here begins a thread, on my feelings over the state of portuguese buses and why I think that the new doesn't always mean the best... 🧵 (conveying my feelings with buses)

i dont know why i thought that in the weekend that someone would text me or say anything, even if so the conversation would turn into painful silence anyway... Ill just stop logging on tonight.. i.. hate this i hate my social life...

Im just tired of this loneliness, i wanna feel like i belong, i wanna talk to him again, i wanna.. but he is offline, he rarely has the time.. not even a weekend makes a difference... i feel so depressed, im a loner online and in real life..

its sad, i stayed awake until one thinking that i'd get something out of it, ended up getting nothing, so i'll just go until morning and vent the whole day until i sleep tomorrows night. just makes me feel so depressed, i dont belong anywhere and cant befriend anyone.

i have to accept that having a good conversation online and in real life is not possible for me, it never was.. i dont know why i expect a thing anymore, i wish i had really good friends... i dont.. i can rant, but everyone remains offline

what am i supposed to do? if everyone is busy and offline then whats the point of me staying on discord and twitter today? its clear that i wont find a thing for the whole day that is, not even online.. so i might as well just drop everything and isolate myself..

Why are people so mean to me

feeling unwanted changes u a lot

emotionally: i’m done. mentally: i’m drained. physically: i smile.

i really thought that maybe staying up late on a weekend would help, but i was really wrong, it doesnt do a thing, everyone is just busy and im not... im just alone whilst everyone has good friends and it makes me tired, ill stop venting now and cry.. fml FML FML FML FML FML FML

for today i'll just isolate myself in the room and cry and cut in the morning, i can forget any plans i had, i logged on, still nothing, okay i really do give up, its sad that its like this online and irl...

and if someone cares, and speaks to me.. it never goes anywhere, it lasts a minute then gets quiet, and then i dont get anything else, i am at the point where i am considering blocking everyone, Im so tired of the silence that is everywhere I FUCKING GO..

its 1am, im looking and see just one person online, alright guess i give up here, i wont bother socialising anymore, i just want deep connection texts, but thats a dream forever.. im always alone everywhere, ill just sleep now or lay down, nobody cares.

i thought that at least online i'd have something, since in real life ive just been lonely, well forget it.. not even that, i can forget everything, just oversleep today, screw everything i hate my life and want to die and bleed, i thought- i give up..

everyone seems busy and im tired of it, everyone is offline, i dont try to push conversation anywhere because it never goes anywhere... im disappointed... i thought i'd at least talk to him today properly after all these days but i was really wrong..

Im tired of being alone, i miss the full in depth conversations i used to have online, thats all gone now.. its just nothingness now, i want that back but now.. sigh as its been for awhile its just nothing that i really want, i give up..

Im on discord and i have no one, i mean i do but they are all offline and it never goes anywhere with them.. i want to cry, im all alone, not even in weekends, not even in real life, im alone and lonely everywhere i go.. i guess i wont go outside like i want today..

brah ive always been messed up in the head

im gonna be 16 this year fuuckkkk pedos won't want me anymore 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

i was trying to cut and nod i’m just sobbing and stressed

Don't be so hesitant