Kirby FACT 1: circle

playin' a pistolero gunslinger in another #pathfinder2e mini adventure in a party of all gunslingers and boy howdy is it a blast. she goes by the name "singe" (but i can't say why because she hasn't done her wombo combo in game yet and i can't risk spoiling it for my fellow PCs)

winding up !!

learning clip studio animation this 7 second thing took me approx 9999 hours fffffffffhiahdfiahg

logging on to say the new secrets of magic book for #pathfinder2e is incredible what the heck. there is enough stuff in here to fuel like 7 different campaigns. also there is now a spell that replicates the sensation of logging on to twitter.

maybe some social media design started with good intent, but in turning engagement into profit, all good intention is replaced by dark patterns. our reward pathways are hijacked and rewritten, creating ultimately what are chemical addictions to destructive behavior patterns. oof

taking a big break from twitter (and other apps that are ceaseless feeds of novelty) has had an enormously positive impact on my health. the 0.1% of good vibes in trauma hurricanes isn't nearly enough to mitigate the damage that the current forms of social media facilitate.

the various outfits of my #pathfinder2e character!!

me: wait. did ... i take my adderall someone trying to be helpful: try those medicine caps with timers on it for this very predicament ...later... me: wait did... i take my adderall or did i just remove the cap and put it back on...

oh ok

the absolute most cursed part of adhd (for me) is that my mind loves knowing stuff, but hates doing stuff. this means that looking up any information on how to get better at doing stuff just reinforces the curse. meds help with this a lot, but that overall vibe is always present.

google searching "how to get just a little bit of structure in my life but not too much so that my adhd mind rebels and becomes hellbent on destroying the source of said structure leaving me in the empty abyss for all eternity 2021 trusted recommendations top 10 thank you"

me: so what do you do? guy: oh i engineer and maintain microscopes in medical labs me: dang that’s awesome! guy: thanks yea i guess, what about you? me: oh i’m a game designer guy: oh sorry i don’t play games WHY DO PPL DO THIS I DIDNT HIT U W “SORRY I DONT USE MICROSCOPES”

happy 2 year birthday to #pathfinder2e !! my favorite rpg ever, one of my favorite games ever, made by some really incredible people !! (i'm still running my players through a campaign that began as the doomsday dawn play test and is now looking more like a 10,000 episode anime)

really want to program stuff but can't get my mind out of doodle mode so here we are

hate when i'm halfway through a sentence and suddenly i'm neck deep in a "that that" situation and my writing flow explodes into dust

i have come to terms with the fact that my mind always wants to have like 7 different things to pursue and work on at all times, but i do wonder what it's like to be able to just focus on just one thing for most of the time, or to have any sort of steady rhythm or routine to life

Choose Your Spaniel

articulating my thoughts here is tough!! the discord threads are so frustrating. you already have this flow of messages over time, and the reply function. my mind expects threads to be additional metadata on messages to filter appropriately, not clumsy sub-channels. gosh dangit.

"threads" in every chat thingy i've used is a nightmare for my adhd mind. it's like "oh there's stuff going on! but it's, um, somewhere else. idk click around until you find it" please stop implementing context switching to the flow of information i beg you