disclaimer, this is for edtwt only, please. this is in no way promoting this method of wl for those who view their body and food normally. please stay that way forever, an eating disorder IS forever. ok time for the thread >:)

my history is that I've been battling different eds for many years. at the start, I had bed. my hw (logged at the doctors) was 170, but I remember weighing at home at around 185-190. I am 5'4, this would make me 32.6 at the highest.

i also wanted a change, so with the mindset I decided to do extreme diets (ana). my habits at my hw was having ≈5000 cal per day, and when I first had ana, I had around 1500cal per week. now I have a high res at 1000-1500 per day.

I am now at BMI 22.3! there was a point in time I recovered in the middle, but now I'm back to lose more. i have lost 20lbs in the last 2 months (50 in total), and finally am perceived as slim to the real world (but not edtwt). for people with high SWs, this is a BIG thing

SO what are some things I've noticed? let's begin :3 🩶

skinny jeans became BAGGY on me. the jeans weren't even skinny, I was just fat, lol. my legs look much nicer in close fitting clothing.( i have some leg workouts for those who want to get toned, just ask! former gymrat, lol)

my stomach doesn't bulge out, and my navel looks different, it's not horizontal which is nice. and, I can see my ribs when raising my arms upwards:)

my knee pain got so much better. the doctors were right about losing for that, for once lol. I'm sure most people w high sws know how doctors think losing is the solve to all problems

I can walk up stairs/long distances without being winded! it's so awesome.. downside is the heart palpitations from ana. i have since increased my intake for slower loss. i binge less this way too. reminder for everyone to stay safe out there 🩶

the backs/upper arms dont stick to my sides and I notice far less sweat. my skin is not constantly touching itself so there is less of it. really, it makes a difference

along with that, I'm less hot and sweaty. I still run warm because I'm a guy, but I'm not SWEATING ALL THE TIME

my appetite shrunk the less I got used to binging. i get less hungry and it's easier to fast. my eating habits did get better the more I restricted, the more I'm solving my binging habits(though they do Happen still.)

people notice.... skinny privilege is a thing no matter what people wanna say, even though I'm not nearly as small as I wanna be, I'm much smaller than I was before and people ask about it or give me looks if they recognize me

you WILL lose your buubs. (I'm trans masculine) I went from an Ecup to an Acup. I had liposuction that took away 2 sizes, but I got back a size from eating. t made them smaller, too. but E to A is crazy. a ton of extra skin, but I have top surgery in less than a month :3

I don't feel so judged eating which is so awesome, maybe if someone has a smaller portion than me. but I generally don't feel as if everyone is staring or is going to say something like they had when I was obese.

the doctors will encourage you to get slimmer, but once at a healthy BMI, they start actually calling you skinny. skinny irl means middle BMI, at least where I am in America where a lot of people are overweight.

here's me now:

guys when I tell you my hands and wrists lost a lot of weight I'm not even joking, they look so much slimmer. my fingers fit around my wrist with extra space. tip: drink water to help reduce water retention 🩶

okay, that's all for now. I'll try and tag people, but this kept getting marked as spam when I did..... then I wasn't able to post for forever so sorry friends:') lmk if you want me to make more like this cuz it's fun

@kiesanoai @naventinging @strawberrae @mightbedyin @NeedyBee_ @etherea8ed @emptyvanity OK THATS ALL WHO WANTED TO BE TAGGED lol I tried posting then I was blocked for these tags + SO MANY FOLLOWERS THANK YOU EVERYONE and enjoy!