I’ve been crying for 2 hours, so I’m gonna look at this picture for the rest of the evening and think of that Jere looked this happy when he hugged me after our ICIP and that he said “jag älskar diiiiig”. 😭
I love, love, love him.
📸 /meggs.photo
I should go to my stable. Eat lunch. Prepare for my vacation. Be at work in 2 hours.
But all I can think of is him and why couldn’t this moment last forever?
I will never laugh at his English.
I’ve had so much anxiety for that reason, that someone will laugh at me while I’m speaking/writing in English. And I know it isn’t perfect but at least I can use it…
He’s doing great and I love him for that. ❤️
But I also had a really good time this weekend! Met old and new friends, did karaoke, gave Jere a gift, tried to look at him in a respectful way even tho his pötsi was right in front of me and we had a really sweet conversation with Jaakko. 🥺🩷
This is probably stupid, but I hope that the security guard travel with them bc they want to travel together and not bc they need a security guard wherever they go.
I usually never posts selfies but the message here is important. Always remember to trust your lust.
And don’t let ppl tell you that you’re anything else than a superstar.
You are all amazing! Love you. 💚
So this year has been insane.
Started with that I voted for Finland in ESC in May and ended with a lap dance in Kalajoki and subscribed only fans.
In lust we trust.
If I ever work as a journalist again I will never ask this shitquestions.
And I wanna do that bc I wanna ask the real questions. Like, what’s up for the next only fans post or things like that 🤷🏻♀️
Its been TWO days and I haven’t recovered at fkn all but I’m already trying to find a way to go to Finland in December again. Jere Pöyhönen, why the fuck are you doing this to me???
This is my last gigday in Finland for a very long time. Feel emotional and sad and happy at the same time. My beloved Suomi and Käärijä, you saved me this year.
I forced my parents to look at the New Year’s Eve gig, my father called Häärijä ”the golden man” and my mom asked where Jesse was so I had to show her Urheilujätkä from Black box and now we’ve been watching Käärijä for an hour.
And they say that Jere is so so good. 🥺💚
My mum just sent me a message “käärijä is playing here” and she’s working at a ice hockey game rn.
So my heart skipped a beat and then I realized she meant that they’re playing a käärijä song at the game…. 😅
Ppl at work think that I’m Käärijäs best friend bc I’m going to gigs.
I tried to tell them that he barely knows who I am but they couldn’t accept that so I just let them think that my dream is real life. 🤷🏻♀️
My neighbor wanted to see my ICIP performance and I was a bit worried to show her “make a trick on a dick” but her reaction was honestly
“Is he married? Can you PLEASE marry him?”
IN MY DREAMS YES YES YES.
I can’t believe this is such a big deal. Käärijä has been pretty clear with ”don’t throw things on stage” and when someone did he was like “noo, not ok, we’re in Estonia right now” I fkn can’t see the problem with him throwing away that flag someone threw on stage??!!!
Today I’m so fkn exhausted that my first thought was “I’m gonna cancel the slut boat” (I won’t do that tho!).
Then I saw this pink bolero and now my brain doesn’t work at all anymore.
HE’S SO BEAUTIFUL 😭😭😭😭🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷
I’m on my way home. And I’m surprisingly very much alive!!!
Thank you all wonderful ppl who made this mini-tour possible and amazing. I wanna do it again and again and again. 💚