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bawling my eyes out in wide rib bmi 22 purgatory,
Finally get to go to my gym tho and im so happy, I literally love the gym and everyone who goes it’s a fashion show I swear
Idk how or when this happened but I got strong asf 😭😭😭 like ok muscle mami but also DAMN girl, dainty queen where I’m a mf linebacker🤣
& I’ve only been lifting weights 2/6 days I go to the gym 😶 long cardio the other days no more than 1000kcal diet but high protein ig?? HOW
‧₊˚🖇️✩ MARCH ₊˚🎧⊹♡
accountability
➴❤︎ Key points:
-80 days to cruise
sw 61kg .~.
-end of month gw :52kg
-spring break is this month
-focus on consistency
I got a sugar daddy and we had sex the other night, not bc I wanted to but bc he clearly obv wanted to and I didn’t know how else to say no bc multiple times I tried to give him hints?? Anyway thought ab my ex the entire time and how shitty my life has become
This is why is stopped telling people I was tryin to lose weight! Every single time! The calls to go out to eat. My friends bringing me food without me asking. Baking me stuff. My mom making my fav oily foods on purpose.People love u but they never wanna see u do better than them
Ed shawty 🫱🏾🫲🏼 whipping in the kitchen
The yogurt and avocado spray have been my holy grails this week! Also 200g of lettuce is only 28 cals and it’s sooo much food. The sauce I made w yogurt was only 40 cals. And I had a muscle milk 4 protein. Wtv you do season ur FOOD! PLS
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Thought I was skipping the gym td but after looking @ myself I’m getting my ahhh in the gym‼️ gonna only do cardio and abs bc fmlegs. Lets see if I can lose even just a lb before I weigh today 😭
@Et0Plasm
@pinkmatchagf
The feeling dirty part omg real. like true I feel so euphoric but I hated how my fingers started to look and it gave me chronic eye infections 🙃
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its been idk how many days of me not using my tracker app & just kinda eating healthy/ using food as fuel not for pleasure or wtv idk I am so scared to weigh myself but I also feel like I look way better than I did two weeks ago
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Did one shoulder workout at the gym and I became hyperaware of my collar bones turning shoulder bones??? Geez another bone to start run my fingers across 😭😭
Just realized I’m finally at 100 followers ‼️😩 yall so real ily 𓆩♡𓆪 since my edblr got termed this has been my sanity, ty for joining me on this journey (~:
I want an IRL Ed friend but not in a competitive way but more so a help each other stay safe and accomplish goals way, like when friendship k!||s minus the ☠️
01/22 Intake
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meal1: Apple, tangerine, dates : 190 cal
Meal2: big fat ass salad: 536 cal
Definitely gonna need to do some workouts tonight , like I wasn’t able to go to the gym and my dinner alone was over 500 cals, ugh I’m so gross
Dinnerrrr , volume eating fs (using up all the last of the ingredients bc im too busy and broke to go shopping)
Add +170 kcal for yogurt and apple
So total 600 kcals
Apparently I’m starting to be at THAT age 😔 so I just keep telling everyone (my invasive family) : “I don’t wanna be in a relationship until I’ve graduated because then I know I’m eligible etc etc”
When in reality I just don’t deserve a bf til I’m at my ugw 🙇🏿♀️
I wonder what it’s like to walk into a cafe and order such a high cal pastry and eat it with not a single regret or second thought.
What is that like?? I have genuinely forgotten what it’s like to eat something without trying to calculate the calories/ fit it into my day
@Vals_ded
If you can find Benadryl or Benadryl cream use that on it, if it clears up that means it was prolly eczema or allergies, if it spreads you might need to get cortisol (steroid) to get rid of it
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Collar bones and *almost* chest bones that I’m noticing. Ngl still 🐳 but progress is progress
Younger me would be so excited that I won’t have to contour collarbones on anymore ☠️
I tell myself constantly that there’s no way I actually have an ed I’m not even uw , then i have a b/p episode where I have absolutely no control over myself and I start to consider
How am I supposed to be a skinny queen when it’s like every reel and TikTok r sb food , why does our world revolve around food I hate it. Like im a fatty get it awayyyy
Bruh all I can think ab is my ex rn and im trying to revise and I want to trigger myself w pics of us 😭😭😭
Also looking back at that time I thought I was skinny bc I lost so much weight but I was still bad built kinda and waist wasn’t wideee asf so there’s that
Someone tell me what I need to do to get prescribed adderall or something of the like. A few years ago I was diagnosed with ADD so ik I have symptoms to get it but how do I go about that without parents
Random things I notice about my ed :
I am actually so good at sucking in my stomach/ flexing it while still like doing things and breathing,talking,etc
I remember seeing something as a kid that sucking in your stomach throughout the day would make u skinny so I perfected it
Longest liquid fast ever. Its 0600 and im awake rn im hungry but I’m not giving in, I have to weigh in tomorrow and I’ll b beyond disappointed if I haven’t lost , I don’t even want to put a number on it yet
14 hrs into my fast
Just did 1 hr on the treadmill
Gonna go to work today & tmr
So far not hungry & waist on thinna
That layer of fat this the only thing I dislike ab being a girl , it’s so stubborn
@Vals_ded
Don’t worry you’re so beautiful already when you’re 20,21,22 that’s when it actually matters how hot you are and you’re gonna be FINE FINE. I just know it. The girls who don’t peak in highschool are the ones who age like wine I promiseee 💋‼️