sanje horah
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not just an egirl but an ecriture. aspiring psychoanalytic death cult leader.
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i am messianicitypilled. i have been derridamaxxing. my life is luckybreakcore. i am a souplessecel. i live blissfully day by day, embraced by the suppleness of the open future
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hottest philosophers i wish i could've milked
1: søren kierkegaard
hes the og softboy too tormented by his spiritual calling to commit to a relationship... hes like the philosophy version of hozier
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as someone who went to prison for heroin:
drug users way deeper into addiction than i had ever been have a deeper respect for order and authority than i ever do
i doubt that that is a coincidence
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i have a very good memory. do you know how i have a very good memory?
i just woke up one day and decided to have a good memory and looked at things with utter confidence that i'll remember them
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thinking about how people don't change because they are coerced or shamed, people change when they are tired of their symptom
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honestly my biggest issue dating rationalist-ish guys is that they believe my preferences are up for debate and discussion
when i express a preference most of them try to justify why they did something the way they did rather than investigate my preference
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this is the modern structure of the trophy wife fantasy — the accomplished, perfect, hypercompetent, it girl, polite and well liked by everyone
there is a particularly zoomer kind of perfectionism inherent in this fantasy, like the minimalist trend and the pilates princess,…
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much respect to him but ngl following PornHub_Vids on a facename account as a famous person is WILD
Dunking on the CEO of a $200B company for being supportive while the future of your employer is in question isn’t worth Twitter clout.
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my hot take is that neuroplasticity is a choice
people lose plasticity on a neurological level when they choose to secure what they have instead of that level of openness that can be detrimental at adulthood
At the rationalist meetup the other day we concluded that neuroplasticity is a fake popsci concept and you can learn anything at any age
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if anyone is in doubt about how sadistic lacan is, look at his conception of love
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sadism very rarely takes the form of “wanting to hurt someone for no reason”
it is usually “wanting to hurt someone for their own good”
it is a crucial part of the sadistic fantasy to be able to hurt someone and *be in the right* to do so /
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every one i know who successfully keeps up an exercise habit long term do so out of an obviously sadomasochistic impulse
weightlifting training patterns are basically optimised for causing you pain in a way you can power through more than actual vanity results
most people don’t exercise bc it’s fucking boring dude. that’s it. it’s literally boring as hell. especially things like weightlifting, which is 9/10 times just grinding for vanity reasons. and people are always going to be iffy about it until we normalize play as exercise
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hot take but i don’t think twitter is the place for you to be too authentic, vulnerable or honest. even if (and especially if) you’re anon
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reading philosophy has been the best nootropic
thoughts are legitimately clearer and faster. ive tried everything up to intramuscular cerebrolysin and peptides and none of them helped as much as lacan did
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mao zedong is unironically mom-coded
he's a mervert (maternal as opposed to paternal perversion) bc his regime is based on a kind of reality denying devotion towards his law and what he sees as his child (that is, his vision of the future), made as ruthless and fearsome as only…
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embarrassing rationalist story, get your screenshot buttons ready because i'm deleting the fuck out of this
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this is the sexual non relation, boy fantasy vs girl fantasy, described by analogy
the lacanian super predator — male and female — is predominantly a male fantasy
guys believe that women want a lacanian super predator alpha chad who crushes all poon, and women secretly like to…
the current pop culture male archetype is the murder twink and the female archetype is lacanian super predator and people wonder why the birth rate is going to zero
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2. jacques lacan
i can imagine him smoking weed and popping pills, so drenched in irony and avoidance he should've been born a zoomer, autistic as all hell yet with unparalleled rizz. feminism would leave my body the moment he talked to me
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drug addiction isn't a matter of the weakness of moral fibre being overwritten by baser impulses
even though its easy to fantasise of addiction as a preoedipal psychic economy of the hinterland, drug addiction IS superegoic!
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candidly and openly discussing your vulnerabilities is an unconventional and subtle status signal because it shows you are so secure in your strength you don’t mind exposing your belly
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4. felix guattari
"a definite no way psycho bitch" "I know damn well I’d be bent over for Guattari the second he asked cause there’s no way he couldn’t fuck like his life depended on it, but Deleuze prob only did like three positions and didn’t eat ass"
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i think this works for other traits, too, like intelligence and rizz and speed of thought. skills you gain just by irrationally believing you have it. but this is my personal experience — it works for memory
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subjectively the feeling of "i need another hit, i need to buy another serving" is dictated in the exact same register as "i need to complete this task by tonight" and associated with the exact same rush of focus and drive and occasionally panic
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3. ludwig wittgenstein
oh you sexy beast
looks like david tennant and fucks like crowley
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and somehow that works. in visual memory iq tests i get almost full marks. i don't know why but it does
i watch on with casual, indifferent confidence; just letting images burn into my mind, trusting that something within me but beyond me can call it out on command
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drug addiction is not a failure of the superego
my fellow prisoners were all plenty superegoic, often to a fault
impulsive, yes, aggressive, too, but with a strong sense of right and wrong and honour and dignity
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and then they get offended when i refuse to budge because i'm not listening to them or whatever
all while never asking a single question about what i want or why
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hot people get away with lemurring because when they stare at you silently you're gaslighted into thinking you're the awkward one
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zizke talks a lot about the "superegoic injunction to enjoy"
that is how drug addiction is experienced. as a demand, a command
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the idea of prison to rehabilitate prisoners by instilling discipline and a stronger superego and more respect for authority is misguided
because everyone around was extremely capable of discipline and regimen
the exact same drive that makes their drug addiction dangerous
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no one is coming to save me, no lover, no messiah, and not even myself. i must stop holding out hope for an absolute subject that can be the clinamen of history, i must stop giving up hope for the unprecedented and unimaginable.
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the replies exemplify exactly why it's hard to be a girl pervert
no matter what nasty little fetishes i have, i would be hot, i would be sexy, i would be wild, i would be a slut
but i wouldn't be a pervert
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the "trophy" girl is a girl who is lofty, out of reach not merely by virtue of her beauty but of her character and accomplishments
she must seem to not need him, and yet need him anyways against all reason
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gifted kids are all traumatised because if you learn easier you also get traumatised easier because trauma is a manifestation of learning
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correction kierkegaard is like philosophy hozier if hozier was actually protestant instead of. vaguely gnostic
his love story with olsen reminds me so much of "from eden"
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the coveted accessory men want is no longer the pretty doll on his arm or sitting at his home, but someone intelligent and hypercompetent willing to bear his name above her own
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absolutely humiliating how controlled i am by signifiers. its disgusting how ran through i am by the symbolic.
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apparently it's contentious to say that agency is bad. oh no. anyways.
agency for agency's sake is worse than useless, it stops you from being able to use that agency.
you dont need to increase your agency. nobody does
what you need is meaning, something to live for and die…
agency is a bad thing to strive for in itself because it leads to this hollow soulless "grindset culture" defined by grinding nonstop without really anything to grind for
running from death, trying to stay alive without anything to stay alive for
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thinking about how at some point you'd have gathered so much lore that no one can truly know you anymore
all that can be offered, then, is a commitment to exploring you in all your multiplicity
i wonder if this the point in life where lovers become more important than friends
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adhd is a modern pathology caused not by the advent of technology but by the demise of god
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when i was 11, 12 or so i decided to think faster and i did. instead of walking through my thoughts with words i imagined my thoughts skipping like stones on water, like a monkey swinging from tree to tree, like sherlock holmes making improbable split second connections
it…
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it is their superego that makes them dangerously aggressive, not their failure to install a superego
because of the sadism inherent in the superego that makes them need to punish
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else it's just straightaway interrogation which is also unpleasant
what is so hard about respectfully going "can i ask why?" like fr
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even though high openness is presented as an unambiguously positive trait, it really isn't because it can make you vulnerable to infohazards in a way that fucks you up real good in the psychofauna age
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who wants in on a psychoanalytic death cult? reply to join
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the prisoners in my section of prison dedicated to drug abusers were remarkably militaristic in their discipline
they'd discipline me over what i saw as minor aesthetic matters such as the way i folded my blankets and tucked my shirt even when the officers don't care
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all men know is use phone read nietzsche extractively introject eat hot chip and lie
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someone said you can steal any tweet if you preface with "someone said" and end it with "and i still think about it" and i still think about it
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by "would" i mean "would feel your gaze upon me, fiery with desire" not "would fuck" because female sexuality is inherently narcissistic
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if you’ve met sadists, you would know
the most sadistic person you know is also the most self-righteous, sanctimonious person you can possibly imagine
this is not a coincidence. self righteousness is part of the sadistic fantasy
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else it's acting like my boundaries/preferences are something to goodhart
no sorry i will not autistically delineate what is okay and what isn't. i won't spoonfeed you instructions that if you follow won't have me annoyed or turned off by you. i won't engage in a discussion on…
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@animalologist
> like she was a part of my flesh
this is NOT the compliment op thinks it is, smh. women arent an appendage.
it's weirdly objectifying/totalitising yet masked as love.... has op ever considered loving someone while respecting them as an individual in their own right?
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brooke talked about her experience with addiction in this excellent thread
brooke is a brilliant woman who is unusual in a lot of ways
her superego, her strong sense of morality and social mores... is, in my experience, typical of addicts
18/ In the beginning, I was what you'd call a functional addict.
I kept that up, with varying degrees of success, for many, many years.
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you know you aren't signalling status and discernment by following less people, right?
you know people can look at your tweets to see whether your follower/following ratio is deserved, right?
based on the quality of what you write and how unique it is. your tweets speak for…
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these arent seasoned prisoners and career criminals, but fellow first timers, not imposing prison norms on me but their own expectations of consideration towards others
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people were mad at me for posting this because its cynical
to me it's a sign of deeper cynicism and a skill issue that recognising the lack of sexual relation cannot be understood as anything BUT cynicism. to me the lack of sexual relation is cause for hope
these people literally could not peel a banana or drive a car without making it into some fuckass constructed reality in which each of us is fundamentally and irremediably Alone
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disorienting moment where i realise oh fuck i do this
btw has anyone investigated the phenomenon where you lie down in bed with a woman and as you're looking into each other's eyes, about to kiss, she says "hi :-)"
this has happened multiple times
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if you're trying to flirt with me life pro tip i don't like when people say degrading things about me
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they'd tell me off over minor inconsiderations nobody else had ever cared about before
for which i am grateful because im glad to be more conscious of little ways in which im affecting others
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helps a lot whenever i find myself stuck in a bad habit again to ask myself "aren't you tired?"
then i remember that i'm tired of repeating the same failure over and over so i stop and do something else instead
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pov you're reading alienation in perversions and seeing yourself a little too much
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what is milady twitter and what is the charlotte fang lore
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how do you precisely explain to your partner "please don't embarrass me" when he teases you about your past love life, mental health, personal struggles not without shame and other sensitive topics in an EA meetup where you are around acquaintances you want to leave a good…
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rationality messed me up because my intuition is a wellspring of information that i suppressed and ignored because i was afraid of motivated reasoning 1/
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i get basically asked prove that my set of preferences are complete and consistent before they're willing to accept them (and we're not even talking about follow-through)
that is *categorically* impossible, godel's incompleteness theorem hello?
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cops, for instance, are structurally sadistic. “it is not i who wants to hurt you, these are the rules”
positioning themselves as an instrument of some greater moral law to enact evil /
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eliezer yudkowsky
who’s the most embarrassing person you find attractive? DO NOT LIST ANYONE ACTUALLY EVIL IF YOU THINK A MURDERER OR DICTATOR IS HOT KEEP IT TO YOURSELF
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in the sadist’s fantasy, none of the injuries caused to the victim besmirch upon their moral high ground, and indeed it is these very acts of injury that is grounds their moral superiority /
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they were friends for two years then actually dated for a year then he spent most of that year being avoidant
then he broke off the engagement and pined after olsen for more than a decade and when she left his city he died 8 months later
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trying to establish a sexual relation when there can be NO sexual relation is literally trying to eff the ineffable
wordplay intended
to fuck the unfuckable, but also to comprehend the incomprehensible, to bridge across the impossible gulf of two people's real subjectivities
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there are no rules because the only thing that matters is the other party's enjoyment and if you can't accept that then maybe dont date?
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why do women like skooks so much. what is his success as an eboy
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boy perverts be like normal functional members of society who watch futa sometimes. girl perverts be like the least well adjusted human being you can possibly imagine
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agency is a bad thing to strive for in itself because it leads to this hollow soulless "grindset culture" defined by grinding nonstop without really anything to grind for
running from death, trying to stay alive without anything to stay alive for
i’ll do it: it’s actually bad to have more agency than you have a clear understanding of your values. that’s a recipe for being preyed on by people who want your agency to serve their agenda. refusing to cultivate agency can be a defense against this
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it's this attitude that my preferences are not worth respecting unless i know exactly what they are
@sanjehorah
Well, reading the thread makes it pretty clear you don't know what you want. Why's it any concern of mine, then?
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i received less weird horny/icky responses to my more explicit posts and more politely flirtatious responses
has anyone ever studied this phenomenon
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the illusion that you can be accepted for your authentic self by a faceless audience is addictive.
it’s dangerous, when you feel like you can gain the acceptance of society for the parts of you that were rejected
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i realised i have more compassion towards chaos than most because he validates what i suspect deep down about everyone
he proves himself as evil as i keep trying to prove everyone is, which means i go easy on him
which is fucked up and i apologise for defending him
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i get it's fun in small doses to a certain kind of person. it just gets excruciatingly draining when you are actually in a relationship with someone. being rule-lawyered gets old
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@sailaunderscore
this is what zizek meant when he said that wokism and religious fundamentalism appear as incompatible opposites but are basically the same
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this was my experience too
feeling a need to constantly pursue a goal, chase something is part of why i spiraled into drug addiction — because i can obsess about pursuing my next hit
i feel irresponsible and lazy unless i am consumed by something i do
@sanjehorah
Damn this thread is gold. As an addiction-sensitive person I recognized so much of this. Letting go of addictions has for me indeed been through first a "relaxation" of superego which is often accompanied by feelings of "sinfulness" or "laziness" or "irresponsibility"
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this isn't going to be relatable to everyone, this isn't meant to describe everyone, this is just a pattern of crushes i see men around me have on women. if you know, you know.
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