Small patterns in the Universe display visual manifestations of time → dapples, swirls, ripples, veins, spirals. Something much larger than us is always currently taking place, and if you pay close attention you can see where you fit in. Just look at your fingerprints!
Change is a long and non-linear process. This goes both for healing damage that's been done, and being pushed into the worst version of yourself. The difference is that the latter tends to happen right under our noses.
I love creating nostalgia for my future self, it’s so bittersweet. 🎵 Sometimes I just know when something I love currently will pull at my heart years from now.
I always wear a little heart-locket on a chain necklace when I go to places like school or work. People always ask “what’s inside?” — I just smile and tell them it’s a secret. It’s less special when others know. There is nothing inside it. It’s empty.
Love takes a level of emotional intelligence. People otherwise only desire. Someone who desires you will take everything from you and claim they did it because they love you, but that love is more like a hunger whereas love is alignment.
I need to buy more jewelry with strange symbols for more opportunities to lie to curious strangers about hidden meanings and forgotten spiritual affiliations.
Sounds to love: Glass Marbles, Box Fan, Wind Chimes, White Noise, Music Boxes, the Ocean (but from the inside of a seashell since they are all connected to the sea and carry a part of her with them)
It takes no effort to be bad. There is pain in trying to become what we want. Don't you know how difficult getting better is? Please be nice to yourself.
There’s a certain strength I had when I was younger that I’ve now lost. It’s resiliency that I later saw as naivety. I’m trying to recover it. Time isn’t forwards or backwards and our younger selves can teach just as much as our future selves.
Day ? ? ? of me falling asleep with the lights on. I am training to become invincible to the fluorescent lights at school and at the hospital. They put me in an untouchable and dream-like state.
You're looking at me like I'm an empty space you need to fill. You're looking at me like I'm the maker of my own evil. You're looking at me like goodness is only some kind of reflection upon evil. You are looking at me as if to tell me innocent fun is nice, but
Fear brings you to a total state of awareness. It makes you truly present. Religiously this can be seen as a state of eternity or timelessness. You consider the smallness of your existence. Most Saints lived in a state of suffering because awareness brought them closer to God.
Could the inexplicable feeling of being perpetually watched be explained or am I finally waking up to the presence of God through the static-like background noise?
Suffering is mystical because it creates room for mysticism to happen. It directs us through self-made recreation. Misery tells us what to love, and how the world should love us. Happiness is empty of desire. There would be nothing there to narrow down a person’s humanity.
Having the mental awareness to consider someone else fully and act in consideration to that is intelligence. It is also love. It first takes the awareness of knowing what is you and what is not you since there are endless realities. Many can't do this.
I don't think people realize how much translation and transliteration can mess up context when it comes to history. Especially when the original text is meant to be 'interpreted' within the linguistic context. Everything is one big game of broken telephone.
It's consumption, the way you love eating fruit at the cost of tearing it from the tree it grew on. It doesn't have an existence of its own, in your reality it's there to be eaten. Love is a mutual thing, it allows you to see reality outside of yourself.
₊ ❅ Hopefully next winter we have enough snow so I could play my favourite game of seeing how many Angels I can spot on frosted surfaces and glass windows.
The most normal human reaction to something revolutionary to your existence is to feel threatened by it — even if that thing would change your life for the better. It takes unlearning and relearning to embrace change that doesn’t accumulate on a single, narrow path.
I held a handful of damp flowers today, it brought me right to spring despite the dead of winter and black sky. It reminded me of catching a fleeting mention of a movie you watched as a child, how a small impression can momentarily take you right out of the present.
Please pray for me, I’ve fallen sick. 🌡️ I’m contemplating buying these two books online. One is a book I’ve read numerous times already, the other just seems like something I would enjoy.
It’s satisfying finding friends with similar interests.. or just those open to learning new things in general. I find it’s rare for people to ask genuine questions. I’m having such a difficult time taking & retaining interest in the things around me as of lately.
I am reading the book
@NihilButterfly
recommended to me. I can't even remember the last time someone recommended me a book I enjoyed this much.. ♩ I loved all of the themes.
@0133u
Have you considered replacing it with a robotic one? You could program it to work in your sleep. DM me for inquiries on the surgery. I'll send you a location, when you visit tell no one about it.
Hello
@heimberg_a
do you have any heart-felt advice for
@dhampirs0
? His heart is completely shrouded in darkness. I believe God is calling me to you. 🤍
@RemoteWeirdGirl
If it’s reinforcing a preconceived idea of the self in any form they’re most likely a rejection type (2 especially, but also 5/8) attachment types adapt to the general consensus, so even a 3s idea of superiority is a collection of what’s been considered the best.
Even if someone doesn't do research and still has strong opinions, they are interesting and good to talk to as long as they have an open mind to things beyond what is in their current reality.
I hate it when someone is talking about religion, and someone (who clearly does not do research) cuts in trying to say "they're all the same thing." I especially see it too much when talking about Catholicism and Christianity. They are spectrums with varying beliefs.
It usually takes one person's humiliation to tell other's what may have been innate to others all along in terms of feelings, what we half-show, what we half-hide. To me it is one of the first steps to authentic love; understanding someone's humiliation and acceptance.
I question the idea of writing being an "escape" - writing is so confrontational, it asks you to look directly at something, to see something one way, to understand the idiosyncratic. Those who write open themselves to all the pain and humiliation that an escape is needed for.
@heimberg_a
Hello Robert. How are you doing? Can you pass some wisdom in all-caps for a simple girl who is religiously addicted to tragedy and scared of love?
I wish there was a clearer way to communicate indifference. There is a difference between being indifferent to someone, and genuinely disliking them. I suppose from the outside, it could look the same.
Normally I have such strange and eerie dreams. Last night I dreamed I was in middle school again, and I was playing with flowers bigger than my hands when the day was over.
I’ve just been diagnosed with an incredibly rare illness that I cannot pronounce because it was told to me through the voice of God in a language that does not exist within my mind.
I want to be so dedicated to something that its absence feels like death. I want it to destroy me, otherwise I feel like I am not living. Knowledge without faith is opening yourself up to the void. Without any form of divinity, you are either hopeless or senseless.
There are also connections with Herme and the Bible. I was expecting Hermeticism to be more occult, but it follows the same fashion of all of the other mystics. Hmmm.
I found a book at a second-hand shop that was inspired by one of my favourite authors. I can’t wait to read it later tonight. You guys will never hear the end of it.
The more research I do, the more I realize that anyone connected to music or any form of impressionistic art is strongly connected to the divine whether they realize it or not. Knowledge offers nothing to God when it’s all God has.
@LocalNormalDude
The internet has ruined the capacity of some people to view other people as human beings and not archetypes that require no effort to understand. If you remind them of something else that’s all they’ll think they need to know who you are.
@carriologist
If God can love you in Heaven and only communicate to you through a game of broken-telephone with Angels then someone in another country can love you through a screen.
Any enlightened person would say “I am in love” rather “I am enlightened” because the latter is still focused on the self while the first willingly opens itself up.