03/04/2026 rose: the kind of hectic and chaotic and unpredictable shift that makes me remember exactly why i want to commit myself to this horrible lifestyle thorn: foot and calf pain from being on my feet all day

03/03/2026 rose: having a patient who was the sweetest and had the nicest family thorn: getting the anatomy questions wrong when i got pimped by the PD on the OR

03/02/2026 rose: getting parking access when i thought i wouldn't thorn: majorly bad vibes for a first day

03/01/2026 rose: having a good loaf of fresh italian bread for the first time in so long thorn: a stressful grocery shopping experience in a confusing and unfamiliar place where I'm trying to appear like a normal and functional adult

02/28/2026 rose: having a godsister who calls randomly and spends half the day on the phone with me thorn: starting a 7 hour drive 2 hours later than planned bc i had so much shit to do before i could get on the road

02/27/2026 rose: last minute monkey snuggles before i have to leave again thorn: the entire day from the moment i woke up was incredibly physically and mentally taxing to the point of pure exhaustion and still not everything got done

02/26/2026 rose: getting all all the big stuff out so tomorrow is just a lot of little tasks thorn: finding out the how much weight is just over what i can lift while i am in the middle of lifting it

02/25/2026 rose: loading af out of the truck completely by myself to the point that the living room is close to empty thorn: being overwhelmed every minute about how much time is passing while i still have so much that needs to be done

02/24/2026 rose: a hude dent was made with one run of the truck thorn: trying to finalize and coordinate multiple things and doing a bunch of manual labor using my baseline broken body but with uterus that's protesting

02/23/2026 rose: literally the third dinner ive been able to have all month even though I've only been 15 minutes away thorn: thinking i got something completely worked out and then getting hit with a bait and switch that took hours more to semi sort out

02/22/2026 rose: feeling like there's potential for this plan to work and for things (involving me) to be done before i have to leave thorn: being in a tight room working as fast as possible while 2 people are more in the way than helpful and the stress in the air is pablpable

02/21/2026 rose: having a godsister who gives up her entire day to come help with the literaly heavy lifting in the time capsule thorn: having intense si joint pain but anything that would really help isn't an option and the things making it worse are basically mandatory

02/20/2026 rose: getting the strong majority of my keepsake sentimental stuff done and in just 2 totes thorn: trying to manage all of the shit i already have to do while also damaging my grandmother's ocd spirals for her bc she and everyone else around is completely unequipped

02/19/2026 rose: my first day getting to spend any real time with tiny lady since I've been home thorn: thinking about the amount of mental and physical labor i need to get done between tomorrow night and sunday night

02/18/2026 rose: recert was so much quicker than i thought it would be thorn: office cookie disappointment

02/17/2026 rose: getting back to studying a topic i find interesting and exciting thorn: lowkey starting to be stressed about money again because nothing about my living situation is stable or consistent for most of this year

02/16/2026 rose: making progress in my own tasks outside of everything going on at home thorn: doing the most in the house for all of this but having to hear everyone else huff and puff and complain and make excuses

02/15/2026 rose: making a huge dent in one of the most daunting tasks in this situation thorn: too many cooks in the kitchen and most of them are not helpful in working towards the goal

02/14/2026 rose: good food thorn: being overwhelmed by a the little things

02/13/2026 rose: having a balanced day of productivity in different realms thorn: having anxiety about an important thing getting rescheduled and the potential domino effect of it