#edtwt
27yrs cw 97.8 ugw 84 🇬🇧 🐕
ANA-BP/ANA R
ED began 8yrs old diagnosed 12yrs old
It's been a long old slog 🙄
Pro recovery for others, just not moi 👻!
@yumenoyuuma
Yeah this unfortunately is reality when you have an ed for a long time...our survival impulses kick in eventually and it starts the body vs the mind fight. Your body will eventually fight to stay alive and that's why it's so common for ana r to become ana bp/bulimia
I really don't think anyone without an ED can understand the guilt around eating.
I ate tuna for the first time (I've been liquid ensures for years). I felt so guilty for eating 'real food' because I don't deserve it. My support worker just did the patronising 'poor you' shit.
@isaguor
That's very clever how meghan drops all the breadcrumbs to avoid actually saying the lie and lets Oprah do it. "If that's the assumption YOU'RE making then.." I'll give her this, she's a master of manipulation an a complete coward.
@bluntgutzss
Totally get you, I don't think you realise how central food is to people's lives until you get an ED. It brings people together unless it terrifies you, then you end up feeling totally isolated in social situations.
@omadluvr
I totally agree.Everyone expects us to understand because it's "our brain" but that logic is like going to the Dr with chest pain and them responding "well it's your heart, YOU tell me what's wrong,".Huh?! Without these communities I wouldn't be able to understand my thinking 😵💫
@CelsiusDiet
Unbelievable emotional pain, where I get hit with a feeling of being winded but in my chest. I have ptsd. And when this hits it literally brings me too my knees. Eating, drinking, it doesn't even occur to me. I have complex ptsd so it's a bit weird 😞 sorry
@angelicfemme444
That's just called honest reality...everyone's TDEE is different so there isn't one magical number that fits everyone. I do myself no favours bc I'm addicted to fasting at the moment eventhough I know it inevitaly will leas to a binge. High res is sustainable/realistic long term
I don't remember having a "normal relationship" with food...how do people eat without fear and guilt. People are expecting me to make changes to "get better" but that's like saying you need to start thinking like an astronaut...I don't know how an astronaut thinks sooo..?
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Late catching up. I actually disagree with everyone saying how Laura spent all her time "helping Arthur". In my eyes Arthur's been helping her to lighten up, not be so snobby amd actually be authentic. She changed by becoming softer and losing this chelsea facade she had
#MAFSUK
@highnstarving
@omadluvr
@vvannilllaa
Exactly, they don't see it's not really about the food...it's a very complex coping strategy and it's not a choice. They don't see the guilt, fear, shame 's like telling a depressed person to "just laugh"...you can't because you're being crushed by despair
@tarasblog
Inpatient: followed me around,threatened to take walks away.Hopped on pronto then
Outpatient:if your not under section(uk) you could ask to do it a different day/ think about blind weighing (reversing on).it's scary at 1st but way less stressful long term,worked well for me.
I've just seen a 'junior edtwt' group 🤯 The tweet was an 11 yr old asking if you drink water or not during a fast?!!!
This is SO disturbing
I can't comment so I reported. I feel so guilty for writing my fucked up thoughts w/o thinking who might see it
Any ideas what we can do?
@sk1nn1heart
Oh if only it was that easy, just a phase! I wish people could realise that EDs aren't a choice...we didn't just choose to blow up our lives for the fun of it. If they could here the voice in our heads they would realise we're trapped.
@sk1nn1heart
I totally relate to that feeling of 'this is the only thing I'm good at'. The sense of achievement makes you feel like your succeeding. It's such a tough addiction to break,I hope you know that you're more than your ED,even if you can't see it now.Just take it one day as time♥️
So own it Tasha and you should be ashamed of yourself for your aggression simply because Erica dares has an opinion. Tasha is the type of person to smile and be sunshine when you first meet her, but soon her bitterness will seap through. Get therapy
#mafsuk
#mafs
@malyshka444
You could maybe do intermittent fasting first and then gradually increase the fasting time. Maybe start with 18/20 hrs fasting and 6/4 hrs to eat. It just gets your body used to the fasting time until it just comes naturally
@zombixgirl
What a catch *😬*. Single life with an ED is an absolute sigh of relief in my opinion, once you get used to it. All the secrecy and pressure got too much for me, but obviously everyone's different. Onwards and upwards 👌
@CelsiusDiet
Noo, I would never want someone else to be stuck in this hellhole. If someone wants to recover, I'll get my pompoms out for you. I can't, and I have tried soo many times, but I'm definitely not against it. I just suck at it!
@mysillyX
@piersmorgan
Why would they need to lower themselves to answer to a totally random mud slinger? There's no need to act when your enemies are busy hanging themselves...he's doing a magnificent job of that. The transparency of his lies makes me cringe.
@crystalcaloriez
Oh FINALLY someone's brave enough to say it. We never had pizza growing up and I've actually never eaten it. So i guess that's why I don't get it, you can't miss what you don't know. It just looks unappealing to me. But we're a rare breed 😆
Is anyone SO TIRED of losing then gaining the SAME GODAMN WEIGHT OVER 😡& over 🤬& over 🤯....?!
I feel like a lab rat, stuck on a wheel. Running in circles and never moving forward 😵💫 arghhh!!
@ALICNSUPCRSTAR
She's always had such a slender body but it does look natural ish. I personally don't find her triggering (or models etc) because it has to look slightly achievable to me.They're way too beautiful and tall to relate to, so it's kinda like looking at a statue? I'm mental I know🥴
Actually shocked: down 3.4 Ib in one day without fasting! 💪
Boy, did my ass do a lil'naked boogey on the scales to celebrate
Today's a gooooood day 💫
#edtwt
#bodycheck
@cryingbloody
It depends how you define liquid fasting , for me that would be just ensures/protein drink with under 500 cals per day. If it's a 0 ca/waterl fast then yup you lose weight quickly. But it sets you up to b/p so your weight rebounds higher than your sw usually.
The way peggy talks about her family makes them sound like the mafia "I cant go against my family blah blah blah" on repeat. Run George you deserve to have your own feelings considered and be your own person
#mafsuk
If you have to keep "prooving" yourself over and over to someone (cough peggy) then your not seen as an equal. You'll never feel good enough for them even though the reality is, actually you're too good for them. These men need to know their value and leave
#mafsuk
Daily: 104.3Ib
2 babybells (170 cals)
Tea and oat milk (30 cals)
Total: 200 cals
Aimed to do high res keto by I was too knackered to prepare anything
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@rinsdrum
Get yourself some electrolytes...a good sports drink with sodium, Potassium, magnesium. Low magnesium causes muscle pain and spasms. Don't get the diet version so you'll have some glucose too to stabilise your blood glucose. It should work pretty fast Get checked if not
Watching supersize vs superskinny when I'm on the treadmill makes me feel like I'm sucking up to my ed. Like I'm trying to become an ed prefect or something.
#edtwt
Problem is Peggy's widely misjudged the public...George's is the liked one and peggy is now widely dispised for being an absolute abuser. Her saying on the couch that he's different behind closed doors and he's hurting her is a way of trying to gaslight the viewers.
#MAFSUK
@TMZ
Err no, he's given spousal support to the tune of half a mill plus. Why? He's not her child or looking after a child so what the hell does this man need money for? He has limbs he can get a job
@edladymary
You will, we all feel "fat" regardless of what weight we are. I can be at my lowest weight and if it goes up by a 0.01Ibs I still feel the same disgust as I do at a higher weight. You're perception gets warped with an ED and unfortunately feeling fat is part of it!Stay strong ❤️
@stars4pix
Oooh collarbone for sure.
I love running my hand down my chest grid like a xylophone (totally insane🤪).
My chest grid is currently hidden under a layer of failure at the moment though 😬
34hrs into water fast, so I far so good. But the next 48hrs are usually the toughest, so I'll try and keep busy. I've got my eyes on the paradise after 72hrs...no food urges, ethereal fairy feeling=bliss. Just got to cross the troll 🧌 bridge of temptation to get there 🤞
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@AvalineArry
@BaronessBruck
Did they really?! Is there anything between their eyeballs or is it just dollar signs floating in empty space. He was visibly deteriorating for a long time...did mm think he was using her stage make up?! Unbelievably sociopathic.
@bentley_babyy
Wow this is truly beautiful in so many different ways! Incredibly inspiring that there might be hope in all this darkness.
You and your baby deserve pure happiness and fulfilling lives ❤️
Im addicted to watching 'Sean of Steel's reaction to my 600lb life eps on YouTube
He's a former 600Ib' er who had surgery and gives great insights/advice about weightloss, mixed in with some brutal humour.
GIve it a try if you're want to spice up your weightloss show options
What the hell is ella wearing on that date?!! And jj looking like a disinterested dealer with his bum bag. Both great promoters of authenticity
#mafsuk
@HRHGrandDuchess
@PaulMatthewHunt
Is this the same queen who was desperately trying to get M to reconcile with her dad before her wedding which she refused even though he'd just had a heart attack? Oh,the same queen who changed centuries of wedding traditions & personally selected the best gospel singers for her?
Getting my period is just a visual reminder that I've failed 🤢
Even the word "womanhood" gives me chills. I just don’t want it, I still feel like a child.
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@taradiaries
Heavy restriction makes the digestives system slow down, especially at a really low weight. Unfortunately ed's cause really irregular constipation depending on how much you're eating. I've really messed mine up so bloating and rabbit droppings every few days is my normal too 🙃
@rustyponies
Helloo, there lot's of us here with you. We're never truly alone, even when it feels like the world's closing in on you. (Btw,I'm assuming your struggling *which is obviously fine*, if I've got this wrong please feel free to ignore this!"
@skinniebunnies
You're not the only one don't worry.I've got osteoporosis and infertility. I need work on my teeth now.I thought I was invincible and then all of a sudden it caught up with me all at once it 's easy to feel guilty but remember we didn't choose this 🫶
I find fasting so easy but as soon as I eat something my brain goes crazy. All the food noise comes back on full volume. 🤯
I'll appreciate the quiet while I can.🥴
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@shooter_breeze
Imagine how awful it must be for him to hear about Harry's and TW's attempt to recreate the situation that killed his mother. They constantly stoop lower than ever thought possible.
First day of fast✅️I'm starting to feel empty and clean again,finally! I nearly gave in to the intrusive thoughts at times, sometimes it's SO hard to stop thinking about food.Blowing out my brain cells with music did the trick.May go deaf but at least I'll be thinner
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@windowgrass
I think this is reeeallly common with ED's. Feeling "ill enough" or "thin enough" is an illusion we all chase because it's a lie that we can't help but believe. You're not Alone, I know it's a trap but I still feel it and follow it as strongly.
@skinnysince1998
It might be low magnesium, that can cause muscle aches/spasm. If you drink a 0cal sports drink with electrolytes it might help? I get it after day 3 of a fast. Stretching your limbs out might stop it spasming short term too
@imstar_ved
Oh yes please,I'll take a kettle, coffee and tea (stereotypical british🙄I'd take a mini kettle everywhere if I didn't look like a toral nutjob).Add in some workout equipment and voila👌.Lock me away until 90Ib, in fact just loose the key. Now THAT's my idea of a good time 🥳
@lightlycocoa
It's opens pandoras box of suicidal just end up hungrier afterwards so it leads to more bingeing. It then becomes impossible to stop, once turns into daily etc. I couldn't even stop after I started throwing up blood and ended up rupturing my esophagus.
@MAFShysteria
If that's the reason...JJ's got himself a stage 5 clinger. And he complained about poor bianca being too much pfffffft, you aint seen nuffin'yet mate..oh she must be watching this unfold hysterics
@w1nt3rgirl_35
Wow you're legs are perfection! They're soo long...mine are stumps for legs and a weirdly long torso, nice right? Even at my lw I had calf muscles like an Olympic cyclist. Not cute 😅 I've not really sold this well...but fancy a swap??
Girl's gotta ask 🙏 🤣
I grew up in a house that threatened
To crack beneath my feet.
Carefully creeping around,
Because if I made a sound,
Rage would burn it all down.
I don’t know when it started,
or even know why just that, I was a child
And my first steps were on egg shells.
#cptsd
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