i immediately go silent when something upsets or hurts me. it's a coping mechanism i have developed over time. instead of expressing my anger or frustration, i simply withdraw and try to process my emotions in private. ++
my biggest 🚩 is that i’ve normalised silent treatment when im not in mood for a talk. i don’t really know how to express my feelings especially when im sad and hurt. i only talk to myself in my head about how i feel all the time.
July will be filled with love
July will be filled with peace
July will be filled with healing
July will be filled with progress
July will be filled with blessings
July will be filled with happiness
July will be filled with opportunity
"your trauma made u stronger". no, my trauma made me traumatized. it made me weak, it gave me memory loss, and it gave me feelings i've never wanted. i made myself stronger.
guys please romanticize your life. go on solo dates, study in coffee shops, buy yourself flowers, wake up at 5 am to do a workout, cook yourself some dinner. it will bring you happiness i promise! not for people to see just for yourself!
lately i noticed that everybody looks okay until you eventually have deep conversation with them. and then, you realize that this is a sad generation of people struggling to survive through smiling faces and pretty pictures.
i don't like being ignored. i hate silent treatment. i don't easily give up on people but when i feel like they don't care about me anymore and they don't show any interest in me unlike before, i think i should stop. ++
i used to think communication was the key until i realized comprehension is. you can communicate all you want with someone but if they don’t understand you or refuse to understand, communication is useless.
people don't excite me anymore. if no one talks to me, it's alright. if someone hates me, that's fine. i don't have enough energy to argue and give time to certain people who doesn't have anything good to do with my state of growing. if i needed to be alone, i'll go with it.
hardest pill i swallow this year was learning that no matter how good you could be to someone‚ no matter how much you love them‚ they can & they will turn their back on you and there’s absolutely nothing you can do but suck it up & keep moving forward
healing is weird. some days you're okay and you're doing just fine. other days it still hurts like it's fresh. it's a process with no definitive time frame. you just have to keep going and know that when all is said and done, you're going to be okay
lately, i realized how emotionally independent i am. i never liked showing my vulnerable side to anyone. i wipe my own tears, and heal my own wounds because it is no one else’s responsibility to know what’s going on with me.
guys please romanticize your life. go on solo dates, study in coffee shops, buy yourself flowers, wake up at 5 am to do a workout, cook yourself some dinner. it will bring you happiness i promise! not for people to see just for yourself!
i usually deal with my own problems alone and i automatically distance myself from everyone once i feel sad and tired for some reason. i don't ask for help that often, even from my close friends, because i don't want to be a burden on them. ++
i usually deal with my own problems alone and i automatically distance myself from everyone once i feel sad and tired for some reason. i don't ask for help that often, even from my close friends, because i don't want to be a burden on them. ++
honestly, if u know how difficult and how long it took some people to recover their peace of mind and happiness, you'll understand why they shut all doors at any slight discovery of toxicity, and also why they can be so picky about who they allow into their lives.
if i start crying in front of you that means i’m really hurting. because believe me, i hate crying in front of people. but when i do, i must be in severe pain and i just can't control it.
my trauma didn't make me strong. it turned me into someone who's always paranoid, anxious, and doesn't know how to properly relax without feeling guilty