Self sabotage comes in many forms.
• Not asking for help
• Rejecting praise
• Isolating yourself when you’re hurt
• Saying “yes” to everything
• Putting your needs on hold
• Procrastinating important tasks
• Trying to be perfect
You’re so much more than your self doubt.
Yes, I’m a VTuber, but my face has never been a secret.
I’m not a VTuber because I’m ugly or because I’m scared of others.
I’m a VTuber because I truly can’t be bothered to put a bra on & try to look acceptable every time I stream. 💀
If you see this, I am requesting that you comment a heart in support of my upcoming appointment to find out if my cancer has spread.
Comment a heart for good luck. 🥺
One hysterectomy later & we have officially kicked cancer out of my body. I am extremely weak, in pain & exhausted, but I love you all so much. This wouldn’t have been possible without you. Thank you for saving my life. 🥺
#FuckCancer
I’m sorry, but I am closing my DMs until further notice.
I am a strong person, but I cannot handle back to back DMs telling me that I “was the one who should have died” & that I “took away Technoblades chance at winning his battle”.
I am not sharing these DMs because these (1/2)
You’re entitled to want to & keep using a derogatory word just like I’m entitled to tell you you’re a piece of shit for using a derogatory word.
You don’t get to tell me I’m “soft” because I don’t condone the use of slurs.
That’s called having respect for others. 🙏🏻
Now I’m starting to understand why so many of the VS girls “didn’t renew”.
You all either got fired or you wanted to quit so you could try to get away with this brain dead garbage.
I love the VTuber community, but some of you really need to get your shit banned & revoked.
After needing to block now 47 accounts, I have turned off replies to my pinned tweet.
I cannot stand seeing any more comments about Technoblade.
I deserve to celebrate my victory in my battle with cancer.
I’m sorry you’re mourning, but I will not be your punching bag.
⚠️ IF YOU ARE A GUEST IN SOMEONE ELSES SPACE OR LIVESTREAM (STREAMER, FRIEND, MUTUAL OR VIEWER, PLEASE STOP DOING THESE THINGS ! ⚠️ [ 🧵 ]
NOTE : I AM NOT HERE TO CALL OUT OR SHAME ANYONE FOR MAKING MISTAKES, BUT I HAVE PERSONALLY DEALT WITH ONE OR MORE OF THESE ISSUES.
I’m done.
I’m done putting effort into people who put no effort into me.
I’m done reaching out just to get ignored.
& this isn’t in reference to mutuals or friends who I know are busy or have prior commitments.
I’m tired of begging for company.
If you want me, you know where…
“If you continue to stream on Twitch, you agree with what Twitch does to its creators.”
No.
No, it doesn’t.
It means I can’t afford not to WORK & look for another means to pay my bills & STAY THE FUCK ALIVE through my 2nd battle with cancer.
Fuck off.
I’m blocking every single person who tries to tell me that I’m “hateful” & “mean” because I don’t condone a big streamer (or anyone) openly using slurs.
Go.
Fuck.
Yourself.
🩷
I wasted 10 years of my life on someone who was never going to love me & appreciate me the way they said they would & I think that’s what hurts the most.
I want to be invited to collaborations.
I want to be invited to podcasts.
I want to be invited to movie nights.
I want to be invited to make content with others.
I want to be invited to be in videos or compilations.
I want to be wanted.
🥺
“It should have been you. Techno didn’t deserve this.”
You don’t even know me.
I didn’t deserve it either.
No one deserves it.
I’m sorry, but I will be blocking anyone & everyone who says things like that to me on my thread or in DMs. I deserve to celebrate my victory.
💔
ALLOW ME TO INTRODUCE VEX 3.0 ! 🖤
A XENOMORPH HUMANOID HYBRID WITH A BAD ATTITUDE & INSATIABLE BLOODLUST ! 🪐🩸
DEBUTING LATE SPRING / EARLY SUMMER 2024 !
#ETCHAVEX
Hey,
@Bungie
.
I’m celebrating beating cancer on June 26th with a 24 hour stream &
@DestinyTheGame
has been my favorite game for almost 8 years.
If anyone has time & stopped by to say hi in my chat that day, that would be kind of POG. 🥺👉🏻👈🏻
#Destiny2
#DestinyTheGame
Apparently if your VTuber model (your OC) hasn’t existed for 18 years (been drawn or rigged) by default, your VTuber model is a minor & portraying a minor?
Tell me I’m not the only one who finds that absolutely idiotic? 💀
For anyone who doesn’t know me or hasn’t been in the community long, I was diagnosed with cervical cancer in 2020.
I had a full hysterectomy in June 2022, but unfortunately because they played games with my appointments & made me wait longer than I was supposed to, the (1/2)
🧵 VTubing is NOT a tool for immediate success.
I want to start this thread with a disclaimer. Anyone can become a VTuber. I will never gatekeep VTubing, but I don’t believe that this is a “tool” that should be used for “immediate growth”.
I have seen this on multiple (1/?)
WAYS TO SUPPORT YOUR FAVORITE STREAMERS FOR FREE:
• TAB THEIR STREAMS & MUTE THE TAB
• SHARE THEIR TWEETS & TIKTOKS
• LEAVE COMMENTS ON THEIR POSTS
• CHAT DURING THEIR STREAM
• SHARE THEIR STREAM
• HYPE UP THEIR SUCCESSES
SUPPORT NEVER HAS TO BE MONETARY ! 💚
I want to be invited to collabs.
I want to be invited to events.
I want to be invited to play games.
I want to be invited to create content with.
My DMs are open & numbers don’t matter.
I will only say no if I know I will be busy on the requested day.
I want to be wanted. 🥺
individuals are CHILDREN & as hurtful, inappropriate & hateful as these messages are, I will not have anyone attack children on my behalf & I will not attack children. I am blocking & moving forward, but I just wanted everyone to know why my DMs are now closed.
Thank you. (2/2)
I HAVE NO IDEA WHEN THIS HAPPENED?????????? I WAS HAVING SUCH A BAD DAY & I SAW THIS & STARTED TO CRY SO HARD ! 😭
Hi, I love you. & I am so happy you like my design. 💖
Waking up to being called a “clout chaser” for the QRTs I made about the whole now ex VShojo situation made me cackle.
“VeX hoPiNG ThiS gETs hEr 200 ViEwErS.”
I legitimately could not care less.
I said my peace & moved on, but you fucking weirdos keep, for lack of a (1/2)
JUST A REMINDER. 🫶🏻
• BLACK LIVES MATTER ✊🏿✊🏾✊🏽✊🏼
• TRANS RIGHTS ARE HUMAN RIGHTS 🏳️⚧️
• SEXUALITY IS NOT A CHOICE 👏🏻
• DRAG SHOWS ARE NOT DANGEROUS FOR CHILDREN 💋
• ANYONE WITH A UTERUS DESERVES TO HAVE RIGHTS TO THEIR OWN BODY 💅🏻
• THE LGBTQIA+ ARE NOT PREDATORY 🏳️🌈
“Why are you defending billionaires?”
I’m not.
I’m defending not making “jokes” about 5 people FUCKING DYING from a submarine implosion.
If you morally see nothing wrong with “joking” about people losing their lives, that’s very telling of the kind of person you are.
JUST A FRIENDLY REMINDER ! 🖤
I AM PRO BLM ! ✊🏿✊🏾✊🏽✊🏼
I AM PRO LGBTQIA+ ! 🏳️🌈
I AM PRO CHOICE ! 👍🏻
I SUPPORT TRANS RIGHTS ! 🏳️⚧️
I AM PRO SCIENCE ! 🌎
I SUPPORT SEX WORKERS ! 💋
IF ANY OF THIS OFFENDS YOU, FEEL FREE TO SEE YOURSELF OUT ! 🖕🏻
If you see this person in your chat, following or Discord, please be weary. I don't know if this is something they do to others, but this is my LIFE they have played with & I am now in DANGER OF LOSING MY LIFE TO CANCER if these chargebacks are put through. 💔 (1/2)
IT’S FUCKING HOT OUT.
I SHAVED.
I MOISTURIZED.
I WANTED TO WEAR SHORTS.
BUT NO.
I HAD TO GO TO THE DMV.
SOME METHED OUT MOTHERFUCKER WANTED TO TOUCH MY FUCKING THIGH BECAUSE “I LOOK SOFT”.
I’M ABOUT TO GO TO JAIL.
I will no longer be tolerating disrespect when I invite someone to raid with me while I am running a sherpa.
Talk over me? Kick.
Backseat? Kick.
If you want to teach, get into a different chat & run your own sherpa.
Don’t come into mine & undermine me & my teaching.
Period.
Since for some reason everyone seems confused because I have short hair & androgynous features, I’M A CIS FEMALE. I AM NOT TRANS. I AM NOT MTF. I love & support & adore my trans brothers, sisters & NBs, but I am not trans & have never claimed to be. Please stop asking. It’s rude.
To the sorry excuse of a “man” that berated me during my last game on Overwatch & made fun of me for having cancer, how does that 9 & 15 K/D feel alongside that fat fucking L I just gave you as Sombra? 😘
Thanks for checking out my Twitch & my Twitter, babe.
I...
I CAN'T FUCKING BREATHE.
I AM SHAKING SO MUCH.
18 MONTHS OF PASSIONATE GRINDING & COMMUNITY BUILDING.
I CAN'T FUCKING BELIEVE IT.
#PARTNERVEX
HAS BEEN ACCOMPLISHED ON 11/23/2021.
💜
Someone at the mall recognized my shirt (I was wearing my own merch) & the look on this girls face when I told them “yeah, that’s me”… 👁️👄👁️
I didn’t catch your name, but it was so nice to meet you & holy fuck you made my day today. 🖤
As if today couldn’t have gotten any worse, one of the artists I commissioned for a project for redebut has 100% ghosted me & took $800 along with them. 🥲
I worked so hard for this redebut & saved so much before quitting my full time job back in 2021.
I’m crushed.
⚠️ STREAMERS ! ⚠️
What is one thing you won’t tolerate from a first time chatter?
For me personally it’s an ignorant or rude comment in regards to gameplay.
That is an ✨instant ban✨.
I appreciate all of the kind words & support through the terrible news & the breakup…
Everything has been weighing on my heart & I have felt so lost & alone for so long & I can’t begin to tell you what you all mean to me… 💔
I’m so fucking serious…
I’ve gotten so many “joke” DMs in regards to the “I’ll embarrass you on purpose” comment.
It’s not fucking funny.
You’re a piece of fucking trash for finding my pain “ha ha funny DM” worthy.
It’s cruel, uncomfortable & embarrassing.
Fuck you.
cancerous cells spread & right now they’re trying to find out where exactly they have spread & how severe.
So far it’s looking like the mucus membrane of my vaginal wall & possibly my kidneys on top of now mild polycythemia.
Needless to say, I’m devastated. (2/2)
If you see this, I am asking for you to say “hi” back to me because it gives me a serotonin boost & I’ll reply to everyone when I wake up in the morning.
Hi. 🥺