the myriad
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i have severe social anxiety and am queer, trans, disabled, geeky, multiple, poly, a ritual abuse surivor, and a linguist. trying to live in the tao as i can.
seattle
Joined February 2007
decompressing with beer and chips. have to thank the broken ones for letting us get through that. I know it put a LOT of pressure on them.
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holy crap glad job interview is over. no idea how I did. so much anxiety and dissociation, I don't even feel the Xanax I took
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and of course I got 4 hours of sleep last night. why would there be more?
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super anxious. job interview tomorrow is definitely looming at this point. wish i knew what would help all of us til then
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and musing about it calls the clouds back. but that's okay. i could tell it would be short-lived.
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i wonder... how to hold on to functioning when we do find it? what's the best use of our time until we lose it again?
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but we always lose touch with that again, and get clouded over in a million ways, a million kinds of mental debris and conditions
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it really is programming that keeps us from achieving. sometimes for a moment when certain ones are out so much seems possible.
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took me two days to clean the kitchen. now I just hope it's not another month before I can again.
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if you haven't seen #DudesGreetingDudes yet, you should check it out. it's awesome.
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at least given my new scale. actually given that i was VERY productive.
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but i did manage to put the bread ingredients in again. this time with the kneading paddle!! so i guess i was pretty productive.
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got stuff to clean with at the store (thanks to @lazyqueer) but probably can't clean today... exhausted.
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forgot the damn kneading paddle. and don't have the energy to try again. at least not yet. dammit.
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so i am making some bread now not because i was really up for it but because i need to have bread in the house. hence, other century.
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i can't eat cheese or eggs or pretty much any protein without bread or crackers or something. i'm crazy that way.
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