Never wanted to do this but this but this is much bigger than what you owe me. you’ve always been a good friend to me up until this point. But this is the only way to get through to you, I don’t care about the impressions , I don’t care if I lose followers , and I certainly don’t
Today was supposed to be special. 2 years ago today I met the love of my life. Letting go of the person I love the most because of things you can’t control is one of the hardest decisions I have ever had to make.Happy Valentine’s Day.
Can we normalize that getting dropped /benched DOES NOT always mean you’re a bad player? Sometimes you just don’t fit into their system. Chemistry plays a much bigger role on the team than individual skill.
Today marks exactly 1 year since the day I attempted suicide. I wasn’t going to make a post about this because I wanted to leave it in the past. but I felt that this is important to remind people that it does not matter where you are in life now, it does not matter how dark /2
100 days. No one thought I’d get this far but I did. I had to take extreme measures to basically kill myself just so I could live again. This change wasn’t just physical , my whole mind and spirit transformed and it has shown in game. Thankful for all the homies that 1/2
I don’t really know how to start this. Sorry. I’m currently still at the hospital getting the professional help that I need. I never thought I’d get any lower but here I am. I will be back stronger than ever.
I genuinely hate how friendships/relationships don’t feel real these days. People talk to each other for clout or for something in return. If I interact or talk to you, I don’t give a fuck about who or what you’ve done in the scene. I truly just want to be your friend.
Today is my birthday. Never thought I’d be here after what happened earlier in May when I was in the hospital. Struggling with birthday depression but I’ll be okay. I will make this dream come true. Thank you all for making this year special for me.
Me and Julia have broken up, it was the best case scenario for both of us. Please respect our privacy. It’s all my fault , I will be deleting all social media temporarily.
@ctrrlz
I’m only gonna say this once , while I understand what you’re trying to say. People that have attempted don’t actually want to kill themselves. In the moment they feel selfless because their mind is playing tricks on them. Mental health is just as serious as any physical illness
Thank you to
@GrtBambrough
for helping resolve this situation. The people at knights are doing their best to work with Jasper. This post was to bring light to all the people that were afraid to do this, and to give him a wake up call that this needs to stop. Debating on whether
Never thought I’d be here after my suicide attempt earlier this year. I’ve come a long way and I could not have done it without all you amazing people. I finally made it to my first lan. Special shout out to
@Glorinsz
and
@SniipeZer0
for taking care of me all weekend. ❤️
This year has been extremely hard for me. It’s been 19 days since my suicide attempt and I still have days where I don’t want to be here but I learned that I have to be here. I’ve lost a lot of my skill and confidence because of everything I’ve been through but I’ll be back.
Out of the hospital. This wasn’t a setback. This was just another hurdle for me to jump over to keep moving forward. Thankful for everyone that reached out. You guys know how special you are to me. Unfortunately there weren’t any hot nurses. Anyways onto day 34.
I haven’t had much team success since my suicide attempt this year but I promise I’m working on improving every single day and it has shown it all my officials since the 100 days. I’m hungry for legacy. I want to build a name for myself one day.
I decided that I’m not leaving any time soon, I set out to go pro when my mom had her stroke and I won’t stop now. I don’t care what I’ve done up to this point, I don’t care who believes in me. I will not stop.
Hey guys, I don’t even know how to start this but my friend’s dad only has between 1-3 days left to live. I made a promise to him that I will do whatever it takes to take care of his family in anyway possible. If you can’t donate please just rt.
I remember as a kid where my mom had to keep me in a room while my dad taped down the windows and secured the place because there was a war happening in the same area. I remember the horns going off , and my mom praying to the cross. Shit isn’t a joke even if its banter.
The last 4 months has been the hardest months of my life. From my mom having 2 strokes to me and my girlfriend breaking up. I don’t know how long I can keep going. It’s been affecting me in game and out of game. But I promise that I’m trying my hardest everyday. I appreciate
LFT.
Primary OP /Brimstone/ KJ. Willing to learn new roles for the right team.
Open schedule (can book Saturdays off for tournaments.)
Message
@NoGoodNutes
or me via DMs
❤️+♻️+ Vouches appreciated.
Hearing your own mom cry for her life on the phone is the most heart breaking indescribable feeling ever. At this point in time I am unable to be with her due to covid restrictions. They only allow up to two people in the room that she’s in so my dad and my sister are there rn.
My mom tested positive for Covid on her birthday today :( everyone wish her a happy birthday and leave a nice message for me to show her later. My mom has been nothing but tough from her 2 strokes earlier last year to now. Love you mom 💗
LFT
most comfortable and experienced on primary op (Sentinel/duelist). Willing to flex for the right team.
-Coachable
-Open schedule
I'm hungry to win. Do not sleep on me.
❤️+♻️ vouches appreciated
@ctrrlz
It’s hard to understand, if you’ve never struggled and have been diagnosed with depression / anxiety or other mental disabilities. Being sad isn’t being depressed. I hope you don’t take this the wrong way.
Today I am announcing that I will be stepping down from competitive VALORANT. I have decided that it is time I focus on my preparation as I make a return to the boxing ring in 2024. I will be posting training clips on this account and I plan to stream my fights on twitch.
With
@ArchonsVAL
being put on hold. I am Officially LFT/ exploring options.
-Available everyday (Can book Saturdays off for tournaments)
- Resume Available (Includes VLR/Spike) :
❤️+♻️+Vouches appreciated
Was a good last dance. Not the way I wanted to go out. This might be the last time you guys see me. Thankful for all the people I’ve met. All the opportunities I’ve been given. It’s hard watching your dream just slip away no matter how hard you try. Don’t really know what’s next.
Almost knocked some random out for making fun of me because I chose to still wear a mask. I don’t care who you think you are. If I don’t know you like that , you are fucked.
It’s been 7 months. I’m announcing my return to competitive VALORANT and I will be actively seeking all opportunities to play the game.
Role: Primary OP/duelists. Open to other roles
DM me for availability
❤️+♻️ vouches appreciated
I openly talk about my mental health to create a space for people to understand that it’s okay. Talking Is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign of strength. I talk about my depression and anxiety to hold myself accountable because I want to better myself every fucking day /3
To any aspiring esports pro (including me), you have to want this more than just money. Esports isn’t a stable industry, and you will be working overtime in the beginning to just barely get something out of this. A lot of people in this sacrifice so much for the wrong reasons.1/
LFT
- Jett/Oper, duelists.
- Available everyday / (can book Saturdays off for tournaments)
- Looking for an established TO4 but willing to build a roster.
❤️+♻️
Vouches Appreciated
LFT once again.
-Primarily Jett OP/Duelists
- Open schedule / can book saturdays off for tournaments.
- Resume (Spike and VLR included):
❤️+ ♻️vouches appreciated.
Feels like the Valorant community is getting smaller and smaller everyday. I miss all the homies that used to compete :( I guess it’s hard to stay motivated when there’s almost nothing to play for unless you’re in franchising.
Day 1 vs day 28. Not where I want to be just yet but I still got 72 days to go. Thank you to everyone that has been supporting me since day 1. This is just the beginning. I will be living proof that you can do anything as long as you put your mind to it.
Imagine telling someone to quit their dreams because they haven’t achieved anything. I don’t take this shit as a joke, Say what you want about me, I’m chasing after passion. I’d rather be delusional than not try at all. I’ll prove you all wrong.
Bro I didn’t know getting a subie meant that I’d be part of a cult. Every subaru driver flashes their lights or throws up a peace sign 😭 love my new car tho
Update on my Mom’s situation post stroke: She’s finally able to move her hand close to normal again 😭. She’s going back for another cognitive test next week. Hoping she nails it. I believe in her. Thank you for all the prayers and the kind words. Thankful for you all ❤️
My mom’s not getting better. Got some scans back, her cognitive ability is failing. She has difficulty recalling, she has trouble multitasking, and reacting. I have no idea what to say right now. I’m going to do whatever I can to make her better, whether it’s introducing her to
Unable to reach the goals I wanted this year, from performing at an all time low to my suicide attempt to the 100 day journey. I’m satisfied with how far I’ve come. My mind likes to say I’m not destined for anything but I will keep working to change that narrative.
22 today. It’s been a rough year but I’m thankful for everyone that’s been there for me, especially the homies that went out of their way just to make sure I’m okay. I just want my mom to be okay, nothing else. I get depressed around my birthday idk why. Time for change.❤️
I wish I never had depression. It sucks how my brain can literally switch off into a person that I'm not. Its held me back in anything that I wanted to do. Hoping one day things can change for me.
People only around when it’s convenient. I’m tired of being the nice guy, tired of putting all my energy into people just to get nothing back. I’ve been focused on myself and the people I let into my life. Definitely a weird time for me.
Dropped from
@HughJassVAL
. Nothing but love for anyone on that team. Great players with a lot of talent. The team decided to go a different direction. I let the boys and most importantly myself down. I will be back soon.
My grandma just passed away from heart failure and my uncle fell on his head in the last 24 hours. I have been keeping majority of my life private recently but this shit just hurts man
Trying to teach my mom how to use her left hand since it’s been badly affected by her stroke. Trying to get her to use my keyboard etc to build her fine motor skills again. She gets tired really easy but she is one tough lady.
Just thought I’d be transparent. I have pilonidal disease (near tailbone) which has affected me for the past few years. My cause isn’t minor, It has caused me to feel tired , or bleed out randomly along with a lot of pain. This affected me during VCT (before franchising aka the
Hey guys , currently at the hospital. Been in a lot of pain and started bleeding out. Hopefully everything will be alright. Just wanted to say I love you all and sorry for stressing everyone out.
P.s. this is hands down the worst year
We fall 0-2 to
@T1
and that ends our run in
#VCT
. Played our hearts out and lost in OT. I learned a lot during this experience. Wasn't used to this level of play this time around. I will be back. ❤️