I know that sounds grim but when you have a life expectancy attributed to your illness, it's hard not to think this way when there's not much evidence it's going to be different.

@talveon Same.

@talveon If you think about it, we're all just keeping ourselves busy while waiting to die. We have to strive to enjoy whatever is available to us to make our time meaningful/enjoyable. I'm just here to cater to my cat and amuse my wife, pretty much. I too could lose it all any time.

@talveon You're too young to be waiting to die trust me it's a long wait and there is a whole lot you can do in the mean time it just takes some exploring and face planting to figure out what works

@talveon it's more like waiting for winter to pass, it's a long while and the snow may seem endless but eventually spring will come

@talveon Life is often a difficult mess. And you are going through a very difficult time/experience. But life is definitely worth it. For all the little instants of happiness, joy and simple pleasure. Hang in there.

@michaelryan756 I don't know how ☹️

@talveon I'm coming to visit asap, we will have time together and do whatever you like. With my depression and suicidal ideation at times I feel as though my life will be limited. And yes I am seeking help but at times I can't control my weather lol, (and I know it's different too). Xx

@talveon Same… it’s a heavy load to carry.

@talveon I feel exactly the same way…

@talveon It's so defeating. I am so mad at the world right now.

@talveon Ditto. The phrase, "just waiting to die", seems to have made its home in my head, for some time now. However, in the meantime; "Rule #32 : Enjoy the little things" [Zombieland] 🌦️

@talveon I know how difficult it is, trust me. The only way that I’m getting through it is convincing myself that this is my life now. Staying at home forever is just how it’s going to be. If I gave myself hope, it would hurt too much. But that way if things do change, it’ll feel great.

@talveon Just had a conversation with my therapist last week about mourning the life I thought I would have at this age. It’s a lot of grief to handle.

@talveon Same

@talveon Yup

@talveon It's not. You matter. Write a book about your experiences - your story needs to be told.

@talveon I hear you.

@talveon @DiaryofaSickGrl It’s been raining here for the past two days. I’m in so much pain because of the barometric pressure. I’m not living I’m just barely surviving . #ChronicPain #Fibromyalgia #arthritis #ME