Adulthood taught me that I am not special.
I grew up receiving praises for my intelligence/brilliance from everybody. I went for competitions, won an ‘overall best’ award in a public secondary school that had over 100 of us in a class. A lot was expected of me and-
as an intelligent child/teenager who loved to read, everyone simply figured that I’d do great as an adult. I believed the same too. All I had to do was go to school and things would fall in place for me. Being unable to attend a university was life’s first lesson.
I blamed all of my failures on that fact. “If I had gone to school I’d be doing better” “If I had a degree I’d not be at this point.” I was special after all, I was the intelligent kid, things were supposed to align for me. Or so I thought.
But there was nothing. Maybe that was where it all started. The anxiety, the self doubt, the fear of being a fraud, the knowledge that I’d fail no matter what I did. As the intelligent kid whom everyone had high hopes for, I could not confess to anyone that I was sinking.
Years after that, I had to move on. I couldn’t continue bemoaning my fate. Couldn’t keep blaming everything on the fact that I didn’t go to school. But without it, I had nothing else to blame. I could not accept the fact that I just wasn’t special, it had to be something.
That I was a mess financially. That I did not know what path I was supposed to take in life. That I knew everything but I knew nothing. I was supposed to know these things, I was supposed to have my shit figured out so asking for guidance was out of it.
Saying that Elsa should not have made that video about Naomi Campbell is exactly how bullies thrive. A victim tries to speak up and it’s “you should have kept quiet, now she’ll bully you more.”
While that may be true, it is more reason to support the victim. The more victims
Normalize catcalling men. Down to the sound they make with their lips as if they’re calling a bike man.
Woman: “Fine boy, my color” (insert bike man sound)
Man: *ignores
Woman: “You no even fine, see as e leg bend go one side sef.”
I still don’t. And now I panic everyday more than I used to. I panic because everyone else has got their lives figured out. Even those who are struggling today at least know what they want to do, where they want to go. I do not.
I have come to realize that I am more productive when attached to someone/something. I make them/it my personality. In someone else’s personality, I feel like a real person, I’m more secure.
So yeah. It has been difficult acknowledging that being intelligent does not equal success in life. And that I might never be successful like I’d have hoped to be. But if I procreate, I pray with everything in me, that I am able to give them a good head start in life.
Relationships are hard for me to walk away from because walking away means losing whatever personality I had. And that means feeling naked. It means asking myself over and again “Who am I?”
I hope I am able to teach them that, they’re good enough and that they’re more than the things that they know. I hope I never make them feel like they have to figure out their way in life themselves even when they don’t know how to. I
I hope I love them so fiercely that they know there’s always a place in my space for them when they make mistakes in life and need to start over. I hope they do not inherit this mental disease.
I hope I give them an environment that shows them they can be their own person and be confident without having to be attached to someone or something else.
My sister was just 20 years old when she AND Bidemi got pregnant. Him and his useless mother denied responsibility. They said they’d not accept the pregnancy without a DNA test. I was still working as a pedicurist and trying to find my feet as an adult but I had to take care of/
Lmao not me seeing the boy that impregnated my younger sister and denied his son, on Nigerian Idol. Bidemi and his mum (who is also a single mother) both denied responsiblity for my nephew. Deadbeat dads making it in life shows you that karma is a myth.
Soft launching is so sweet. Because people are mad they can’t see his face and that’s the point. They know he exists now, they just don’t know who he is. I love it so much
When Mike told Phoebe that he didn't ever want to get married- after they had just moved in together- she called the relationship quits.
Not because she didn't love him. In fact, he was the first man she ever really loved, and yet she ended it with him. She wanted marriage, a
As a woman, you need to get eaten out by another woman at least once in your life time to understand that you’re suffering in the hands of these men 🙏🏿
You’ll be in your house that has an inverter and an Ac in every room with your fat bank account and be typing “suicide is never an option.”
Look around you, people cannot live anymore. It is freaking tough out here.
Type your RIP and go!
Lmao not me seeing the boy that impregnated my younger sister and denied his son, on Nigerian Idol. Bidemi and his mum (who is also a single mother) both denied responsiblity for my nephew. Deadbeat dads making it in life shows you that karma is a myth.
Sex isn’t something done to us as women (unless it’s rape). We have sex too because we want to, so this narrative tires me out. A man not liking you back is one thing, being horny and having consensual sex with him is another thing.
Please guys, I didn’t think this tweet would reach this many people. I am organizing a tour that’s supposed to happen this weekend and I still need people to join for it to be successful. Please
Wizarab created and spread a false narrative about Austa who was murdered by her boyfriend. Everyone chose to listen to him instead of her own mother and brother.
Now another woman has been murdered, her sister talked about how she had been suffering domestic violence before
Small joke about something you people have been doing to us for ages, look at how men are upset about it and asking me what I’ll do if he beats me. So if a woman catcalls you you’ll be mad enough to beat her and yet you do it to women? Idiots
Do you get?? Like after displaying his penis for random women to gobble up in public he’ll now be expecting one innocent woman to forgive this kind of past and marry him. Gosh
Any time a man calls you ashewo, never argue. Simply tell him you do the job with his mother and watch him almost lose his life. It has always worked for me
@MikePosner
I’m currently 26, and I’m where you were at when you wrote that sad song. It’s one of my favorite sad songs but I hope that by my 36th year, I will have grown past it too.
Lol they’re on her side because she has not said anything. Nigerians will support you if they believe you to be “humble” and in need of their support. If May has come out to tell her side of the story, they would have immediately started poking holes in it and castigating her/
So proud of Nigerians for being on May’s side. Do you know what it means for people on Instagram to defend a woman so vehemently? And Facebook! It’s like everyone just said “that’s our baby” and started acting accordingly. Yul must be in a lot of pain 😂😭😭
@Mochievous
A lot of things said during the talking stage determines whether or not I’ll be taking things further. One thought we were gisting and just casually told me he sabotaged his ex’s job after they broke up. I was like okay okay, otiyemi.
@Eazy__josh
We have the same nose, but yours is the pro max version. Head too, pro max. But the brain inside is unfortunately the size of beans. So you have a big nose, a big head, and you’re useless. How does it feel to exist as a useless person my boy?
@Nigerianidol
@Nigerianidol_
there’s a dead beat dad on your show trying to use your platform to push himself forward in life while the woman he impregnated is unable to pursue her own career. That boy needs to do right by my nephew or be removed from that show.
Two people have a child. One person gets to deny responsibility and go on to live a good life while the other person’s life is put on hold, that’s if they’re ever able to move forward.
Two days ago, I couldn't meet up to make food for hubby. Infact, I didn't calculate well, so he went to work upset. I couldn't ask him to study his Bible or listen to the message for the day, he got back the next morning, I opened the door and quickly gave him food before he went
Lmao this yahoo boy was complaining about his ex. He said she’d visit him and stay for days, then leave without washing his clothes or cooking anything for him to eat 😂 I snorted while he was talking because he was very sad about the fact that someone else didn’t do his chores
I'm so tired of you people telling young women that cooking gives them joy, and they should keep slaving away in the kitchen.
Is it that men don't want to be joyful?
@BabyWhale___
I don’t even care about his opinion, it’s the fact that there are definitely women who will listen to this and agree with him that irks me.
Please understand that not all of us will get a bouquet of flowers in a nice restaurant and a chocolate dish that says “will you be my girlfriend?” That’s not everybody’s reality, and that’s okay. Love is not an aesthetic
@t0nit0ne
What happens when you’ve been vulnerable and you’ve made the first move, and you’ve lived out loud, said exactly what you’re thinking and shared exactly what you’re feeling only to get hurt in return? You become defensive, rightfully so.
Being single gives you the false impression that you’re more in control of your trauma, but you’re not. You simply aren’t in situations that trigger your trauma. The minute you go back to dating, you’ll realize that you never healed, you were just single.
Fast forward to 2024 and Bidemi is on Nigerian Idol. He is a great singer, no doubt. But he doesn’t get to be a dead beat father while doing the things that he loves. My sister was unable to do the things she wanted. She had to take care of her son.
This is Bidemi Balogun, he’s a dead beat father who denied and abandoned my sister’s son, 4 years ago. Today, he’s on
@Nigerianidol
doing what he loves sister and my entire family still haven’t recovered from having to take care of my nephew by ourselves.
#deadbeatsdeservenothing
My sister was just 20 years old when she AND Bidemi got pregnant. Him and his useless mother denied responsibility. They said they’d not accept the pregnancy without a DNA test. I was still working as a pedicurist and trying to find my feet as an adult but I had to take care of/
“You don’t even care if I’m horny or if I rape someone”
So women have to give this adult baby sex out of concern that he might rape another woman if they don’t? Even his voice sounds disgusting.
@Lagosdsva
he arrested her, please look into this 🙏🏾
See somebody’s fav head of house and alpha mail begging for sex and Using Rape as a threat. As per the girl should have slept with him because she doesn’t know if he could have raped someone.
Mark Angel is a mad man for this. Apologizing to pedophiles who were sexualizing your child??? The “talk” he’ll have with her won’t pass telling her to cover up. Imagine blaming a 13 year old child for being sexualized by grown men
@ass_of_a_god
Thank you for this question.
Thing is, there’s no point where she’d speak and not get blacklisted. Naomi will always have more connection, and power regardless of how far she (Elsa) makes it. So why not just say it now and get it over with?
I feel like she might have some
I’m not pro-suicide either, but let me tell you as someone who has been at that point of wanting to take their own life before, it is not a cowardly act. You have to be strong minded to decide to do it, and actually carry on with it.
You have to have been pushed to the wall-
Feminists don’t know everything about feminism, we should be able to ask certain questions about things that confuse us without other feminists piling on us and making it look like we’re not real feminists. We’re all still learning one way or the other. Teach others or keep quiet
my sister during pregnancy. When she put to bed my mum kept calling so that they could do the test. Him and his family bounced the calls. They insulted my mum. I told my mum to never call them again. They had to come live with me in 2020.
Looking at his face and just seeing my nephew makes me upset all over again. He abandoned that child. I cried so many nights looking at my nephew and knowing that he’d never get to experience the love of his own father because he was born in a useless family.
But there’s no male privilege. And his pick me mother isn’t an upholder of the patriarchy, it’s me that these lesbians are calling the upholder because I’m straight. You have all gone mad.
@doctor_sade
The fact that I got shamed when I was younger for having a big nose and mine isn’t even as big, I can only imagine what she has had to deal with in her life. Reading comments made me feel so hurt and triggered
@t0nit0ne
This was literally above your tweet. Regular women are being killed everyday and yet people are upset that someone is taking measures to ensure that they’re safe
She was 22 and a nursing student. Went on her usual run, shared her location with friends, took every precaution in the book, yet was found murdered. He didn't know her prior to running into her on the trail. He was simply a prowling blood thirsty demon look for who to devour.
for you to actually take your own life. When everything is going wrong at the same time, it takes blind Faith and Hope to keep going and not say “I’m done.”
This is why I am team believing in a God. If it helps you find solace in this dark world then believe, please 🙏🏿
Life is so funny. To think that I made that tweet because I was frustrated about people canceling on my tour. I was going to cancel the entire thing and give up on it. But after it blew up I got more than enough to sponsor the tour. Now I’m organizing - something I love to do😊
He was not accused of rape! Stop lying and dragging the poor lady. A simple search on her account will show you that it was harassment, which he agreed to and apologized for. Mental health issues is not a joke, and according to his suicide video it was the pressure of…
@petermarie_
Err, no. Most men were conditioned to believe that they’re the only ones that can have and enjoy sex while women should be ashamed of the act. Hence the belief that sex is something they do to us or we give them.
Bidemi the dead beat. You will get what is coming for you 🫵🏾 win or lose, you will forever be known as the useless father that you are alongside your very useless, pick me mother. Everybody must know what you are, long as you remain on this show.
Emotions and intense pressure 🥵 have come to play in Theatre week on
#NigerianIdol
. Being on the show means everything to the dreamers but how many dreams will take flight ✈?
Tune in tomorrow at 19:00 on
@africamagictv
Showcase and Family to watch!
A man is falsely accused of collecting money from someone and running away, men encourage him to get to the bottom of it and sue.
A woman is falsely accused of cheating on her husband and blamed for her divorce, she’s insulted for calling her accuser to confront him about it.
@YemieFash
AND SO FUCKING WHAT?????? AND SOOOO? She knew him, she trusted him, he killed her. What has her visiting him got to do with him killing her? Are you possessed???
I have received so many messages since putting out that tweet and I can’t say how happy I am to see that this many people found my peeve to be relatable.
Here’s one of my favorites that I received this morning. That third slide was too real.
for coming to explain, even though her image was being smeared. Emeka Ike’s wife kept quiet for years while he went around defaming her. The minute she spoke up, they started to insult her and call her a liar. So, I’m not moved by their support. Let her speak first and you’ll see
They do this well into adulthood, but it starts when they’re teens. My landlord’s son who was in his late twenties lied about sleeping with me when I was 18. The more leniency we give teenage boys, the more horrible adults they are to women
That was how boys used to spread rumours about girls in secondary school then. Girls that they’d never seen without clothes on but they’d be telling their friends lies about how they had sex with them and how they responded. Horrible creatures
@Munachim_
Her life was put on hold. She couldn’t do the things she wanted to do because she had to take care of my nephew. It affected me too because I had to aid in taking care of them even though I wasn’t financially okay. It’s a lot of damage and neither of us have fully recovered.
I couldn’t hold back my laughter. I don’t know her but I hope she’s having the best day ever.
He said she’d be going back to school and she’d go with his shirts that she likes, but she won’t wash his clothes for him. Lmaoooo silly boy
@escapefromnaija
@its_daqueen
@LagosMoj
You have no right to speak about people’s experiences that way. You think it is great mere allegations but it isn’t. These things happen a whole lot and they’re true. The fact that you do not believe does not make it a lie.