Can’t share this anywhere else atm, and this is definitely a tweet as if I’m 16, but my best friend and I admitted that we have feelings for each other last night and my heart is so full 😍
Really starting to think that teaching isn’t for me anymore. So much anxiety, not sleeping and a never ending to do list. Love being with the children but everything else seems too much. Don’t know what else I’d do though and I’m only three years in…
Does anyone else’s anxiety make them think they’re going to be fired for the smallest of mistakes and end up with no money, be accused of a horrible crime there’s no way they’ve committed or everyone is going to die, and then ruminate over it for hours? It’s exhausting.
Why is every hen do nowadays an expensive weekend away somewhere?? 😩 I don’t know whether I’m just being grumpy but it ends up costing so much money and always involves drinking loads of alcohol (which I don’t do). You look awkward or difficult if you don’t agree though 😬
Sooo... to round off this whirlwind of a weekend, I came out to my immediate family and told them I have a girlfriend. It was a very surprisingly positive response aaah😬☺️🏳️🌈
#wlw
I see all these beautiful classrooms and it makes me feel like an awful teacher because I have no desire to spend days of the holidays making my classroom amazing 😬
I’m going for simple yet effective this year I think…
I’m completely failing this class. My behaviour management is crap; continuously talking over me, all fight or say unkind things constantly and I’m not doing anything good. I try so hard and implement things I read about/take on advice. Neither me nor my TA know what to do😔
Finally deleted dojo and work emails from my phone. Not having either for the next academic year to put some distance between myself and work.
I feel so much better already!
Has anyone else found that car insurance is about £200 more expensive than when they last renewed? Every quote on compare the market (and my renewal quote from current insurer) are so much more expensive 😩
Behaviour has been through the roof this week. One of my children said ‘How do you cope teaching this class? It must be awful with everyone being so noisy and fighting when you’re just trying to help us.’
I found it funny at the time, but it’s actually quite a sad observation.
Told family that I’m moving in with my girlfriend soon and I wasn’t expecting the reactions I got at all.
No one is excited. No one said congratulations. Everyone pointed out what could go wrong/how much work the house needs/why it’s not the best thing to do. Great 👍🏻
At least 80% of my back to school anxieties would be calmed if I actually got my laptop/diary out and did some planning for Tuesday or more but I just caaaaaan’t do it 😬
@MrsPrimary_EYFS
As a Y6 teacher, having fun and spending time with loved ones is what I hope every child who is doing their SATS this week has been doing. Looks like a fab weekend 😊
I’m in a weird limbo where:
1. I cannot carry on in this job and feel utterly awful about my ability to do any of it properly. Everyone knows I’m rubbish.
2. I feel pure joy seeing my Y6s on stage for their leavers play and cannot imagine doing anything else everyday.
A child in my class said yesterday ‘I love story time. You have the best voice for books. It’s annoying that you leave us on a cliffhanger everyday though.’
Week made!
I’m utterly paralysed by anxiety this afternoon. Came out of nowhere about half an hour ago. Need to shake it off so I can do my planning for the week.
Impending SATS and potential writing moderation are consuming me atm.
Feel like the biggest burden and that I don’t add anything positive to anyone’s life.
Probably why I don’t have any friends. I’m so lonely, even though I’m around people all the time. Starting to wonder if it’d be better if I could just disappear.
Going on date night with my girlfriend tonight, which we decided to go on approximately ten minutes ago, and I don’t have to worry about how many cocktails I have - I love half term 😍
Everyone at this wedding is dancing in couples and my fiancé and I don’t dare because there are some homophobic wedding guests.
I don’t even really like dancing but it’s sad that we feel we can’t.
My fiancé is currently making mini toad in the holes at almost 11pm, we’ve spent the day playing games together and the evening watching movies. We can get up when we want in the morning.
I love the summer holidays.
Loving this time off but it’s been constantly littered with bouts of intense anxiety about going back to school/work stuff/finances etc
My brain can’t even relax in the summer 🤪
Birthday card from a child in my class today:
‘To Miss T,
Have the best birthday!
PS. Read this again when you’re 80’
And then I turn the page to see that this is written on the other side 😂😂
Seeing some gorgeous photos of classroom set ups!
I’ve got backing on my boards and I tidied my cupboards before school finished.
I haven’t done a single thing for next year, haven’t thought about planning and am not going in before INSET.
I’m calling it a blank slate 😬
I KNOW I’m back at work on Monday (and have confirmed with a colleague) but I keep feeling like I’ve got it wrong as everyone else seems to be back already 😬
Ooh I’m a bit nervy about SATS results on Tuesday. Couldn’t be prouder of my bunch, regardless of what the scores show!
I just hope I haven’t let anyone down…
@UnofficialOA
Observation yesterday: one of my wonderful SEND children went into my cupboard and shut the door so I opened it and asked what he was doing. He replied with “looking for someone who cares about this lesson.” 😂😂
My binge eating is absolutely out of control. Worst it’s ever been. Hiding food and eating it when no one’s there. Buying food specifically to binge. Look and feel awful. Being horrible to everyone. So defensive when people comment on my food. Need help. Don’t know what to do.
Going to try and sort myself out by going to therapy this summer because I can’t live like this anymore and I don’t know how much longer it can continue before I’m completely done.
I just need to force myself to make the first appointment 😬
Every month I have several days of severe anxiety, being snappy, utter exhaustion, teary moments and just feeling off and then I wake up one morning and it all makes sense. And yet I’m surprised every single time….
#iykyk
@Teacherglitter
My school are showing it but I certainly won’t be watching it. I don’t like football anyway but I’ve made my view clear (to staff) about why I’m not supporting it from an LGBTQ/women’s rights stand point. Difficult to explain to the kids so I just say I don’t like football.
Although some people would be really disappointed with our SATS results, I could not be happier for all of my children. They’ve moved mountains this year and all did so well 😊
I wonder whether many other professions get such back to work anxiety as a lot of educators do?
I have the Sunday scaries every single week, which usually starts on a Saturday night. I’d love to read research on it.
Finding it so difficult to relax and gather myself ready for this week.
Panic attacks, crying, feelings that something bad is going to happen or I’ve done something wrong and exhaustion that’s in my bones. Normal distractions aren’t working.
It all feels very tough today.
*TW*
Seven years ago, I tried many times to no longer exist. Today I sit here, out and proud, with my fiancé enjoying a walk in the park. Life is still a struggle but I finally feel like I’ve found my place in the world.
#WorldSuicidePreventionDay
This weekend, I have managed to do all my planning for the week alongside all my guided reading for the half term, yet still have lots of time to spend with the people I love, watch some Netflix and start a new book 🎉🎉
I know I’ve been a little bit sharp with my some children in my class today and haven’t been on top form at all. I apologised but my heart hurts and I can’t stop crying about it. It’s been a long week!
Can’t sleep tonight because I’m ruminating over today and how much I should be doing for them and how I can’t seem to do anything right. Just keep crying and had my first panic attack in ages too - really need to change something up next week.
Been so anxious this half term but have been kept it at bay with walks and talking to my best friend. I’ve got a mountain of work to tackle today and I’ve woken up completely anxiety ridden. Slept awfully and can’t stop crying☹️
Today was a dream - it gave me hope that my class can make positive choices and that we can have days where there aren’t lots of fights, name calling and continuous talking 😁
Thank you to everyone who has responded - I’m quite overwhelmed actually! Off to do something nice for the weekend but will get back to people when I can 😊
Having my first proper date with my girlfriend tonight and I’m so excited. Trying steak for the first time 😱 and watching Eurovision (I will hear no slander 😂) with some cocktails 😍
My sister has come out as gay too (so pleased for her🥰).
The conversation we’ll have to have with our grandparents at some point (they don’t know about me either) will be interesting 😂
Have the busiest week of school so far coming up and yet I’ve done absolutely 0 this weekend to prepare for it. Future me is going to be really cross with current me 😬
There are so many lovely people on Twitter checking in after my last tweet. I very much appreciate every single one - thank you.
Today wasn’t perfect but it was much better than yesterday 😊
Went on a walk with my fiancé. We got absolutely soaked through, were purposely splashed by 2 cars and couldn’t see for most of it due to rain in my eyes…
But we had a good laugh and got some reduced Victoria sponge cake😍
Seeing my partner go through the stress of applying to lots of teaching jobs is sad. She just wants some stability and for someone to take a chance on her! 😩 Any application/personal statement tips welcome!
Seriously considering ringing in sick tomorrow but it’s only week 3 😩
but I’ve barely been able to get out of bed this weekend, my throat feels like razor blades and I can’t talk without gagging because my throat is so swollen so I’d be useless anyway ffs
I know everyone should be proud of their achievements and have confidence in their job but some people really do brag about how amazing they are 24/7 and show all these gifts to prove how fantastic they are at teaching.
I’m clearly in a grumpy mood today 😂
I have an interview to be able to stay at my school permanently tomorrow. Does anyone have any good questions I could ask at the end of the interview? I’m not used to thinking of them where I already work in the school!
#NQT
@MrTs_NQTs
@_MissieBee
I have literally no interest in going into any form of leadership. My school keep trying to push it but I didn’t sign up for more paperwork, supporting other adults/asking other adults to do things and copious meetings when I can barely keep myself afloat…no thanks 😂
Obviously, it’s absolutely fine to drink lots of alcohol, go on nights out or go away as it’s their weekend. Just low-key sucks when you’re someone who will have to pay a lot of money for something you won’t get the full benefit/enjoyment of when money isn’t in abundance.