So grateful to close out 2021 with the inclusion of a poem of mine in
@lanternreview
’s Asian American Futures: Reclamations alongside such inspiring writers.
Tysm to the editorial team for selecting my poem and curating this stunning issue:
My father, on the new Mulan: "They made Mulan for white people. It’s like making Asian food for white people. It’ll always be bad because it's not for us."
Hm. Does this flag still stand “for democracy”?
Asking for myself, who repeatedly sang the South Vietnamese national anthem as a kid and still has multiple of these flags.
“Asian representation” is when community members are killed (by hunger, illness, poverty, war, white supremacy, misogyny, imperialism — any combination and/or lasting effects of these) and everyone’s fave mildly-quirky Asian guy is tweeting about St. Patrick’s Day festivities
People-making-soup-that-clearly-isn’t-phở-but-still-calling-it-phở season has begun.
Ground turkey. Egg. Butternut squash. God grant me the strength to withstand every one of these Facebook posts.
Something deeply hurtful and unsettling about a certain class of people just spam posting Handmaid’s Tale content right now because their understanding of this issue is mostly grounded in fictional work and not the already-existing real-life horror of having no bodily autonomy
friday mood: sitting in my car in front of the 99 ranch eating preserved plums while trying not to cry about having let down thousands of coworkers across the state + allowing them to continue to pay over half their incomes to rent
In October, President Biden told our communities that he stood with us.
Now, under his administration, 33 Viet refugees are scheduled to be deported just days after he condemned anti-Asian violence.
@POTUS
, honor your commitment.
#GroundthePlane
and
#FreeThemALL
The situation is so bad that my family members in the States are literally draining their checking accounts of the assistance they’ve gotten (and desperately still need) to send to family members in Vietnam.
Be grateful the US has an abundant vaccine supply and get vaccinated.
Heartbreak. Vietnam did so well and held off the pandemic completely till Delta. But it's a poorer country with limited vaccine supply. Now, their cases and deaths are soaring. Meanwhile, we're offering bribes to the unvaccinated and maybe a third Moderna to young, healthy folks.
It seems it takes
- Watching graphic footage or seeing graphic images of elders getting brutally assaulted
- Asian women getting brutally murdered
- Asians personally excavating and putting on display all our own personal traumas
to get other people to even vaguely care
The fact that we have to employ the painful and violative footage of hate violence in order to continue the conversation around anti-Asian racism is a stinging indictment of how little folks actually are engaged in this conversation and how little energy there is to make change.
Vietnamese America does not have to be only grief, nostalgia, violence. We are capable of so much more if we can have more open conversations about both what we know and what we are learning (with declassified docs, oral histories, etc.) about the past, present, and future.
To echo
@sookuhtawn
, yellow peril kills — esp. when a person is viewed as multiple threats at once: invasion, disease, lechery, theft.
Working-class Asian women (particularly ones in service jobs, and especially sex workers) are viewed as all of these — by people and the state.
Computer, enhance.
Nice Gasden-USA-Confederate flag the Republicans of Santa Clarita let join right in to their Fourth of July parade, which also included electeds like Rep. Mike Garcia and Asm. Suzette Valladares 🧐
I cried almost the entire time I was driving. I want to vomit. I’ve been shaking.
Men I’ve dated (and many I others interacted with) used the same excuse — obsession, addiction, insatiability — and exploited me as the antidote to their problem. Called me their “Asian princess.”
If you’re working as a UC GSR, you can join other GSRs in signing an authorization card so that GSRs can collectively negotiate with the UC about working conditions, wages, workers’ rights, etc.
#UnionStrong
I had the worst panic attack I've ever had that caused a sharp, painful prickling throughout my body while I was loudly berated for trying to follow the lead of fellow disabled coworkers wrt bargaining.
So yeah, sure, let’s talk about how bargaining team members get bullied.
Unstoppable energy this morning on the picket line at UC Riverside from my coworkers — academic workers holding it down here with joyful song and dance for a
#FairUCNow
!
Who’s got the power? 🎶 We’ve got the power! 🎶
For my students who deserve a world-class education. For my coworkers who are parents, my disabled coworkers, my international scholar coworkers. For my family members who rely on me. For my cousins who one day may attend UC.
For a
#FairUCNow
. Let’s do this, everyone.
We, the Postdocs, Academic Researchers, Academic Student Employees, & Graduate Student Researchers at UC announce a multi-unit strike starting November 14.
United with
@sruuaw
&
@uaw2865
we will make
@UofCalifornia
stop their unlawful conduct & bargain in good faith.
The main metric I've been loosely using is: Will this be enough for everyone who needs a second job to no longer need a second (or third!) job?
& the answer, broadly, remains: absolutely not.
I tell students I play WoW and LoL to try and level or relate but apparently those are “boomer games” now so instead I think I just have to accept my fate of being a weird instructor
What’s reported is only a fraction of the violence — and kinds of violence — that Asian elders / parents / children / families / workers / people experience. Be vigilant, but also interrogate what you think constitutes violence. It’s never just what the state recognizes as such.
Yang being insensitive after Asian women were killed only reminds me that many of the young men who fetishized, harassed, exploited, abused, and otherwise hurt me for years were super excited about Yang’s candidacy. Not on him, but they all wanted to be him (rich, wifed, famous).
Can we stop traumatizing children by forcing them to watch hours, weeks of footage of dying people + equating their personhood with a lost country or are we going to keep hurting our own? Because the consequences include this mangled understanding of who we are and can can be.
A gift from an uncle, carried overseas from VN in another uncle’s luggage.
1951 printed/illustrated edition of the Tale of Kieu. Page edges worn a bit but in decent condition otherwise. I have no clue how/where my uncle got this book, but I guess I am its caretaker now(!?!)
By my count, 1800+ final grades for Fall 2022 won’t be submitted by associate instructors, teaching assistants (including myself!), and graders in the Dept. of Political Science at UC Riverside.
POSC faculty are also withholding 850+ final grades in solidarity for a
#FairUCNow
.
The National Guard was called into Santa Clarita for... a couple hundred peaceful protestors standing on the sidewalks of an intersection, most of whom are high schoolers and college students.
Real great use of taxpayer dollars.
My father — and now I — listen to her songs all the time! I’m in the process of accumulating her albums on CD so I can be like my father and just have them litter my car floor
#AVeryVietDecember
Day 18: KH��NH LY, a legendary singer who grew popular during the 1960s in South Vietnam. She worked closely with musician/songwriter Trịnh Công Sơn (similar to Bob Dylan); lyrics she sang were very anti-war, with music initially banned by the RVN government.
This is my first quarter during the regular academic year NOT working as a GSR.
Aside from wanting to teach again, I made $300 less than my TA peers. Other GSRs across the UC system face more heinous issues of overwork, discrimination, etc. — which is why a union is so crucial.
When a Santa Clarita councilman blames some "high school girls" dredging up his comments instead of apologizing for his racist rhetoric right after Santa Clarita calls the National Guard on students, we are telling young people — yet again — that Santa Clarita doesn't want them.
I voted — in the Strike Authorization Vote! 🗳
If you’re also an academic worker (teaching assistant, researcher, postdoc, etc.) at the UC represented by UAW, check your email for your ballot and make sure to vote YES in the SAV!
#FairUCNow
“every bite, the same prayer / to different gods.”
So thankful to
@GraceLP
for selecting my poem “Refugee Kitchen Rice Bin” (after
@thaoworra
!) for inclusion in
@ANMLY_LIT
’s Citizenship and Its Discontents folio.
Full poem:
Activision Blizzard is scared of their workers’ collective power — because when workers fight, workers win. Only another reason for the workers to keep organizing for better conditions.
Solidarity with these workers. They’ve created worlds for us, and they deserve our support.
I implore folks (esp. cis Asian men) to think hard about whether you NEED to speak at rallies, to press, etc. Is there someone else you can redirect a reporter to / cede speaking time to? In the wake of the violence in ATL, this is even more important
Education is the only context I’ve worked in where people are socialized into emailing tomes detailing their suffering.
Can we please prepare students “for the real world” by emphasizing that “Hi, I’m sick and need time off” is often sufficient in many other (office) settings?
Biggest confidence boost I’ve received in years was a student coming up to me after syllabus day and saying “I really like your energy and I look forward to the rest of this class!”
It will cost less effort and time to respond back: “Hi! I’d highly recommend you talk to [other colleagues] instead! Circle back to me as a last resort, but [other colleagues]’ expertise and lived experiences are much more necessary in public discourse right now.”
The story of the
@cazaresforcoc
campaign is that its core team of three POC Gen Zers out-fundraised, out-phonebanked, out-textbanked, and out-hustled the GOP-endorsed, administrator-backed candidate in an anti-sanctuary city. And we won by 1,000+ votes.
When President Biden was campaigning, he touted support for Viet communities. He and VP Harris have condemned anti-Asian violence.
33 Viet community members are scheduled to be deported tomorrow. Deportations are anti-Asian violence.
@POTUS
@VP
please —
#GroundthePlane
.
Various Viet and SEA orgs just learned that ICE has scheduled a deportation flight to Vietnam on Monday morning, March 15, from Texas. There are 33 Vietnamese people who are scheduled to be on this flight.
So surreal to see my poem (responding to a declassified doc) physically displayed at
@OaklandAsianCC
alongside others’ incredible work in the Textures of Remembrance exhibit. Sad I had to leave the reception early but so grateful I got to participate + be in community tonight
Caught some moments on video while taking photos of the
#FairUCNow
rally at UC Riverside.
It's hard to articulate how inspired I am by my coworkers, and yesterday's actions statewide serve as a weighty reminder:
I'm not alone. We are not alone. & together, we're going to win.
We are currently seeing the direct impact of defunding our police. Murder rates are now up 16% across major U.S. cities so far in 2021, compared to 2020. I will continue to support our law enforcement & ensure they have the resources they need to be successful.
This International Women’s Day I’m thinking of my mother and aunt who are manicurists and do nails for women who don’t always leave tips and are also the same women who get featured in local magazines for their prowess in the real estate industry
Glad that not only does a certain young white guy with persistently bad takes have more upward mobility than I do in our overlapping circles, but also that his tweets do better than mine. Come on pals wya
The next time you feel embarrassed just remember you’re not the US Ambassador to Vietnam who apparently can’t even vaguely pronounce basic phrases in Vietnamese but did a whole video “rapping” in Vietnamese
People most affected by misogyny pass the mic all the time! “I will if you really need me to or can’t get other people to respond before deadline, but go talk to [person] first” is like my most common response to these types of requests (not that I get many, but still)
.
@Postmates
, poverty is violence.
Those Asian drivers you’re touting for diversity points? Ensure they (and all your drivers) are paid fairly for their intense labor.
Those Asian restaurants (and all those using your platform)? Stop taking parasitic cuts of their profits.
As an American journalist, you never expect:
1. Your own govt to lie to you, repeatedly
2. Your own govt to hide information the public has a right to know
3. Your own govt to spy on your communications
Trump's unAmerican regime did all of these.
No one should accept this.
Wrapped up 1st year of my PhD program over the weekend of my paternal grandmother’s death anniversary. Since I was born a girl, I tended to receive the least of her attention, but I remember being one of the loudest criers at her funeral. I still keep my hair long like she did.
I have a therapy appointment at 7:45am because I don’t know how to say no to my therapist... who I am seeing to work on my issues with boundary-setting and my extreme fear of being slightly disliked, among other things
Since his release from prison and ICE, An Nguyen has focused on caring for his elderly mother, securing stable employment, and following his parole requirements.
@CAgovernor
, please
#PardonAn
to prevent his deportation and let him remain with his family.
Years later I’m still thinking of the history adjunct whose class I took at a community college. He really let me turn in a term paper that was ~40 pages. That professor made me feel like my ideas were worth entertaining — a rare feeling for me, even now.
Educators change lives.
I know it’s our job as scholars to make sense of the world — to trace, to explain, to explore.
I share the impulse, too. But for just a moment, as we grieve, can we not resist the urge to put ourselves to work the same way we work each day?
Please. For just a few seconds. Rest.
Thank you to my Assemblymember,
@AsmChristySmith
, for voting yes on
#ACA5
!
As an Asian American whose work is focused on education and equity and as your constituent, I’m grateful for your support of this crucial repeal.
Passed my quals!
In other words, nothing has changed and I still suffer from the same flavor of envious imposter syndrome that I’ve been experiencing since I was basically in kindergarten
👀 Time for a first look at the Vietnam civilization, and its leader Bà Triệu, part of the fifth DLC pack coming to Civilization VI - New Frontier Pass on January 28. Check out the full video below.
📺
When will people discuss housing insecurity, wage theft, deportation — issues that impact Vietnamese Americans' daily lives — as much as they wave this flag? Do you care about Vietnamese American present and future lives, or do you only care about a certain part of their past?
Hm. Does this flag still stand “for democracy”?
Asking for myself, who repeatedly sang the South Vietnamese national anthem as a kid and still has multiple of these flags.
Phonebank and textbank for
@ChristyforCA25
. Our community needs and deserves solid, sturdy representation in the House. We deserve someone who is all business, no show.
That is all.
#CA25
So proud to be among the overwhelming majority of the 48,000 UAW-represented workers at UC who voted in the SAV.
Now the question remains: Will UC bargain in good faith to avert a multi-unit strike? Or will it continue to refuse to take seriously our proposals for a
#FairUCNow
?
BREAKING - 36,558 total votes were cast in UC Academic Workers’ Strike Authorization Votes, with 98% voting Yes to authorize a multi-unit strike if necessary. These are far and away the largest and most decisive strike authorization votes ever taken by Academic Workers in the US.
“I’ve been using them for years.”
In her clarification, an underlying view is also revealed: nail salon workers, many of them Vietnamese refugee/immigrant women, are viewed primarily as labor to be “used.”
Indeed, it’s not their fault — that they’re just trying to protect you.
This April 30, I’m going to spend the day grading, playing World of Warcraft, doing some volunteer stuff I need to catch up on. I’ll maybe order takeout. But that’s all.
If K-12 instruction shouldn’t happen too early, perhaps it also makes sense that we shouldn’t be engaging in undergraduate instruction at 7am?! That doesn’t even mirror a regular 9-5 schedule, so I’m not sure what we’re implying other than that students’ wellbeing isn’t valued
Really tired of some younger folks’ insistence on framing their craft as being divergent from their “non-creative” working-class parents when said parents probably sewed up plenty of clothes, made food from scratch regularly, etc. Even novel work grows from a lineage.
Instead of directly tackling artists’ struggles during this crisis, Yang’s “cultural” priorities include increasing bureaucracy, subsidizing rent just for artists in residency (good but it’s hard to get residency!), & treating artists like profit machines instead of people.
If you’ve known me for awhile, you probably remember my long hair. I loved it. I still do. It reminded me of my grandmother.
But I had to chop it off because I could not comb my hair without thinking about how men perverted and fetishized my beloved hair for their own purposes.
Me: union officer, always reminding my colleagues to not overwork and to track their hours, constantly annoying my friends with my down-with-the-boss jokes/quips
Also me: replying to panicked student emails at 10:30pm (they have a paper due)
I wanted, I want to be generous here. Maybe he hadn’t yet heard. Maybe it was a scheduled tweet. Maybe his comms team hadn’t yet heard. Maybe it was meant to provide some levity. But these reasons, too, are not great for someone who played up a facet of his Asian-ness in 2020
I have been hesitant to bring up my own disabilities during bargaining team discussions on pertinent articles because it has been made clear who is seen as “authentic” and who isn’t. And as an “inauthentic” on multiple fronts I feel deeply unsafe — at minimum — in these spaces
[Bernie voice] I am once again...
having to dedicate several pages to explaining the model minority myth, the diversity of Asian ethnicities, and the complexity and history of Asian American pan-ethnic identity.
There’s the Victoria Redstall lookalike who harassed me in public w/ her bedazzled mask off, then there’s the working-class immigrants who can’t afford to Postmates a meal or Instacart groceries and who aren’t receiving clear/in-language health order info. They are not the same.
Suddenly remembering when staff from the UAW international did strike assistance trainings and the trainers opened up with “President Ray Curry sends his regards” like some medieval squires… and also proceeded to assume my (and some other nonwhite coworkers’) citizenship status
Does anyone have any strategies/coping mechanisms for addressing with/dealing with (Asian) loved ones who don’t believe the rise in anti-Asian violence is real and/or don’t think it’s reasonable to be at least mildly worried about going out?
Me interacting with (mostly white) people nowadays is just me being like —
Bröther may I have one crumb of ✨at least pretending to actually care about Asians and about me rather than Asians as an abstract concept you “support”✨
My family: vocal about how most of our family members are solidly working-class with little upward mobility
My family when I become a proud union member and labor rights supporter:
Suddenly recalling the time in high school when I dressed up as “French imperialism” as my scary costume for Halloween.
Nobody thought it was funny except me, which probably explains why I’m in grad school now while my peers went on to work at big firms, etc.
Love to spend a number of hours offering guidance to someone (who is not Asian) on how to organize a vigil re: anti-Asian violence only to have all my advice blatantly ignored, which will probably result in the event being more of a vanity project than a grieving/honoring space
People died.
Asian immigrant women workers died — women who died after decades of the state framing Asian women as threats of disease, as job-stealers, as potential invaders, as lecherous, as morally reprehensible.
& you woke up to spew what we know to be lethal rhetoric.
In February alone, we’ve seen a major increase of over 100,000 migrants illegally flooding our border & overwhelming our facilities. As a first generation American, I value legal immigration but we can’t ignore the national security crisis at our border.
I’m not going to share the horrific video, but earlier today in Santa Clarita (Canyon Country), 2 deputies placed a Black man in a chokehold, held him to the ground, and brutally beat him (that much is clear from the video).
Sickening, to say the least.