i think im gonna try semi recov like fr this time, im sick of being tired and miserable, i will maintain my weight and still track +burn cals but i think i just will stop fasting and restricting so heavily...

lunchie

i am planning my relapse as we speak i jumped into recovery knowing i wasnt fucking ready, i just need to fuel myself for exams next week then starve x

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Having an ed be like

i want???? to??? die????

after exams im gonna start starving myself again lmao i cant do this anymore

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YIPPEE COLLEGE IS CANCELLED BC OF THE SNOW STORM😝😝😝 look how pretty it is tho!

lunch tomorrow but i dont think ill have to go in bc its snowing so much

idk this cant be more than like 1500 kcals right? the burrito was surprisingly low, like 400 ish im trying not to count cals but it's really hard to stop constantly thinking abt it and doing th maths for it all.

today is awful i wish i could be assassinated i dont want to live

some lady shouted at me on the bus today so now i want to overdose because im stupid and need to die

recovery is so fucking hard

this was shit i had two fuckinf bites then cried

my friend said to me yesterday he's so proud of me for recovering and i seem so much happier:(( which made me cry lowkey, and i feel guilty that im not fully committed to recovery yet, im still fasting and skipping meals and somewhat restricting....

when a twt user disagrees with u and they see u have an eating disorder

i rlly dont want my dinner tonight i feel huge

edtwt the only place on earth you interact with crack addicts, ivy league med students, someone actively shitting their pants, ariana grande, and schizophrenic conspiracy theorists in the space of 5 mins (i love you all)

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