Astarion romance scene dialogue + line/behavior delivery differences between goblin and tiefling parties really says so much.

Update: I may not be able to stream this weekend as I'd previously hoped due to my CPU overheating TF outta my pc w/ basic tasks. I have a new cooler coming in tomorrow though, so I can work on installing it but will need to ensure that fixes the problem 1st!.I'm really excited!.

I'm trying to do backend admin things and doing research/blowing up my resume so I can actually properly create proper skillsets/apply everything to a new job. I can never rest but I'm doing my best to set myself up properly after my time away.

I've officially been back in the states for a couple weeks and it took me nearly that long to readjust to the timezone and get my pc up and running again bc I had to test and replace parts despite having a giant ass shockproof case lmfao. The curse continues!

It’s hard to grasp that I am leaving this country in less than a week & moving back to the states. I moved here w/ nothing but my cpu, dog & 2 suitcases. Now I move back, but minus my best friend. I have to re-integrate & build back up. Feels kinda crazy but I’m being mindful.

I wanted to bring this beautiful pendant light on my flight but the glass panels cannot be removed! .THE WORLD WE LIVE IN IS CRUEL.

IDK. I'm just having to do a lot of administrative stuff to figure out my itinerary for moving at the end of the month and was having some last minute "what if" thoughts bc my credit is also gone now bc I haven't been in the states for over 2 years and I don't have a card lol.

I also think it's showcasing why I've been so depressed with my situation since financial instability has always been such a huge fear of mine, and before I'd just pick up more hours or jobs but I can't do that here, even though transit is great. But in the US I won't have a car.

I guess I was just thinking about it bc if I had a credit card anymore, I could book 3 months in an air bnb and stay here in NL, but most cards have somewhere around 30% interest fees and it's scary to think about with even €2k. Not to mention the APR% fees.

Am I alone in like, really not liking credit cards due to fear of financial instability??.When I had a credit card in my early 20s I would immediately pay it off when I got home and got upset when I had waited 3 days one time from forgetting day of. Then I stopped using it.

I'll be streaming later tonight, thanks to everyone for the kind words and messages when I was feeling rough last night. It means a lot <3.

And that isn't going to magically change regardless of where I live. But the symptoms were and are so batshit all over the place that it's taken years to even have something I could actually narrow it down to. I'm just having a hard time.

I'm kinda just venting, bc ofc I have so many people I love and care about in the states-but every reason I originally moved here still stands true today. So I'm just feeling especially emotional bc even today when I wanted to stream a long time, my health forced me to end early.

Maybe tweeting when emotional is bad but I'm going to be honest; I'm having a rough time trying to come to terms w/ the fact that I'm having to leave the country, not due to negligence, but health issues. And yet I can't help but feel like a failure, bc the results are the same.

Since I'm feeling a bit rough still, I will be back tomorrow. I'll be rehydrating more, I prepared spicy soup in advance and tomorrow we'll do a different game. Once things settle regardless of what happens in the move, we have a lot of re-vamping to do since I've been gone~.

Raising funds for my move at the end of the month, uncertain of if I will be able to stay in the Netherlands or not but I am moving regardless. A long time ago I was told I should play Attack Helicopter Dating Sim so here we are. twitch .tv/lidlrini

well my onigiri stream isn't happening, huh?.This is the worst thing I've ever seen :c

Playing this new game Cauldron .

Things I’ve eaten today after a long weekend :3.I’m just doing laundry and catching up on some things I need to do this week, so I’m glad I had energy to make meals.

I cook mostly Asian dishes so I was craving a southern touch this weekend. We made pulled pork and mac n cheese!.It's been a long week but I'm happy I'm starting to feel like a real human again :3

A downside to living outside of the US is that going to events like PAX East are way too expensive and time consuming. HAVE FUN EVERYONE!!.