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"If only it hadn't rained. things probably wouldn't have ended up this way.". ". ". "I would have let Minakami rest in peace. And you wouldn't have figured out how to jump back into the past. It was a miscalculation. I never thought it would rain.". "'Dont-go' rain.".

What do you want to know?.

This book. That book, too. The notebook where he constantly wrote his impressions was in his hand. He had never let me see his notebook, but in the way cavemen drew pictures of the animals they hunted, that was the only thing I had been able to think of that would be in there.

. I wanted him to touch me more. But how. ? How could he do something like that as if it were perfectly natural?. And why was my heart beating so fast from just that?.

"Take it however you want. I wanted you to fail over and over again. until you finally came to me.".

Even though I should have been the one closest to him, even though I should have been right by his side. What exactly was I. to Minakami?.

"Why don't you come back with me? As long as you're around, I'll always be a writer.".

Still lying down, I grabbed Minakami's leg. ". !". I clung to him like he was a lifeline in a violent current. That was how ridiculously desperate I looked. "T-Tamamori. !". "Are you trying. to humiliate me even more?".

It was ridiculous. I was jealous of a man named Kyusaku Yumeno, someone I didn't even know really existed or not. Plus, it wasn't as a writer. It was because he had been the only one able to captivate a man like Minakami.

. Why were humans set up to forget their memories – their fetus dreams?. Right as I was about to ask, I came up with the answer inside me. I realized Minakami had gone through that unimaginable loneliness.

"I'll lend you the money.". "I don't want to hear that from someone who borrows money from his parents.". "I've treated you to stuff before, havent I?". "Th-That has nothing to do with this!!". "Hahaha". ". ". It warmed my heart that Minakami hadn't changed.

"What about your hard-on?". "Namo Buddha Mahavairocana. ". "You're chanting?! You sinner!".

"I see. I've been praying you'd give up already.". "?!". "Actually, I was hoping your interviews wouldn't go well.". "Wha–?!". Minakami was speaking so matter-of-factly,.It was like he was telling me 'good morning' or 'hello', so I couldn't help but listen.

I knew all the consequences of this moment would happen as soon as I saw those rain clouds. Those clouds would drop and rain would fall over the village tonight. Minakami showed up whenever it rained. That was why this kiss was also natural for us.

. What a terrible dream. These feelings, all of them,.all of this,.everything was his fault.

"Live with me.". What was he going on about now. "You don't want to?". "Huh?!". "I want to be with you. as much as possible.". Minakami's gentle voice made my ears turn red. I didn't have the answer Minakami wanted to hear. That was why. I couldn't reply.

Minakami was a nice guy. I always thought Kawase and I were polar opposites, but even Minakami and I were completely different people. If Kawase and I were duking it out in the Asura domain, then Minakami was looking down at us from the Deva domain.

"My dreams were the memories of the blood flowing inside me.". "Everything you say is so complicated. I doubt I'll ever get tired of hearing about it for the rest of my life, though.".

Tamamori looked surprised. Wanting him to know that this was my normal self, I touched the back of his neck. I wanted him to smile, but he just glared at me. "You're drunk.".

"Huh? You're leaving already?". "An old friend of mine has come to the capital. I'm off to meet up with him.". "Someone I know?". "Ah, no, I don't think so.". "You don't 'think' so?". 'We' were old friends, so didn't that mean they were just normal acquaintances?.

Minakami focused on organizing the books. He probably didn't care how I felt. He acted like that even though he loved me. He was more selfish than I was. What a lonely guy.