Yesterday I asked for financial help, and since then I have been caught off guard every single time I looked. I've cried...more than a few times. So thank you all for helping me so much ☺️ I asked for a chance to catch up on bills, but you all have given so much more! Thank you💚
I worked at something other than Youtube/Twitch for the first time. Now all I want to do is endlessly fold shirts that people will then immediately mess up
Hey y’all, I am okay. Thank you all so much. It wasn’t okay what I just did and that was fucked up. Honestly, my whole life of emotional baggage is coming back and I’m JUST now having to learn what is okay to THINK about and whats not okay to INTERNALLY BEAT MYSELF UP OVER
A couple of weeks ago I was in a psych ward due to a medication-caused manic episode. I’m not ready to talk about that fully, but in the midst of my recovery, the constant bad news grounded me. I couldn’t be dead if the world is still going through the same bad shit, right?
I just learned that at 100 tabs the Googe Chrome mobile app gives up showing a number and knowingly smiles that you will never close all those damn tabs. I’m sorry Google
Today we saw a big dork get married, and I’m proud of him! But I can’t be too mushy so its time for some of my favorite in person pictures of
@tehsmarty
On my way back now, I’ll be back in Texas and streaming soon. I’m sad to be leaving, but its been a great two weeks! Between John’s wedding and getting to spend time with an amazing gal, I feel life is moving forward again. I’m excited to see what the next decade brings 😄
We won the Twitch Rivals tourny! After 7 (and a half) hard fought games,
@Retzi
and
@anniemoweed
clutch it up to secure the win!! GG everyone 😄
(Clip by
@Wolfnimations
)
While watering the yard I overheard kids trying to one up each other.
Kid 1: I've done way more dangerous things than you have!
Kid 2: Have you rode a dirt bike?
Kid 1 (after a pause): I rode a motorcycle!
Kid 2: Well...I've gone down a waterfall! It was like 200 miles per hour!
@ChilledChaos
It’s ridiculous you have to go through all of this, but I’m glad you can cut it off publicly. You shouldn’t have to prove how good of a person you are, but you have plenty of proof because you are genuinely a good guy
Got what I could for editing done! Going to spend Christmas and New Years with an amazing gal I’ve missed quite a bit 😊 I’ll be back to streaming in a couple of weeks
We posting before and after pics on the timeline again?
Here’s me at 20 (2013) and 26 (2020)! 60 pounds lighter and on 2 medications for mental health, I’m finally feeling much better about myself 😁
I had a complication with my medication recently and I’ve been in recovery as I get off of them. Part of those complications included what happened last week, and I was away for a bit.
So...I’ll be taking it easy as I get back to 100%. I’m pretty optimistic to back to it though!
The last couple months had a lot of up and downs for me mentally. Not much is even happening, just my mind being dumb as I continue trying medications. I don't know how long this time will last, but its been nice getting back into posting on YouTube over the last week
We changed up front room today and had our first board game night in it 😄 We played Betrayal and I played a child who got trapped in the basement for most of the game, got swole, and one punched the traitor (Ze). I want to play waaaay more board games with friends
Hey! Hit 300k subs on YouTube last night 😁 Thank you all for sticking with me all these years, I promise to use my crippling game addiction for videos again soon enough 😅
Over the last couple of weeks I've been stressing out more over YouTube and life things, with more than a few people pinging me in DMs about not posting. I responded to one of those messages, and wanted to post what I typed for anyone else who thinks I should "get it together"
So I want to say I am sorry for last night. It would be dishonest of me to not apologize because that was realllyyyyy bad. I let myself get to a bad state and emotionally felt cornered enough to just say everything >I< bottled up without making clear to...everyone.
Got drunk for the first time yesterday and that was...enlightening lol. I’m definitely a lot more of a light weight than I figured I’d be. Thankfully I konked out before I had a chance to get really bad!
I’ve been in a mental rut for a long while and over the last year its just been getting worse. I don’t have anything really positive to follow up with, I’m just getting more frustrated that I can’t bring myself to work on what I need to even when I have time.
Unsubscribe then. 10000+ videos in 5 years and I can't have a slow period without being heckled like I'm doing it on purpose? I don't need such ungrateful people watching my videos anyways.
@Sondoman
@YouTube
So many games ignored and so very few videos being released, really need to stop hoping for proper LPs anymore... use to be a fav channel of mine
So many days hurt and it takes so much to make even the smallest steps back to where I was before. I'm sorry for continuing to let everyone down..I don't know how I can be better in touch with my mental health than ever but feel so much despair.
I watched a guy punch a paper towel dispenser to try to get paper towels. After I told him it was empty, he calmly thanked me and wished me a good night. 🤭
I don't understand the logic behind some people. "He responded to my dumb comment with sarcasm, better say his channel is dead and call him a nigger, that will show him"
Going to be swapping from full time YouTube to trying out Twitch full time! I'll still be posting videos on YT (and at times even more than before), but Twitch is going to be my focus going forward. Here's my update video on it:
I've been in a bit of a mental funk lately, with the way things are going on YouTube...I've been thinking of quitting entirely. I just don't know what to do anymore besides keep holding on and hope it gets better.
Does anyone else struggle with getting your brain to be quiet and maybe has tips? I’ve been overthinking so much over the last couple of months and I’m so tired of it.
After 30+ hours driving across the country in my car, I made it to
@TheMeiiHD
last night! I’m so happy to be back with her (and also out of the car lol).
John is a great guy, I’m glad we’ve been friends for almost a decade! Seeing
@tehsmarty
and
@marzybearx3
be so happy together has been great, I wish them all the world 👍🏽
Finally got a quarantine haircut, and I’m trying something new! I always get my hair cut really short, so I’m gonna try leaving some of the curls 😄
@TheMeiiHD
cut my hair and I think she did a great job for her first time cutting my hair~
Spent the last few weeks cleaning up the house and redoing my office. Its way too much to cover in a single tweet, but I’m happy with my progress so far!
I’m basically making up for my mental disorders and its been great finally doing things I wanted to for years but couldn’t
Went to a therapist for the first time last week to start the whole process! Its probably a good thing when they fill an entire page in notes but I'm not sure 😅