god created men and sent dpr ian as an apology

that line was so impactful i wrote everything down 🥺

💌 @dprian_

tw suicide a bit tmi, but the paper i used was torn from my suicide notebook. I’m glad that at least one page was filled with something positive, and i haven’t written in that book ever since :)

i will never forget when ian posted my fan letter… he showed my letter to the world? was he happy with my letter? was it really worth posting? and i have never felt this seen 🥺 (though my handwriting was so ass)

Im so tired of everyone speaking on bipolar disorder with NO knowledge on it, acting like any emotions we show are just a byproduct of the disorder and not valid reactions to a situation. Like JUST STOP. Im so tired of being trated like that and ian sure as hell must be too

勝手に「マニックだから」とか「衝動的だ」とか決めつけるな。話そうとしてる人の気持ちを病気のせいにするな。その人にもちゃんと心があるし言葉にする理由がある。聞く耳も持てないなら黙ってて🖕🏻

until the live happen, sybau.

I’ve been silent looking at y’all fighting each other for days because it’s so stupid, so fucking stupid, if you think about it none of these are your business, but here’s where I fucking draw a line. SHUT UP.

some of you need to stop reducing what he wanted to say to his illness, assuming he’d do it like whatever you have imagined, is fucking cruel. keep this in your fucking mind, people with mental health issues can still be self aware, thoughtful even when they’re struggling. stfu.

but bruh i’m not gonna lie i think i’ve lost half of my soul i don’t feel like myself… i’m worried, concerned, confused, i’m so anxiouuuus i don’t know what to do, i cant think but i overthink, even if i put my phone down i still overthink, this feels like a nightmare🧎🏻‍♀️

yang nyalahin dabin, nyalahin ian terang-terangan langsung ke orangnya, lo itu gak diajak tbh, sadar posisi lu, emang mereka bawa ini ke publik tapi tetep aja lu tuh gak diajak, mereka dua-duanya korban. mending lu marahin si scott sama jeff bocah kontol.

… 😞😞😞

I really wish the two of them could talk, but I don’t have the courage to tag them… They’re both upset right now, and I’m afraid to say anything when their minds aren’t calm yet. But still, I reaaaally hope they can talk things out after all they’re victims of manipulation…

menurut gw gila bgt, 2 orang itu TAU ian sama dabin mulai dari bawah, dari yang beneran gak punya apa-apa, dari dabin kerja di subway, ian jadi budak agensi, sampe mereka punya dpr, sampe bisa world tour 45 kota, terus hubungan mereka dirusak kayak gini, sumpah SAKIT JIWA

ian dabin jangan gituuu jangan marah2 gituuuu plis ngobrol iiiiiihhhhhh pengen nangiiiis jangan gituuuuuu kalian tuh diadu domba jangan kalaaah 😭😭😭 ya allah

ah…

Also please take care of yourselves too guys! If you ever feel overwhelmed, put your phone down for a bit, drink some water, go outside if you can… You need to stay strong too, Ian needs your support and to do that you have to be here with a calm heart and a clear mind 🤍

Hey hello I’m sorry you guys I don’t think I can reply to your dms 😞 I know you’re all confused and worried, but honestly idk anything either, and I don’t want to assume things since this seems serious. I can’t just throw words around without taking responsibility for them. Ian

@mito_is_real Also, when he didn’t get a single dime for his work, he still paid for food and drink for everyone who waited outside the venues for the concert. This was my experience in Barcelona, but he went out of his way to feed all of us

In times like this, when someone I respect and care the most is suffering and breaking down, and there’s nothing I can do, I justwish I could be there to offer a hug, to let him cry if he needs to, even if he’s angry or lost for words or want to shout at my face, it’s totally ok