Cancer is my life. Sleep/oncology doc/researcher/zombie. Love pretty games 'n dice 'n
#TTRPGs
. Science nerd.
She/her. Pan 🏳️🌈. Fighting for the
#Resistance
.
I've called the suicide hotline 3 times today.
Something completely broke in me yesterday.
What keeps you guys going, in your darkest times? I need some light right now.
Much love and gratitude for all of you who have walked this journey with me and been by my side these past 6 months.
I'm heading into my mastectomy surgery shortly. I'll see you all on the other side! 💚 Hopefully cancer free!
Goodnight, world.
Tomorrow I will find out if Bob the Blob, my cancer, has returned.
YES I will be crying myself to sleep.
NO I will not be harming myself.
And…………yes, I am scared.
Prognosis: large mass, proliferating fat necrosis, but currently BENIGN. Surgery time!
Yes, I cried when I got the news.
My grateful and heartfelt love and gratitude to each and every one of you for continuing with me and holding my virtual hand through this cancer journey.
💚
Goodnight, world.
Tomorrow I will find out if Bob the Blob, my cancer, has returned.
YES I will be crying myself to sleep.
NO I will not be harming myself.
And…………yes, I am scared.
@amornetwork
@CosechaMovement
@FangCollective
@Fuerza_Laboral
Oh my god. An ICE Detention Center guard just drove their truck straight through a line of us sitting peacefully to block the parking lot. There don’t appear to be major injuries, still assessing the situation, police are moving in *on us* now 😢
LIVE:
I just had a realization. Exactly one year ago, June 18th 2020, I woke up around 3am, idly scratched my left breast, and found a huge mass that had literally grown overnight. Found my cancer.
Today, June 18th 2021, I have been declared cancer-free.
What. A. YEAR.
@pixienic
I absolutely will find a therapist this week. I promise. I only got back to MA a couple days ago, and my cancer treatment was my
#1
priority. But I'm going to take care of myself. I am going to fight. 💚
@ClaireJChu
I agree with everyone else here that he needs to be reported to the authorities. He is a domestic terrorist.
And yes, MAGA extremists can be well-educated and successful as well as rednecks. There's no class restriction on hate.
A humble request to my followers:
I need your help to afford my breast cancer treatment. My fiancé lost his job in March due to COVID and I was denied disability. I've fully exhausted my savings.
If you can donate, THANK YOU.
If you can't, PLEASE RT.
Okay. I've thrown up twice and have had diarrhea for almost 6 hours.
Why am I sharing this? To normalize cancer treatment side effects.
#bcsm
It's okay to want to share. It's okay to want to have SOMEONE, just one person at least, see your struggle.
I see you.
#Cancer
@michhastings
@granodiorite11
I love this idea.
I think this is perfect for me. After chemo tomorrow, I'll do this. I've decided I want to make a chemo cookbook, just...... y'know......not a horrible one.
Anyone out there who has or has been through stage 3 invasive breast cancer who is willing to talk to a terrified 37 year old diagnosed less than 4 hours ago?
Anyone?
This is the most INSANE reaction I have ever read.
I hope every single employee quit effective immediately, with zero notice. Employment is at-will (for this particular country).
Just. Wow.
An ESSENTIAL read about yesterday's Supreme Court case about whether the CBP has immunity to kill anyone, for any reason, without consequence.
From 2003-2018, CBP killed 97+ people, including 28 US citizens and 6 children. *No agents were disciplined.*
Y'ALL.
NED HAS PAID ME A VISIT.
THAT'S RIGHT.
*NO EVIDENCE OF DISEASE*
Celebrating no cancer in my body with an IPA, the world's best onion rings, next to the water with my mom.
Thank you my carcinomies and my
#ttrpgfamily
for your love & support!
#FuckCancer
#bcsm
#cancer
I never thought anyone would see my cry into the darkness.
To not be alone means so, so much.
2 weeks ago, I found an enormous mass, out of nowhere.
Yesterday I was diagnosed with grade 3, stage 3+ (still doing pathology), tumor 3 breast cancer.
IT IS THE DAY OF MY BIRTH!
I am grateful that after 2 years of cancer treatment, I'm still able to level up to lvl 39 today. That's quite a few rotations around the sun!
Please feel free to share your doggos, kittehs, smol monsters, piggies, penguins, pandas, and forgs!
💚🐸💚
My tits shall not be calm! I have wonderful news!
1) After 26 months, I got my MediPort (the one that goes into my heart for chemo) removed yesterday!
It's a HUGE cancer milestone!
2) In 15 minutes, I *OFFICIALLY* graduate as Dr. Dr. Samuelsson.
Happy Friday, y'all! 💚🐸💚
I absolutely love ALL OF YOU for celebrating my cancer NED (no evidence of disease).
I'm sorry I can't reply to every one of you. I'm still on chemo, and it's exhausting.
But only one round of chemo left!
Sending giant squeezy hugs........
I'm in a hospital.
In the reconstructive oncology surgery suite.
Waiting for my post-op from my mastectomy 3 days ago.
And the woman at the front desk is wearing her mask under her nose AND chin.
AROUND A CANCER PATIENT.
What the actual fck, people. Seriously. I want to cry.
Really, REALLY bad chemo day. Exhausted, feel like absolute hell, throwing up EVERYTHING, can't even keep water down, and in so much pain. Skin sloughing off my numb fingers.
9 more days. Only 9 more days of chemo.
Send me something happy. I am fresh out of happies here. 😢
12:04.
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday dear Sammi
Happy birthday to me
Just because I've lost almost everything, it doesn't mean I'm giving up.
Bad chemo day. Just threw up. Exhausted.
I have literally zero sensation in my index fingers and thumbs, which makes typing very strange. Hard to get a good shot, but this blistering happened only in the last few hours. Fingernails deteriorating.
#FuckCancer
. I need a hug.
Heading to the ER in a few. Haven't been able to keep even water down, can't stop the diarrhea, and haven't been able to eat almost anything since Monday. I knew my last week of chemo would be rough but this is miserable.
Feel free to entertain me. I can't stop crying. 😢
@roseperson
Deb, I don't know you, but I feel for you. I was just diagnosed with high grade high stage invasive breast cancer 2 weeks ago. You need your brainmeats, which means that you WILL defeat this. I am sending you all the best juju I can. 💚
Someone can say they're depressed for feeling alone and get 12.5k likes.
I'm depressed for having the flu while I'm trying to start residency halfway across the continent from my family, all by myself, with just my cat, who has a cold.
After I've been through cancer.
@DoomScroling
@Blackbea16Manon
I did not have "BECAUSE OF THE TITANIC!" on my "Justifications for Depriving the Human Being with the Uterus of Bodily Autonomy - 2024 Edition" bingo card.
@CassyWearsHeels
Lizzo, one thousand times over. Are you kidding me? Gorgeous, comfortable in her skin, insanely talented, hilarious, a huge nerd, man, we would be laughing for DAYS, and she would let me make pasta for her, and she would love it.
No contest: LIZZO.
1/10 DHS wants to implement DNA testing at the border, ostensibly to prevent child trafficking by proving familial relationship. They claim the genetic data will not be stored or shared. Those who refuse have their children removed from them.
BEST. ONCOLOGY APPOINTMENT. EVER.
ALL of my concerns and needs were addressed. I now have meds for my bone pain. Meds for my nausea. A plan for my GI management. Normalization of my fatigue. And full body PET scan scheduled.
Plus, they're so happy with my weight loss. 🤗
We're giving notice to this administration: September is the month when
#WeThePeople
of America take to the streets.
We are calling all peaceful protest/activist orgs to schedule events for September. Our goal: daily protests nationally, together, as One Nation, Indivisible. 🆘
I've had stage 3 cancer for 2 months.
Chadwick Boseman had stage 3 cancer for 4 years, and worked and fought every day. He made so many films. He was a SUPERHERO.
Now we know he was super not only in movies, but in life.
@steve_verrell
@N1nja_Nick
@PatriciasBooks
@_SJPeace_
You are absolutely correct.
This entire interaction was unlawful. They knew it and that's why they were forced to release him. We ARE living in the Nazi regime: unlawful trespass and arrests. We know what happens next.
Y'all. My final dissertation defense is coming up in a few days and my dissertation is due on Wednesday.
DOUBLE DOCTORATE HERE I COME!
If you want to check out my sleep and cancer research, I'll hook you up with one of my recent journal articles.
Wish me luck and forgs! 💚🐸💚
@GrantGinder
I was 13 when I started collecting photos of hot chicks (the femme equivalent of beefcakes, I believe!) on the family computer. Fortunately for me, my older brother was doing the same, so I had an easy alibi. 😂
Today is Day 1 of my final round of chemo. In 2 weeks, I'll be done, after 26 months of treatment.
Who wants to help me celebrate? Discord party anyone?
#FuckCancer
I was literally just telling my fiancé and my mom that certain religious sects have this “privilege” amnesty from legal consequences for child sexual abuse, including the Mormons & Amish.
Consequence in the Amish community?
6 weeks of shunning.
For destroying a child’s life.
Update on the Sammi Cancer Situation:
Met w/ my oncologist yesterday morning. She believes the hot spots are likely lymphedema, and that the hot spot in my upper left lung is from radiation damage. I'll be starting lymphedema PT on Tuesday. Endoscopy on the 15th. Here's to hope.
You know what? Fuck cancer. Just. Fuck cancer.
I woke up to the news that my grad school mentor has been hospitalized with liver failure from breast cancer mets to her liver. And she doesn't anticipate going home.
Then I showered my misshapen body from my own cancer. Sobbing.
Y'ALL. THE DISSERTATION IS COMPLETE.
This baby weighs in at 106 pages of pure scientific delight.
It's 8:23 pm and I'm going to try to eat something for the first time today.
Send forgs and furry friends to celebrate!
#bcsm
Thank you to all who believed in me.
Unfortunately, my medical shtuffs got the upper hand.
Today I had to unmatch from my residency.
I will be reapplying, in the hopes that the universe gives me one good thing medically.
Tonight I'm going to cry for being a failure.
Rough day today.
Surgical wounds still aren't healed and are getting worse every day.
New lump in my mastectomy breast that I discovered last night.
I see my surgeon tomorrow. I'm going to ask for wound care and imaging.
But I'm so tired of all of this. It's so defeating.
Welp! I have the flurona: tested positive for both the flu and COVID.
I cannot stop coughing and have pretty labored breathing.
I still have 2 more months of chemo. I’m severely immunocompromised.
Please send soup and snuggles.
Oh, no! Millennials are killing the conservative industry!
First diamonds, then napkins, now we're throwing the whole damn racist, xenophobic, homophobic system out.
Today was my first patient day in 3 years.
3 freaking years.
Faced death twice: AAG/organ failure and cancer.
Had a husband divorce me because he "didn't want to watch me die".
Fell in love again. Then cancer.
My best "wasn't good enough" (direct quote).
But I'm a good doc.
Why can't some people understand that I'm exhausted? That I'm still on active chemo? Chemo that made me throw up at work today? They I don't have the stamina or energy I would if I weren't on chemo?
I'm trying my best here.
But as I heard recently, my best isn't enough.
My friend Jason, beloved by so many of us here on
#FuckCancer
twitter, passed peacefully from stage IV colorectal cancer yesterday. He and I had talked about my family visiting his in Kingston this summer. Instead, I will stand on the seashore, knowing his soul still sails on.
Am I pathetic for mourning the fact that I can't have children?
Not allowed because of my cancer.
But man. I just wanted to have a family. Now I'm just alone.
Freaking out about starting residency in 2 days. Terrible diarrhea and vomiting from chemo + stress. Scared to be living alone for the first time.
Man, cancer sucks.
But I'll do what I have to do.
@JoyMosenfelder
Oh my goodness, this was me. Exactly me. I lived in wonderful cities, was active, swimming, yoga, weightlifting, bodywork, therapy, walked and took public transportation everywhere, and DIY culinary ninja: everything homemade.
But yet, here I am.
They can never explain that.
@Anthonia_Egbe
@ItsTheReal_BizZ
@Zweli_Thixo
🎯🎯🎯🎯🎯🎯
This is how parents teach young girls to accept abuse and dehumanization, starting a cycle of abuse forgiveness that can impact their entire lives.
@sweeterpeachh
@AutisticCallum_
@dacoobob
Thank you SO MUCH for explaining this to me. I have been baffled by "mascara", but I understand now that it's coded language. I appreciate your explanation.
I'm not going to let anything negative destroy my happiness from today.
I haven't had TRULY HAPPY in a really, REALLY long time. Even going sailing a couple of times recently with cancer orgs, it was more meditative.
But I LAUGHED today. Genuinely laughed.
It felt...whole.