I want a series of sketches of the Milo of Crouton by Pierre Puget. Which apparently does not exist. The obvious solution is to use a couple years to get much better at drawing and then go back to Paris for a couple weeks.

Running through this forest when a large buck ran along side my path gliding noiselessly across the rocks and deadfall. Absolutely incredible hundred feet or so.

7,000lb trucks with 5ft hoods and 0-60/4s acceleration should not be street legal.

Stepping away for a bit to get some stuff done

If I was:.- In SF at HQ.- Knew who my mgr was.- Knew what I’d be working on.- Early career.- Single.- Without young kids.- Not recovering from a brutal year (death, fire, back surgery etc.). My answer may have been different. No judgment here!.

Clarification: this is not meant to be a broad sweeping critique. Just an explanation of a personal decision with several variables and uncertainty. I have good colleagues who stayed that I deeply respect. Some I strongly encouraged to stay!. Every situation is different.

Today I accidentally went viral trying to save time by writing a thread explaining a decision to share with friends and family and my 13 followers.

Deeply thankful for everyone I worked with (ex-tweeps and those that stayed) and the users we serve. I am cheering for you all and hope you succeed.

I just want to know what I am signing up for (besides pain). (Side note: Being left solely to put out fired and keep services running isn’t exactly what I dream of doing as an engineer).

To be clear I love hard work, I do well with chaos, but I like doing it with people I like, for a mission I care about and ideally with significant upside potential (financial or otherwise) to balance downside risk.

So my friends are gone, the vision is murky, there is a storm coming and a no financial upside. What would you do? Would you sacrifice time with your kids over the holidays for vague assurances and the opportunity to make a rich person richer or would you take the out?.

Finally, there was no retention plan for those that stayed. No clear upside for sticking it through the storm on the horizon. Just “trust us” style verbal promises. But tweeps overall were untrusting after the 7 months of acquisition drama, recent tweets, and leaks etc.

I don’t know how concrete those rumors are but I definitely saw things internally that made them seem not too far fetched. Again there was no communication from leadership to dispel them or set the vision.

Additionally there were rumors the new vision might be radically different. Not just subscription based but possibly having adult content be a core component of subscription offerings. That is a BIG departure and one I wouldn’t get behind.

There was no vision shared with us. No 5 year plan like at Tesla. Nothing more than what anyone can see on Twitter. It allegedly is coming for those who stayed but the ask was blind faith and required signing away the severance offer before seeing it. Pure loyalty test.

If I stayed I would have been on-call constantly with little support for an indeterminate amount of time on several additional complex systems I had no experience in. Maybe for the right vision I could have dug deep and done mind numbing work for awhile. But that’s the thing….

Nevertheless myself and others were banding together, triaging services, updating on-call, literally saying to my wife on Tuesday “I’ll give it my best shot what do I have to lose?”. Then Wednesday offered a clean exit and 80% of the remaining were gone. 3/75 engineers stayed.

Obviously, a 50% cut is hard but my org was cut at 85%+ on the first round. (An admitted mistake by leadership when they were trying to retain the survivors) I was the last one standing in multiple large slack rooms and JIRA boards. The office was depressing.

I left because I no longer knew what I was staying for. Previously I was staying for the people, the vision, and of course the money (lets all be honest). All of those were radically changed or uncertain.

I didn’t leave because of the 50% company wide layoff that missed me. We all knew a layoff was coming. Prior management would likely have cut too shallow at first and then had to do multiple rounds. I think that would have sucked regardless.