@emmakennytv
I decorated the tree purely because mum loves Christmas 🎄 each day I take a few baubles off and get her to help put them back on like we are starting again. Its one memory she does remember so its nice to share. Other than that no not Christmassy at all. X
So today I went to the train station
With intentions & was approached by a stranger whom sat and spoke with me. Thank you. I'm safe at home now and although still feeling down I'm in slightly better judgement. Kindness is everywhere.
@emmakennytv
@emmakennytv
Morning Emma 100%. I've got a friend supporting lockdowns and furlough because its saving her train fare, lunch out & clothing/make up so actually earning more. Even had the audacity to say it to my face knowing our situation whilst telling me all these luxuries she has bought X
@emmakennytv
He has hounded the nation for nearly a year whilst doing the exact opposite. Despicable person & i refuse to read any click bait he writes.
I did it. I couldn't say it so I showed it. My husband now knows about rape, my suicidal thoughts, everything. It feels weird but I feel release. This is been 5he hardest thing ever
@emmakennytv
@emmakennytv
Our region has the lowest admissions and 2nd lowest vent bed occupancy by 10 (as of last week) yet A&E at our local hosp is still closed weirdly.
Lovely to see
@emmakennytv
on
@thismorning
today, can't say enough how much her sound advise has personally helped my family & myself through some really dark, tough times.
I'm on the floor in mums hospital bay. Going to try and sleep for an hour. Thank you for all my messages of love and support. I haven't been able to reply to everyone as yet. Sorry.
@emmakennytv
please pray for as long as possible im not ready to say goodbye. X
So been asked to leave the relatives room due to covid. Mum is admitted into intensive care with suspected broken hip, leg, neck & lost alot of blood due to splitting her head open. She is so small & confused due to her dementia. Feeling very lost & upset
@emmakennytv
Good morning, big heart felt thanks to my cyber fam /
@emmakennytv
clan for getting me help last night with a visit from
@HertsPolice
. I'm safe and getting support, thank you for your messages and love. - Kaz xx
(1/3) Lock down effects everyone in different ways. Some may say its only 4 weeks, 4 weeks to some may feel like hell.
Being a caregiver to a loved one with Dementia is not easy in normal curcumstances...
@emmakennytv
The media need to step up and stop scaremongering. I can't even watch the news or read a newspaper anymore. Too much projecting fear and negativity x
@emmakennytv
My husband is now supporting the mortgage, bills & food solo. I dare not ask for money so have gone with out my mental health medication since the beginning of the year. Out of all 3 medication I'm meant to be on I choose one, my sleeping tablets.
@emmakennytv
What a despicable message to put out there... Scaremongering at it's finest. This type of message does more harm than good & im disgusted that someone with a bit of power could even share this. 🤬😡🤬😡
@Jon_statistics
I hear you !. Tory voter all my voting age, got on board with boris at the beginning.. but as data emerged and I begun to question, the more clearer it become and the distance between the party & I grew futher apart.
Had a few days off and now I'm back. Not sure if it helped. Found myself becoming more paranoid. Still look and feel like shit. I did try getting out as suggested, although in my onesie !!
@emmakennytv
I hate life, I have so much pain, I miss too many. Struggling with DBT I can't get my head around mindfulness what on earth is wrong with me thick as !!!.... I'm broken.
@emmakennytv
I'm lost.
What better way to spend my evening, mindful meditation with
@emmakennytv
@AppyWellbeing
followed by some wellbeing journalling in beautiful surroundings.
Good morning. So proud of myself for not doing anything silly last night. Some times the habits of my past creep back but each time I fight them off. I've got this. Keep the faith 🙏
@emmakennytv
Yet they are calling for another national lockdown. You'd think after 2 they'd realise they don't work. Life can not simply be about lockdown every few months. SAGE need to be held accountable for this
It’s ok not to be ok!
I've lost a few friends due to depression & i suffer with it myself, at its worst it can destroy you, it kills millions of people every year! Look after those close to you and let them know you're there.
#MentalHealthAwarenessDay
Popped home, Letter came from my assessment. Thank you everyone whom helped me when I tried something I shouldn't have & encouraging me to reach out. I don't feel ashamed nor guilty anymore. Thank you
@emmakennytv
im medicated accordingly & getting help im your success story.
Just had my social outcome assessment. I must say reaching out and getting help was the single best thing I've ever done. Getting help from all angles rather than being a suicide statistic. Thank you twitter friends and
@emmakennytv
for guiding me in the right direction. xXx
Morning all...Today we say our last goodbyes to my Mum as we finally get to lay her to rest, may she sleep peacefully now she is reunited with Dad. R.I.P my beautiful. Xx
#burial
Afternoon all, sorry for being on a downer lately. Sometimes when I struggle I don't see options but I'm safe & getting help, I'm trying its the best I can do. Thank you for the love and patience.
@emmakennytv
@emmakennytv
Seriously what about my voice, why will my human rights be silenced, for what? Yet it seems ok to troll, bully, harass, stalk online without sanctions , is this what life has come to?
Apologies all for my tweet last night. I'm in a dark place, I seem to have an endless list of issues and I'm trying to address them. I've spoken with my therapist & although I feel alone I know I'm not. So thank you everyone - Kaz 💋
@emmakennytv
@emmakennytv
Answers on a postcard please. Its becoming more and more lonely & mentally destructive when your friends and family shut you down for having a different opinion. X
Update. Dr has said mum is deteriating and the time is very near. Im all alone and scared. These could be my last minutes, hours with my mum.
@emmakennytv
Thank you everyone for your prayers mum is still holding on. I was kicked out to the corridor in the middle of the night, but ive managed to get back in her room. Just a waiting game unfortunately. Feel so broken. Xx
Hey lovelies. I'm safe, I'm well, slight embarrassed breaking down to my husband but he got me the help and safe space I needed. Hope everyone is well. Xxx
Absolutely buzzing, worked hard on my mental health the past 6 weeks and finally been told I can go home soon. Its been difficult being so far away from my family, friends and not being able to do most things i enjoy, but its been worth it to come back stronger 💙
Lovely chat with my psychiatrist, prozac upped to 60mg and was really understanding of the dramas from the past week. Daily check in calls to make sure I'm okay. - feeling positive 😁
@charliersmith1
Hey Charlie my therapist recommended making a self care box for my wobble days. Maybe something you can try. Just add your favourite things. Xxx
@emmakennytv
I hear you. I have introduced more veg to my diet having a friend with an allotment. I still like my meat though. If I'm honest I forgot the moral of the story I've had a jd !! Oppps x