Holy fuck it's december already

"If"? Raaja sir already delivered

Sometimes grief teaches us something that love wouldn't.

I have no hope for anything anymore. I just want peace. Please don't DM me.

Every single decision by them wrt to me has put my life on hold now. I don't have it in me anymore. I'm mentally exhausted to the core. I didn't have a good childhood, hardly any memories of good things. I'm so tired

I could have had it all if my birth givers did at least one thing right in life when it came to me. My father could have thought about me before making that huge mistake by choice btw, my mother could have thought about me more than she thought about my father

No one. I repeat NO ONE really have fuck about all of this. And by no one I mean by parents. They never took me seriously if I asked anything else other than studies and look how successful I'm now. wow

I wanted to Play musical instruments, play basketball, dance bharatnatyam, learn hindustani, new language and a lot things

No one ever asked me what I like, what I want to do in life, what help can I offer to you. The thing is I wanted to do a lot of things 😭😭😭😭😭 but I now can't do anything. I really can't. I lost it all

These people don't know the meaning of being grateful. Putting up with all of them was a huge task and I drained all my energy on it so much that I barely had any to live.

People hardly know me. Realising whatever I did not only on studies but in life too just went in the drain sucks the soul.

There are a lot of things running in my mind. The last time I slept properly was when I was in school and I don't even remember the last time I laughed my heart, smiled genuinely.

I don't know. I guess this isn't for me. I feel like I should just give up. But I'm scared as fuck. 😭 I don't know how it will be in the jon market. Since I was so keen on studying this and thought I'd never give up I never really focused on that.

Because telling people that I have failed is a humiliation for them. That's all they care about.

If people around me had their jobs as per their role I wouldn't be suffering like this. When I first failed the foundation my parents told everyone that I passed and asked me to maintain the same.

I lost all my potential 😞 I never lived til date. I only survive. Just exsisting.

While I know this involves my and my decision to pursue this course the environment I live in has its part too.

I don't know. I'm so tired of answering everyone that I'm unemployed. I scarified my passion for this that's what hurts me the most.

You know the humiliation of being in your mid 20s and seeing the world move forward, the people circle your friends everyone moving forward in life and you just being stuck in the same place

I scarified a lot for this course. A lot. Lost many things because I was too focused. And idk where it all went wrong again. It's tiring 😞 Feels like I chose the wrong path.