12 years ago today I woke up on the floor of a jail cell...with no hope or possible idea what could be! There was no possibility of this life, no love of my life, no career, no future, no family, no recovery. You can't go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you…
10 years ago today I woke up on the floor of a prison cell...with no idea what could be or what kind of dream team we’d make! You can't go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending! There is Hope!
#soberlife
#10yearssober
#partnersincrime
8 years ago today I woke up on the floor of a prison cell...You can't go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending!! There is Hope!!
#soberlife
#8yearssober
I’m also a addict in recovery, a felon, a suicide survivor, a father, a husband, a mental health advocate, a NFL analyst, HOF’r, and flawed human being. You’re not just one thing. You are the sum of all life’s parts!! God bless!
How’s this for a story...2nd Pick in the 1998 NFL Draft. Crash & Burn so bad many consider the biggest draft bust ever, goes to prison, chooses to get back up and carry on. 6 years later, employed by
@espn
living the dream and cohosting
#nfllive
for the 1st time today!
#soberlife
She’s 14 weeks, she’ll find out, there are assholes like you everywhere eager to shout it from the basements. I think the being a drug addict and 7 time convicted felon may be the harder conversation, but we trudge on!
7 years ago today I woke up on the floor of a prison cell...I had nothing to live for, or so I thought. If I had known the size of the blessing that was coming, I would have understood the magnitude of the battle I was fighting!I got up, there is Hope!!
#soberlife
#7yearssober
11 years ago today I woke up on the floor of a prison cell...with no idea what could be or what was even possible. You can't go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending! There is Hope!
#soberlife
#11yearssober
#partnersincrime
Yes, I’m the one that was addicted and made more bad choices than I’d like to talk about...but I’m also the one that said enough is enough and picked myself up when I was at the lowest point of my life to get where I’m at today.
#soberlife
#ittakeswhatittakes
#igotyourback
I was just informed that I was not selected to the
@NFL
All Time 100. I stand with my other snubs out there in our disappointment in this process. I’ve set up a support group to help...tag a couple fellow
@nfllegends
snubs and we’ll rise up together
@geoffschwartz
@terrellowens
8 years ago today I walked out of a prison cell and into a unknown future. If I had known the size of the blessing that was coming, I would have understood the magnitude of the battle I was fighting! Thank you to all the people who have carried me along the way!
#Soberlife
We first met 24 years ago on a phone call and have been linked ever since. Tonight my pal receives his gold jacket and enters the
@ProFootballHOF
Very proud of Peyton and grateful for his friendship all these years!!
#classof97
#hofdads
I’m so fucking angry, I can’t stop crying. Every human life is precious. All I wish is that I could’ve been in that apt in Pullman, looked that amazing young man in the eyes & said you’re loved Tyler! I’m just like you & I’ve been here & there is hope, hugged him & never let go.
6 yrs ago today I woke up on the cell floor of what would b my home for the next 32 months. What a humbling and grateful life because of it. If I knew the size of the blessing that was coming, I would have known the magnitude of the battle I was fighting!!
#soberlife
#6yearssober
9 years ago today I woke up on the floor of a prison cell...You can't go back and change the beginning, but you can start where you are and change the ending!! There is Hope!!
#soberlife
#9yearssober
#bestthingiwilleverdo
7 years ago today I walked out of a prison cell & into an unknown future. If I had known the size of the blessing that was coming, I would have understood the magnitude of the battle I was fighting! Thank you to all the people who’ve carried me along the way!
#soberlife
#Grateful
I’ve made peace with my former self. I no longer hold a grudge against him and I’m no longer embarrassed by him. I know now that I was learning and growing. I’m at peace with how things turned out and how I got here!
#soberlife
#ittakeswhatittakes
#igotyourback
5 years ago today I walked out of a prison cell and into a unknown future. Again, If I had known the size of the blessing that was coming, I would have understood the magnitude of the battle I was fighting! I’m grateful for it all!
#soberlife
@banannazon
#lifeofmydreams
This
#soberlife
shit is hard AF sometimes, not gonna lie and sugar coat it. Sitting with your feelings instead of numbing out when life gets tough is inspiring! If 2020 knocked you down choose a different path in 2021 and get back up. You got this.
#dosimplebetter
It just seems like
@AB84
doesn’t want to play football anymore. All evidence points to that. I can completely relate to his behavior. I behaved the same way...playing the victim and I never had near his talent. Personal accountability is such an attribute. I hope he finds it soon
6 years ago today I walked out of a prison cell and into a unknown future. If I had known the size of the blessing that was coming, I would have understood the magnitude of the battle I was fighting! Thank you to all the people who carried me along the way!
#soberlife
#Grateful
**BREAKING NEWS**
Claiborne Marvel Leaf
11/27/23 8:59 PM est
8 lbs 11 oz
21.5 inches
Momma (
@banannazon
) and baby A) are absolute superstars and B) Healthy & already two peas in a pod together.
I may just be the luckiest man on the face of this earth!!
#soberlife
#girldad
…
I was sad, alone, tired, and hurting. When I got clean & sober all of that went away!! There is hope, surrender and accept help. You truly can have the life of your dreams!
#soberlife
#hope
#Gratitude
Four years ago today I walked out of a prison cell into a life of my dreams!! I had no idea what was ahead, I had HOPE. Understanding I’m a flawed human being trying to be better everyday has given me everything I could have ever asked for. 📸
@banannazon
#soberlife
#grateful
So
@TomBrady
is just a little over a year younger than me. He was on the opposite sideline vs me in my final CFB game. He just threw 4 TD’s in the 1st Half of his 20th season. I strained my calf warming up for my hike this morning. 🤷🏻♂️
#GOAT
#Wouldwatchhimifhewere50
@ianlarkin
@Brady_Quinn
@M_Cassel16
Can confirm, I texted Brady Quinn, who had texted Matt Cassel who had texted Tom Brady and Brady, not Tom Brady, but Quinn, hasn’t texted me back, though I just texted him like 5 mins ago, so I probably should give him more time.
@TaylorFutch1
You don’t know me, but my grandfather was a game warden in Montana and we spent our vacations going to our 2 national parks. Anna, and my son McGyver & I would love to help with your mortgage if you will allow.
#MerryXmas
Hi Christa,
Bio is lengthy, ton of success followed by a ton of failure. I’m a Dad, husband, drug addict, convicted felon, mental health & addiction advocate, NFL & CFB analyst, golfer, fly fisherman, Steelers, Penguins, Cubs, Sonic’s Fan, & grateful human being, & u shouldn’t!
Thank you to everyone who supported me along this journey. Ton of gratitude in the Leaf household tonight. Thanks to
@espn
for giving a flawed human being a chance to be better today.
#soberlife
#cfb
#letsgettowork
In the wake of the tragic news today of 9 human beings taken from us too soon...I took my son to the Zoo and hugged him, kissed him, and told him I loved him every minute!!
#livelifetothefullest
It’s official, we’re pregnant!! Our little girl arrives in November!! The long & short is that after 4 miscarriages we waited until the 3rd Trimester to tell anyone. So, McG gets a little sister and we get a little Marvel to add to our family. So much to be grateful for
#GirlDad
Damn I wish they kept track of my INT’s in practices. I rarely threw one. All they cared about back then were those pesky games that were real. GTFOH with this nonsense you weirdos.
Update:
#49ers
QB Brock Purdy has thrown 10 INTs in Training Camp so far, according to
@LombardiHimself
He had 2 INTs in today's practice, with another potential interception, dropped.
(
@AryePulli
)
What
@dak
said today is to destigmatize the way people look at mental health, something I wasn’t strong enough to do when I was playing. Well done young man. The truest form of a leader. The amount of people he helped today is immeasurable!!
#mentalwellness
#nflbrotherhood
Cancel the pity party. Pull yourself together and take total ownership for everything in your life. That’s how it all starts, life isn’t fair, it’s how we deal with it that matters.
#soberlife
#Accountability
1st time returning as a former
@chargers
player. Anxiety is the best word to describe how I was feeling. This was different, my family was by my side, I really like who I see in the mirror now and I wanted to celebrate with my former teammates.
#soberlife
#BoltUp
#nflbrotherhood
Hey Mike you can critique my Top 25 without personally attacking my recovery. There are many individuals who follow me for hope around their addiction pasts and you only contribute to the stigma persisting. You can be better.
And
@CollegeGameDay
is supposed to be a celebration of
#CFB
. Instead, they choose to make it a big joke, and everyone on the panel enables it. Just a bunch of wind socks.
#CougsvsEverybody
Jake Dickert was fired up about the lack of respect shown to WSU on ESPN this morning saying Lee Corso called today’s game the “No one watches Bowl” This is 1:32 well worth your time to hear Coach fight for his team
It’s jersey day at school today and my little man asked to wear my Rose Bowl jersey. It’s very cool for a number of reasons, but mainly the appreciation & gratitude for what this life continues to give me is unbelievable. Enjoy your Super Bowl weekend everyone. We certainly will!
Made this joke for a # of yrs...”This is a photo of 3 HOF players & that other guy” tonight it became a reality. Congrats to Charles & Peyton joining Randy in the
@ProFootballHOF
well deserved and earned. The coolest thing to be a finalist w/ these great football players & men!
@NFLPA
@mortreport
The Fuck it is. Stop pushing out your and the NFL’s propaganda. You are just as complicit in what happened. How do you look at yourselves in the mirror.
Not enough people are talking about what a great job
@briangriese
is doing coming out of the booth as the QB coach for the
@49ers
. Managing 3 different guys and the 3rd String player playing the best down the stretch. 👏🏻
Just an update after another 2 months of progress of mental wellness & health. I started this on July 3rd after going thru a few months into this pandemic and felt there needed to be a shift in perspective. Down 80 lbs as of today!
How bout this for full circle. Guy to my left was my Warden while I was in Prison. Today I spoke to the National Convention of Wardens. He also received the National Warden of the Year award. There’re a ton of people who have supported & carried me thru this all. He’s 1 of them!
The biggest lesson for me last year has been to just stay sober! Lost everything? Just stay sober! Don’t know what you’re doing? Just stay sober! $1 in your bank account? Just stay sober! People played you? Just stay sober!
No matter what just stay SOBER!!
#soberlife
No I’m not. The thought that I would wish for someone to struggle and not have the best career possible and live their dream would absolutely fly in the face of my life’s purpose.
#soberlife
I think the best thing I ever did in my adult life was start digging deep and asking myself why I am the way I am and do things the way I do. It takes a ton of work and intent, but getting to know yourself on a much deeper level will only help you thrive!!
#soberlife
#mindset
I love when people that have been through hell walk out of the flames carrying buckets of water for those still consumed by the fire!!
#shareyourstory
#soberlife
Who say’s 1 day sober isn’t a big deal?? In active addiction, we think about using every minute of every day. 1 day sober is 1,440 times you’ve said NO! Don’t sell yourself short.
#beproud
#yougotthis
#soberlife
A clean drug addict is a strong soul. Most humans are never faced with losing everything and then fighting every day for a better life. Addicts who survive addiction and make a comeback are BADASS!!
#soberlife
#ittakeswhatittakes
#igoturback
Well this is just a huge fucking lie. Why Bill Polian continues to spew this bullshit narrative is beyond me. Maybe he thinks it makes the story more compelling. Seems pretty compelling already, greatest QB ever, biggest bust ever. Doesn’t need ur shit editorializing Bill!
I don’t know who needs to hear this, or if I just needed to say it, but I will not continue to stand by and watch my brothers disappear because the multi billion $$$ corporation won’t do the right thing.
@nfl
@NFLPA
do something!!
#igoturback
#nflbrotherhood
3 years ago today I walked out of a prison cell with no idea what was going to happen, I HAD HOPE!! That hope has propelled me into the
#lifeofmydreams
thank you to everyone who has had a hand in supporting this complete lifestyle change. I am a
#blessed
man.
@banannazon
Oh it’s definitely scripted. You will not believe the back end $$$$ I got for my performance. I’ll be honest, there were times when I thought about just walking out of that prison cell and saying keep it I can’t do this anymore, but no, I now live that
@nfl
billionaire club life!
@wallystyle2022
@kurt13warner
@PFTCommenter
3.. out of over 25,000 players, 1000s of coaches, officials..
Why wouldn’t say Ryan Leaf come out and say it’s rigged.. yanno since his career was an absolute bomb? Or the countless players who fizzle out after a few years..
A
#soberlife
is many things... You’ll have good days, bad days, overwhelming days, too tired days, I’m awesome days, I can’t go on days, and every day you’ll still show up!! It costs you nothing to remind someone they’re not alone in this world.
#ittakeswhatittakes
#iloveyou
It really is a pleasure to see the great QB play the
@Chargers
fans have got to experience since my release in 2001. There was so much hope when I was drafted and my boorish behavior and poor play diminished that hope. Brees, Rivers, & now Herbert brings a smile to my face!
#hope
Try. Try Again. Try Once More. Try Differently. Try Again Tomorrow. Try And Ask For Help. Try And Find Someone Who’s Done It. Try To Fix The Problem. Keep Trying Until You Succeed!!
#soberlife
#igoturback
#mentalwellness
Getting your shit together requires a level of honesty you can’t even imagine. There’s nothing easy about realizing you’re the one that’s been holding you back this whole time!!
#soberlife
#lookinthemirror
#changeisgood
Wah, Wah, Wah…This is how it should have gone. “Sean is right, I was shit, I didn’t meet the challenge, it taught me a lot, hope to get that chance again someday. Respect Sean a ton, he is a Super Bowl winning Head Coach. Looking forward to Week 5 in Denver!
#Jets
OC Nathaniel Hackett opened his presser today with a response to Sean Payton:
"As a coach, we live in a glass house. There's a code and there's a way things are done in that house."
Hackett said he hasn’t heard from Payton.
(🎥
@snyjets
)
@BurtTalksSports
I don’t know Burt, I’ve received 12 DM’s since I posted it from people asking for help or simply needing to share something they are struggling with. Shame as a father with a past, accountability, this is purposeful too as well as fun!!
Your perspective in life will determine your destination. I’m blessed, I’m grateful, and I’m the luckiest person I know because of that perspective. I’ll never take a thing for granted, ever!
#Soberlife
So I received this letter last week. It’s written by Hunter S Thompson to
@Colts
Owner Jim Irsay in 1998 a month before the NFL Draft. This is unbelievable, hysterical, & ludicrous!! Have a read.
@richeisen
and I will discuss today on
@RichEisenShow
at 11:00 AM PT.
#mindblown
There ya have it folks. Washington wins the
@pac12
conference championship as 10 pt dawgs and Penix Jr in Primetime w/ all eyes on him in a big time game wins himself the
@HeismanTrophy
. Well done young man, what an impressive 2 seasons for the UW.
You don’t need to be clarifying anything. This only makes you look more and more like the child who’s been put in a time out and yet continues to justify why he’s not at fault. Just have some personal accountability please. Show those young men you can screw up and take ownership
What an amazing Rookie season at
@espn
@ESPNCFB
So grateful for the opportunity to do this for a living this year. Excited to get better, do more, & be around the great atmosphere of College Football for a long time.
#soberlife
#CFB
#lifeofmydreams
Welcome to the club, Kenny, having such a low membership we have some pretty cool perks. We have a zoom every Tuesday night, will nice to finally have a 3rd member, so tired of hearing about Jimmy’s ND glory days!!
Today's Fun Kenny Pickett stat: with just 2 touchdown passes on 195 passing attempts Kenny Pickett joins Jimmy Clausen and Ryan Leaf as the only rookie QBs ever to have at least 190 passes and a TD% of 1% or lower.
The foundation of my new life had to revolve around this thought...I’m gonna spend the rest of my life helping other people feel less broken!!
#soberlife
#solutions
#igoturback
The point of my criticism of
@CollegeGameDay
was simple. They had an opportunity to make it a celebration of
#CFB
and instead made it a joke. Direct, to the point, and also acknowledging that falling short is a human trait - it happens & we all do it!
#CVE23
#GoCougs
#GoBeavs
I returned home to Great Falls, Montana and spoke publicly for the first time since my arrest and incarceration in 2012. For someone who took so much and victimized this community, it felt wonderful to give back and be of service this time!!
#soberlife
#meetyouinmontana
#bigsky
Kyle, first I appreciate the message. Second, this post has nothing to do with me. It does have everything to do with those that still struggle, who may believe there is no hope, that there is. It can be the life of your dreams. It’s a lighthouse to those lost at sea. 🙏
@RyanDLeaf
@banannazon
should ppl be praised for doing the right thing? I c posts all the time. crazy that people seek attention for being a normal human being. Your supposed to raise your family, be a good husband, Not go to jail, ect. ppl want a damn cookie everytime they do what your supposed to
Who’s got it better than me…no one. Grateful for the support and for those who continue to carry me thru this amazing world. I’m still amazed at what this life continues to give me.
@banannazon
It's been a long journey for our buddy
@RyanDLeaf
. In 10 years he's gone from sitting in a jail cell to guest hosting the Dan Patrick Show. We looked back on his first media appearance after getting out of jail, which was with us at the Super Bowl in San Francisco.