone else will do it better so why should I spend my limited precious time on this earth on it?"
is there a handy name for that last one? It's the strongest
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@paularambles
Ok but isn't this for people who are going to *major in math*? You should compare the Math SAT II or AP Calc in that case
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@chairsign
What's insane is like...the boldness to tell someone you're barely friends with (??) "hey once I saw the evidence of ur jerking off and it was disgusting to me"
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Literal life hack: did you know that if you sleep enough hours your life will reset to your favorite checkpoint?
If it’s not working for you you didn’t sleep enough hours. Just one more, just one more, just one more..just one more
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I kinda want to tell a female acquaintance "I don't know if you're aware of this but the way you text and interact with me gives me the impression that you don't like me very much. Nothing to fix necessarily, just FYI"
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I want to hear about people's experiences of "proto-horny"
Some of you know exactly what I'm talking about. what does it mean to you?
@goblinodds
I was really into girls and felt some kind of proto-horny since before kindergarten. Puberty increased it a fair bit
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Learning this year that I—me!—am Allowed To Change The Vibe has changed my life
One thing extroverts do, that introverts don't understand is allowed, is:
- I'm not feeling like the vibe of this hang
- my options are (1) leave (2) stay
there is a third option, you can change the vibe
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There's a selection bias here of course so I'll just ask Twitter:
anyone who left their job and did something interesting have any stories to share?
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Speedrunning the TPOT curriculum:
[x] meditation
[x] book club
[x] "coaching"
[/] 12-step
[x] no-lying
[x] IFS
[/] circling
[x] Existential Kink
[x] metta
[x] doing >5 minutes of yoga at a time
[x] hiking
[/] Body Keeps the Score
[ ] jhanas
[ ] Alexander Technique...
what else?
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How do you earn a normie's trust?
By proving that you can be normal (chill, have a beer, banter, do the same regular person stuff together)
How were weirdos traumatized as children?
By having to prove that they were normal, and failing
normies aren’t boring; you just haven’t passed their trust tests enough to talk with them about what really matters to them
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Hey lurkers,
You should tweet more! It's a WHOLE different world out here.
My best days are when I don't check the feed, don't check notifications, just scream my 280 chars and hit the blue button. Make an alt. There are no stakes
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To his credit, he DID love me no matter what. Just handled crazy me very poorly :)
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Boy POV
ask girl out
She says maybe
Keep asking her out
Girl POV
boy approaches
"oh god not him," her body/face broadcast clearly
She replies tersely, JUST borderline polite
IN SPITE OF ALL THIS!! he asks her out
Her words say maybe; face/tone/body = "absolutely not, never"
Etc
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I am going on a date today
Please send me mettā
As in, please send me the ability to be open and loving towards all humankind including myself and this poor stranger around whom I must make mental motions to placebo myself into feelings of safety and potential connection
Step 1 you have to learn to love women. Not *a* woman, all women. You have to have affection for the entire sex. You should cherish the very thought of women, have a fondness and a sympathy overflowing for them. This is table stakes.
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Starting to feel like I don't *deserve* to find an apartment
is this the same feeling as male-on-dating-app?
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We need 2 diff words for "empathy" (good theory of mind, can predict how another person feels) and "empathy" (feels deeply for another person when you know/hear about what they're feeling)
Imo the second is actually "empathy" but ppl use the first definition a lot and it irks me
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SF day 4: possibly the best way to be in the bay area social scene is to not know or care anything about tech so you are absolutely unfazed upon meeting legends and can just be your normal weird-gremlin-who-charms-at-parties self
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Bc saying no feels to agreeable ppl(women) like meanness, agreeables(me) often end up lashing out dramatically when their meek, indirect requests arent heard
if a no feels like doing violence i might yell at them instead of saying no, it all feels the same anyway. Safer, even
@RichDecibels
This is interesting bc disagreability is your thing
And the thing abt overly agreeable ppl is they have a belief that maintaining boundaries is being "mean"
anyway funny to notice how there's still areas where u are maybe still a too-nice agreeable lil softie 😊
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I do not feel intellectually safe - that is, safe to say what I believe, or even might theoretically believe - around my artistically inclined friends
and that fucking sucks
one of my dissatisfactions with tpot has been the dearth of artists. but I've realized now Twitter isn't really the medium for that, just as Instagram wasn't the medium for me to find hyper articulate intellectual types
Retreating to ig for now, back into a more nonverbal world
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still think it should be in the open, though. Integrate a little horror, as a treat
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I'm depressed. What the fuck should I do. Spoiler going for a walk does NOT help. I don't like anything anymore
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The shame of having hoped that if you're nice enough the world will be nice back
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I was just attacked on a fucking bus just now and I never crave alcohol but I needed like 4 stiff drinks in me fuck
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has anything ever, really, truly gone disastrously wrong as a result of procrastinating? No, that's why you still do it
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I just realized that in real life I am invisible. it took this weekend, the first time in my life of not being invisible, for me to notice it.
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Are you severely underestimating the effect that *not having stupid fucking obligations you don't give a shit about* will have on the lightness of your chest and life?
I was, my whole life! OBVIOUS THINGS ARE NOT OBVIOUS
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How can I find (spaces with) people who are comfortable with receiving and accepting the full granular range of people's raw emotions, but without the airy breathy aesthetic that makes me go kneejerk "ew, hippies, weird, take me back to the normies please"?
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*numbers going up* oh no it has just occurred to me that this was a gender discourse
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Teaching a child to play music
BEFORE THEY EVEN ENJOY *LISTENING* TO MUSIC
IS PEAK FUCKING NUMSKULL RETARDATION
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The eternal unease of "I have neglected something moderately important and it's probably bad that I'm not remembering what it is" was just baked into my psyche at adolescence and will be there forever and ever huh
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[sincere shitpost] OK guys I need some advice if I hate almost everything about my life circumstances do I just meditate the feelings/my consciousness away? I'm out of ideas
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What the utter fuck? I opened my twitter profile on incognito and instead of showing my most recent tweets it shows my all-time most-liked tweets in order from most to least viral what the fuck
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I've been afraid to ask for a long time
But what the fuck is enlightenment?
now that i am enlightened i have greater capacity to feel both joy and sorrow
however i do not recommend serious spiritual practice to those seeking happiness
your meal will turn to ashes in your mouth
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I fucking hate what the housing search does to me psychologically.
The 0-sum game, your adversaries not only fellow renters but also landlords. Supplicant mindset, begging and begging for acceptance, finding yourself lacking when you fail. The fact that it's about your survival.
Starting to feel like I don't *deserve* to find an apartment
is this the same feeling as male-on-dating-app?
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I read Scott Alexander's piece on his newborns
I like Scott. He has more humanity & humor than most rats
But this celebration of new life is infused with the creepy soulless quality of so much rat ideology
(Mazel tov to Scott)
("the engines" in the screenshot means his babies)
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I see your insecurities and I love them all. I love that you show them to me. Thank you for showing them to me. I love you for all your weaknesses—ah........wait. That one? Oh I see. I mean.....no, I meant..all except for *that* one. I didn't expect *that* one
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IN 2013 MY EX CONVINCED ME TO SKIP A FREE GRIMES SHOW BC HED NEVER HEARD OF HER TO WATCH A BIG LEBOWSKI SCREENING AND I STILL HATE HIM FOR THIS
The "woman has to sit through another man playing The Big Lebowski and looking at her expectantly" phenomenon
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Mocking someone's physical appearance in a stupid Twitter argument IMMEDIATELY gets you on my shitlist. If I see that behavior I don't care what you have to say on any topic, ever.
And I thought that was a given around here???? Why are my circles still engaging with those ppl???
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Please don't get mad at me
@imperialauditor
we played princesses and crocodiles where the girls ran around the play structure and the boys lurked underneath and tried to grab our ankles and drag us down 🐊
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Apologies for the discourse but I think it's worth saying
idk, I felt *more* sadness and compassion for sbf on reading this
There’s something deeply unsettling about SBF’s parents. Frightening, even.
You get the feeling that, as cliched as it might be, these are people who hold themselves as members of a higher caste, to whom the rules and mores governing the proletariat simply do not apply. People
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This is my hypothesis about the Purpose of things like circling or eyegazing or vibecamp or intimacy/sex events or drugs:
Intense experiences should be used in order to hone your senses, not to dull them
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A dating directory but for forming group houses
IF YOU WANT TO LIVE W OTHER HUMANS: reply here with locations you'd be happy to live in
Not even like, "coordinate here and find ur future roomies"
But just preliminary "what do the interest levels out there even look like??"
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Yo how the FJDSHFUCK do I maintain my JOY and like DESIRE TO LIVE LIFE my *life force*
when im constantly hit with a blank stare, 0 reaction in the chat, deadeyed disinterest in ppl I share with.
been happening A LOT lately and i m gonna fucking detonate the vest if it continues
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The absurdity and comedy of this pic feel incredibly human to me. You can imagine the creator having a deranged giggle spinning up the dumbass throwaway idea they dreamed up
I rly love that AI art lets way more ppl w unhinged ideas+a keen sense of vibes execute them effortlessly
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i love this blog: ANTI-RECIPE Indian cooking, by sb whose mind works like mine (logical, always asking Why/What If)
& for Indian food no less! i'd say I want one for every ethnic cuisine but I suspect I won't even need it by the time I'm done; the kitchen self-reliance transfers
Personal development is so passé. whos gonna be tpot's first COOKING COACH
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What's the evolutionary advantage of perceiving sun sparkling on water as one of the most beautiful things on this earth?
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I want to rely on someone. I want to text someone, I spent 2 hours on Twitter researching ingroup drama and now I feel BAD, and digitally cry on their shoulder. I want A Person attuned to my weather patterns and who hears the quaver in my message and knows how to ask why.
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i was too depressed to say it on main
but now I feel slightly better
enough to allow you to all see me now
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Hello fellow depressives,
I am not here to tell you to take a walk I am not here to tell you to move your body and exercise put away your phone that it will make you feel better
Sometimes you do not feel better
That's the whole fucking point the intermittent
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One mistake I've made this year is treating certain circumstances or periods that I don't like as temporary, "limbo" phases to be endured and passed through asap
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I once had a friend with the biggest working vocabulary I’ve ever seen, in whose mouth GRE words were elegantly slangy. She carried them with grace and cool and mixed them easily with slang, spun speech into a stunning vernacular. She loved words.
Also the biggest stoner I know
We need a term for words like "clout" that aren't quite slang, bc popular usage is the same as dictionary usage
but until popularized, they were obscureish, languishing in SATs and the lonely wordcel's lexicon—and now they take on a slangy affect
What are other words like this?
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@simon_ohler
I think the spiritual part for me comes from defining what is normally implicit! And that makes it special + even sacred
"Writing things down" I think the Germans call it
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[bf is great] Ok better lock this one down this is as good as it gets
[next bf is even better] Ok better lock this one down this is as good as it gets
[next bf is even better] Ok better lock this one down this is as good as it gets
[next bf is even better] Ok better lock
Blessed to be learning more and more every single day about all the ways my last ex was actually dogshit terrible for me. I hope he finds God
Bless you, thank you, to the people loving me and raising my weakshit standards from absolute rock bottom of the barrel ♥️
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I STRONGLY regret deciding Facebook and earnestness were uncool and
1. ceasing to add every new person I met on Facebook
2. deleting an enormous portion of the digital records of my teens and 20s :(
RETVRN (add me on Facebook?)
As I get older, I realize it's a huge bummer that we collectively decided in our early 20s that Facebook was uncool
It's the one place where I added everyone I knew in real life, and it would be a great way to stay in touch now
I want to know when friends go through big moments
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this STILL is not enough.
i dont want your curiosity for its own sake. for YOUR own sake. dont want you to "get to know me"
can you smell what *I* WANT you to be curious about in me?? can you see what lights me on fire does it happen to light you on fire can we ignite together?
so many people lack the simple friendship skill of being curious, asking questions from that curiosity, and actually listening to the answers - and yet this is like 90% of what's needed for someone to feel like you're a good friend to them
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A Thing can be lowkey like "every Sunday my friends come to my place to read books in silence" (i call mine Cozyhole)
All it has to do is exist
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you know when you're ashamed of something and maybe you even tell some people about it, but it's so easy to do so in a casual, off-hand way that doesn't actually reveal the vulnerable depths of your shame? when your humor fig-leafs the very real black hole inside you?
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I am like, CONSTANTLY un-tensing my face and shoulders these days
Which is good, im glad I'm at least noticing it now.
But does anyone have a starter guide to...making myself generally un-tense without having to consciously unscrunch all the time??
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you can still be gentle with yourself
no need to stare right into the sun—on the heels of stumbling out of the cave.
look at some candle flames. a firefly, a bonfire even, the moon. we get to where we need to in the end
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I had a housewarming/graduating-German-B1 party last night and—
my house is warm now!
Today I enjoy spending time in the living room that had felt alien to me. I have a felt sense of how the space can be filled by human energy
Jesus I didn't know housewarmings were magic too
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When I was a SWE I made the software for my company's biotech labs to track their tests
It was extremely niche, very duct-taped together and visually ugly but it WORKED and made sense to me
Only me and one other dude rly had a good understanding of what the lab processes were and
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Anyone at vibecamp who is not single should be made to wear one of these
@gptbrooke
@MasterTimBlais
please
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If you fear looking stupid, awkward, ugly, cringe, goofy, spastic, foolish, ick, creepy, tryhard when you dance—
come to Dancehole, where we are those things on purpose and I will be the ugliest horriblest dancer of them all, and you will be free
March 29, SF, dm me to join 👺
I have empathy for dancers who lack self confidence because their fears are totally valid
If you look bad while dancing people actually will film you and laugh at you on the internet!
Like yeah people should still get past that fear but it is a tall order!
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I've been getting a lot of new followers. Welcome! Just wanted to say: incest should probably be legal, actually
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here's sth that makes no sense
All the social media apps are supposedly tracking our minutest actions, every scroll pause click eyeball movement on the app, right?
And so WHY
given this *staggering* wealth of information isn't it BLINDINGLY obvious who is and isn't a bot????
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Anyway this is the only time I ever loved software engineering
If anyone has a job making software for weirdly niche purposes where you get to chat with the niche users and help them solve their problems I'd love to hear about it
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I didnt learn what a single person does for a living all week
♥️ I feel real gratitude to all of you for this
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