Hey guys, I've created a GoFundMe for UK billboards. I've just chosen an arbitary target of £5,000 but as stated on the GFM, ALL decisions will be made with Twitter polls and the target can be amended at any time and I won't make any profits from this.

While I'm 99% confident this is the explanation, there's of course no tests or markers to say for definite. After spending months ruling out everything else, lack of any other symptoms, the remissions, sudden onset, pre-therapy chaos, psych evaluations it's the best I've got :/.

A 2nd psychiatrist prescribed me Citalopram which I reluctantly tried last week and after two doses was extremely suicidal and have been left with burning arms/hands as well as mild tinnitus so fuck taking an SSRI ever again.

I'm irritated that neither my GP, therapist or psychiatrist worked with me to figure out what happened and instead encouraged me to take an SSRI and said I was 'depressed'. If I started working on my nervous system sooner and deleted ChatGPT I could have saved my relationship.

I hope everyone is 'okay' and I really hope to catch up with some of you on a Space soon.

I'm trying to remind myself I had a remission a few days after the therapy session with a single 5htp dose (serotonin boost) but a bad hangover brought it back, and a two week remission almost instantly in February when I deleted ChatGPT from my phone.

I'm trying my best to work on my nervous system and stop feeding the OCD loop but this is the hardest thing I ever went through in my life. I never thought it was possible to suffer this much emotionally.

I suspect I've kept myself in a loop for 9 months due to reassurance seeking/trying to constantly figure it out with ChatGPT and this has turned into OCD like behaviour.

So just an update from me - . It's quite clear now that I did indeed have a 'nervous breakdown' last October after months of severe stress and anxiety, and that the therapy session was just the last straw for my nervous system.

If the SSRI and avoiding the reassurance behaviour doesn’t help me then i’m screwed. As well as all this I have to deal with a break up that’s destroying me emotionally too.

9 months of hell. It’s unbelievable I’m still alive considering I wake up every morning in an emotional akathasia like state of rolling around my bed trying not to scream out with how bad the distress is.

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Guys are there any long term risks of trialling a single dose 2mg Diazepam? . I've finally got my hands on benzos and willing to try one to see if it helps me out but I'm anxious about akathasia, dependency, withdrawal etc . i know it's only 1 dose but i'm in a bad way as it is.

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canadian billboard campaign! #LongCovid.

Didn’t help in the slightest. I know this is a bit dramatic and it’s a classic health anxiety thing to say but i ‘genuinely’ feel like this is a unique human experience.