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I'm a #SoftwareDeveloper , a #Volunteer #FirstResponder , & a #ChildhoodTrauma Survivor. I share my #Trauma and #Healing story, so people know they aren't alone.

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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I can't speak for others, but I had a great experience with @RCMPNS coming to my house when my housemate called 911 because I was #suicidal . The officers were #calm , #professional , called #MentalHealth Mobile Crisis to get me the help I need. Give them a promotion! #ThankYou
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@deaflibertarian That's beautiful, Judi. I am so glad he saved you!
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Disclaimer: I am not a #mentalhealth professional. However, I am a trained first responder with mental health first aid certification from @MHCC_ If you DM me, everything is strictly confidential. I might not have all the answers, but I will always listen. ❤️ #PeerSupport
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I got let go at work today, and I am not ok.
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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2 years ago this month, I made a #suicide video. In the video, I said, please don't get mad at each other. This isn't anybody's fault. I just can't deal with the pain anymore, and that I'm sorry. 2 years later, I am still here. #Depression #Trauma #MyStory #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Let's #EndTheStigma that men have to be strong all the time. Instead, Men are allowed to feel #Feelings , cry, release emotions, receive #Support , and thrive. #MensHealth #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I am not perfect. I'm full of flaws. I am human. I'm doing my best. Isn't that enough?
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Which one of the following have you heard the most? 🙄
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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An excellent #reminder to check in on your friends often. You might save a life. #BuddyChecker #SuicidePrevention #Friendship #Relationship #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I have unlearned many of those #Habits , and I have #Therapy to thank for that. #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Tell your story. Somebody out there needs to hear it because they have felt alone and think no one else understands. #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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If you're struggling, please know that #YouAreNotAlone . Reach out and l will always try to reach back. ❤🤗 #KeepTalkingMH #SickNotWeak
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#NewProfilePic Yay or Nay? 😎 🐶
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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You are allowed to claim space, to shine, to trust your own pace, and find satisfaction exactly where you are. #SelfLove #YouMatter #MentalHealth
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Men need to hear more of this. #MensHealth #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
2 years
Tell me you have #Trauma without telling me you have trauma. #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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No child should grow up feeling like damaged goods. Yet, I was that child. #ChildhoodTrauma #AbuseAwareness #MyStory #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I am not #bitter . I am speaking the #truth . I am not giving up. I'm #healing . Please understand this! #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Ever wonder what the difference between a #PanicAttack and an #AnxietyAttack ? This infographic explains. #Panic #Anxiety #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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No child should ever feel like they are not being heard. Yet, I was that child. #ChildhoodTrauma #AbuseAwareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I am allowed to feel all the feels. I won't push this feeling away. A shitty thing has happened to me. I AM ALLOWED TO FEEL SHITTY. #Feelings #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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#ThankYou to everyone for their #Support and help in my hunt for a new job. I am happy to announce that I'll be starting a new role tomorrow, and I couldn't have done it without you! #Grateful
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I appreciate all of you for #Listening to me. You might not know it, but your simple act of listening had saved my life more than once. For that, I am #Grateful . #PeerSupport #Friendship #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Raise your hand if people have said those things to you. ✋ #Gaslighting #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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#Depression is more than being sad. #Anxiety is more than worrying. #OCD is more than being tidy. #PTSD is more than having flashbacks. #Bipolar is more than having mood swings. #Schizophrenia is more than seeing things. Please understand this! #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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#FuckCancer PS: My mother's cancer is back. FUCK.
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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What someone with #Depression means when they say, "I'm tired." #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Symptoms of #Depression that we don't talk about enough. #Awaress #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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10 responses to reassuring someone with #Anxiety . #ProTip #HowTo #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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This is your weekly #Sunday #TimelineCleanse . I hope it warms your heart as it did mine. I mean, how #cute is this?! #CuteAnimals #Cows
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I've been told I am "too #Sensitive ," have you? PS: Our sensitivity and #empathy are a #SuperPower .
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I grew up #Feeling #Alone , and honestly, even though I've done a lot of #Healing and I know I'm #NotAlone , those feelings still persist. #CPTSD #ChildhoodTrauma #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Please don't say, "family always got your back" because not everyone grows up with a supportive #Family . #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I hope one day I’ll no longer feel damaged, broken, or not good enough. #CPTSD #Healing #SelfEsteem #MentalHealtg
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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No child should ever question if their parents love them. Yet, I was that child. #ChildhoodTrauma #AbuseAwareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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How many of us put on a brave face every day while slowly dying underneath? #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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My #Trauma has taught me not to blindly #Trust people's words and watch their actions instead. 👁 #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
3 years
Abuse is Abuse. It doesn't matter if it's psychological, emotional, spiritual, sexual, physical, or financial. It's all wrong, and it's never ok! #AbuseAwareness #Trauma #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Sending #love to anyone... ...who feels unsafe ...who feels lonely ...who feels lost ...who feels unloved ...who feels forgotten ...who feels invisible ...who feels inferior I see you. #YouMatter . I love you! #PeerSupport #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Things you go through when you start #Healing . #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Many times, #Trauma survivors know what they need to do. However, our trauma had made us question ourselves and even our sanity! I am here to tell you. #Trust your #Intuition . Trust your gut. It rarely steers you wrong. #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I had self-harm & attempted #suicide 4 times. I am still here. I survived & fought off my demons. Point of this tweet? You might feel hopeless, but I promise you, you too will #survive . Better days are coming. I am 1 example, & I'm here for you! #SickNotWeak #mentalhealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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10 signs your #mentalhealth is getting better. Do you recognize any of them? I definitely noticed a few of those! #Growth #SelfAwareness
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I am guilty of the first two, not asking for help when I need it and keeping quiet because I don't want confrontation. 😰 What about you? #SelfBetrayal #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Sometimes I find it hard to believe that I am still here. Despite many Suicide attempts and ideation. I am still here. #MyStory #ChildhoodTrauma #ACEs #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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It's #gaslighting when you are being called suspicious for suspecting something that turns out to be true. #NarcissisticAbuse #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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#Empathy is important because what you see on the surface might just be a cover for what's going on underneath. #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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No matter how little or how slow, progress is progress! #Healing #Recovery #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Raise your hand if people have done things to you. ✋ #Manipulation #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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We are not what we experienced. We are so much more. #mentalhealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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My friend's brother ended his life on Friday. I don't know him, but I feel his pain because I've been there, and my heart breaks with her. If you are struggling, please know that #YouAreNotAlone , reach out and I will always try to reach back. #SickNotWeak #KeepTalkingMH 😭😭😭
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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A year ago tomorrow, my friend took his life. So I want to remind everyone to please check in on their friends and loved ones. Because by checking in, you might save a life. #BuddyChecker #SuicidePrevention #Grief #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I realize now why some people don't #ReachOut for help, perhaps they have reached out before, and little to no help was given, and eventually, they'll stop reaching out when they need help because what's the point? #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I do the second one quite often, and I never thought it's as me #gaslighting myself. 😰 #SelfLove #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Is it just me, or the phrase “everyone has trauma” is the most invalidating thing you can say to a #Trauma #Survivor ? 😤 #QuestionOfTheDay #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I'm sending extra #love to those who don't have a #relationship with their #father or have an emotionally unavailable one. You were always good enough. #FathersDay #YouMatter #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I am an adult, however due to #ChildhoodTrauma I never really grown emotionally. It is for this reason I struggle with changes and #Relationships . #MyStory #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Who can relate? Raise your hand! 🙋‍♂️ #OverThinking #Anxiety #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I love this, what do you think? Love to know your thoughts. #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I feel this picture so much as I have so much #Anger inside me. It makes me feel like I'm emotionally crippled. 🥺 #ChildhoodTrauma #MyStory #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I spend so many years focusing on the needs of others. I can finally say I have begun focusing on my needs and what is best for me. #SelfCare #MyStory #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
3 years
#UnpopularOpinion ? I don't like the phrase "everything happens for a reason." While I understand its sentiment, I believe it invalidates the person's feelings. #Awareness #PeerSupport #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I recently saw a video asking, "if you were successful in your #Suicide attempt, how many years would have been since we lost you?" My answer would be over 30 years. I was before the age of 10 when I first attempted to kill myself. #MyStory #ChildhodTrauma #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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One of my #therapy #goals for the year is to be assertive when voicing my opinion instead of frozen in fear that I would be ridiculed or not feeling heard. #healing #anxiety #childhoodtrauma #mentalhealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
3 years
It wasn't my choice to be emotionally traumatized. It wasn't my choice to have mental diseases. It was forced upon me. Please #understand this. #ChildhoodTrauma #CPTSD #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Have you ever felt like this? I have. #friendship #anxiety #mentalhealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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@asatallroth @AlinejadMasih I am ashamed of the Canadian Government too. Our Prime Minister @JustinTrudeau calls himself a #feminist , yet his administration voted for this.
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Those who tell you to let the past be the past don't understand how deep your scar is. #PTSD #CPTSD #ACEs #CSA #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Many people don't realize how much #strength it takes to pull yourself out of the pit of #depression and #anxiety , but I see you. I see you do it day after day. I am #proud of you. You are a badass! #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
3 years
Signs for unhealed #Trauma . For Me - #Depression , Rage, #Addiction , and Guilt and #Shame . Not as bad as before, but it still lingers. #ChildhoodTrauma #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Be the person you needed when you were struggling to the people who are struggling now. #BeTheDifference #HelpingHands #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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No child should grow up believing that they can't trust anyone. Yet, I was that child. #ChildhoodTrauma #AbuseAwareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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My #Trauma has taught me that #Words have #Power . It can break you or lift you. That's why I'm so careful with my words. I only want to #UpLift people. #WordsMatter #ChildhoodTrauma #MyStory #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
3 years
Can anyone see this?
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
3 years
Sometimes having that one person who will stick by you no matter what is #SuicidePrevention . I say this because if I didn't have that in my life, I wouldn't be here. #Friendship #Relationship #PeerSupport #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
1 year
Concerned individuals have contacted me, seeking information about this individual to safeguard themselves, their loved ones, and friends – a sentiment I share. As a result, I've chosen to disclose the person's identity: Megan Stoner. Your safety matters.
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
1 year
I won't mention a name, but there is a person I used to think of as a friend within the #MentalHealthCommunity here until I realized they were scamming me (and others) by taking advantage of my #MentalVulnerability . Stay Vigilant, friends. #ScamAwareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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I am very fortunate to be able to afford my new #Therapist . But, unfortunately, I know many people aren't, which saddens me. We need to have some type of program to subsidize #Therapy costs because many people desperately need it but aren't able to afford it. #Mentalhealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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No child should grow up wondering if they will ever be enough. Yet, I was that child. #ChildhoodTrauma #AbuseAwareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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After all these years, it still feels surreal that I attempted #suicide when I was an 8-year-old #child . Sitting on the road, hoping a car would hit me, thinking maybe then my #parents would love me. #MyStory #ChildhoodTrauma #ACEs #CPTSD #Awareness #MentalHealth
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Edward Ma, MStJ 🍁🩺
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Hi, I'm Edward. I'm just a guy who decided to turn his #darkness into #light . His #angry into #love . His sadness into #kindness . #Advocacy #MentalHealth
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