There's a story behind every record that you buy, and I thought about telling stories about some of the records I have. I thought it was silly... but maybe not. I might try it? For the 5th anniversary of this tweet, I'm reviving this. So let's start over...

2 weeks into the New Year & I haven’t had anything to say, it’s been 2 months since my mother passed away today & my life has transformed so much since the year started that I don’t want to say much until I settle in. Going through a rough patch but it’ll get better, just watch.

With as many friendships & relationships that’ve deserted you over the years, it’s amazing how you haven’t thought of yourself as the problem. It’s even more embarrassing to know that there could never be a solid connection between us because deep down you’ll sabotage as always.

I had a change of heart, this will be the final one (the original tweet started 6 months ago today). Thank you for the nice messages every barista wrote before I played my games, very thoughtful and appreciative. Signing out.

I’ve had 40 Christmases in my life & this is the first one without my mother, the funny part is last year all I wanted was for her to be home on time from the hospital… but this Xmas makes me look forward to next Xmas because I won’t feel so directionless at this time next year.

I received a “free facial” yesterday as I was waiting for someone, I turned down their sale but I returned with treats. In return, she gave me this Post-it as a thank you. I said to myself: “So this is what it feels like when I write those daily post-its for someone (special).”

One of my favorite movies released 15 years ago today, which also happened to be my favorite scores as well. I saw it 3 times in theaters, I didn’t see it opening day but when I did the following week it told the story of what I was feeling at that time pretty well. Flynn Lives.

A friend asked me if another friend had reached out since my mother passed, when I said no they were deeply disappointed by that. To be honest, I didn't expect them to say much to begin with. Considering how busy their lives are, they barely make time to reach out to begin with.

As I was looking down, someone came up to me saying: “How do you do it?” I looked up & they were crying saying that their mother didn’t have long to live. Don’t let this “strong demeanor” fool you, I’m heartbroken inside but I have to be strong enough to guide others like them.

Someone who has a habit of being inconsistent with others is taking a liking to me lately & I’m not sure how to break it to them that I’m not fond of it because I know they’re not gonna stay, there’s no point in having people in your life that stay for a good time not a long time

Whenever people add laugh tracks to their videos today I feel like I’m watching a sitcom from back in the day or a cartoon from the 70’s, that’s how corny I think it is.

Being an unbiased therapist is hard work. I try to be the voice of reason, not telling others what to do, but offering a broader range of options so they don’t feel compelled to react to their emotions. Sometimes I wish I had a friend like me too.

I decided that this will be my final tweet regarding these greetings, then I had a change of heart, then another one, but who knows? I don't know if I want to keep this going because I want to see how much further it can go but it proved it's point. Regardless, THANK YOU 🙏🏾.

If your “link in my bio” only consists of spicy content that requires a subscription then consider me uninterested altogether, as much as I admire the sculpt of a body I can't appreciate it if it's going to be viewed by everyone else as well. The mystery is gone, and so will I.

I toyed around with the idea of reviving my secret blog one last time following my mother’s passing, then I realized that I ended it on a good note & that I shouldn’t bring it back. I even thought about making a new blog dedicated to mom, but realized how tiring that would be too

I never think about the lengths I go for people, when someone found out about my mother’s passing she reminded me of the time her mother passed & how comforting I was during her time of need. I don’t remember this at all, but it’s amazing how that’s the first thing she thought of

Find someone who’s more excited about your birthday than you are. That was the case for my special day this year, when someone went out of her way to make sure I felt my best when the circumstances around me weren’t at their best. I don’t know how to thank her, one of a kind. ❤️

When I made the IG reel announcing my mother’s passing, it wasn't meant to be sad but I was being vulnerably honest with everybody & I didn't realize how many hearts I’ve broken with that clip, so much so that someone who watched it made me this flower. Mad respect, from mom too.

Someone I’ve been sweet on for a while has been checking on me every day, always was protective of me but now so more than ever. Despite the circumstances of what’s transpired in my life lately, I appreciate every moment she’s been watching over me. I hope this continues.

Please continue to brighten my day, little things like this matter.

It’s hard to believe that it’s been a week since my mother passed, I’m still not sure how I’m supposed to respond. When I saw the end near, I told a friend: “I can’t have both of my parents passing in November” but that’s sadly my reality now. November just got that much harder.