Wish granted. Now I'm a zombie again. wHaT's iN yOur HeAaAaAaddddd!.

GOOD GRIEF I WANT TO STOP CRYING.

What do you want to know?.

*whilst knowing the stats are absolutely not in my favour.

God willing, I'm going to report in the UK tomorrow. I don't know why this is the case I'm pursuing, nut I cannot forget the smile he had on his face when he told me I was unstable. Spent the latter part of my journey prepping. Let's go get him. *.

If it wasn't for an acquaintance bumping into me, I would have dealt with this alone. She was also a psychologist, so saw the panic attack and acted straight away. She kept me safe. Things would have been different without her.

I went but they were absolutely useless. And then the morning descended into hell. The short version: he was not only in the same train station, but on the same bus. I completely overhauled my plans, but will now be on the Eurostar home thanks to the generosity of a friend.

The police station is basically right next to the train station where my bus is picking me up. Contemplating whether I have time to take action, even if I have no time to report.

*didn't say.

I am devastated and yet, I am quietly proud. I did it and I survived. May I get home in one piece and not spiral.

I looked into the eyes of a devil who had the audacity to tell me that I was a liar over & over. He added things that I did say and as I pushed him, all he could go for was ad hominem, "you are unstable. You should see a doctor.". Nothing was achieved, but God, El Roi, sees.

I never ask for things to be shared round, but it would be great to give this a little bit of traction.

Pray also for my trip home tomorrow. I will be going solo and since seeing the perp (in the distance) at lunch, I've spiraled. I will also be arriving to an empty home. I am not ok, but I also don't know what I need. May justice roll down. .

He is currently saying I gave me mixed signals (possibly true, if you ignore the existence of the fawn response), and has told multiple lies. I am terrified of seeing him but I want and need to do this. Please pray for me to find my voice to speak with truth and clarity.

The safeguarding response has been good so far but I fear he will get away without any significant consequences. I am confronting him, with support, at 6pm French time.

Despite telling him no multiple times, he did not stop, but manipulated me w/ compromises (ok, don't give me a blow job, but use your hand, before taking my hand. ). He pushed for nudes & started claiming that my body, specifically my breasts were his and no one could see them.

CW: SA . Because I'm refusing to keep silent in the face of abuse. I'm currently in France on pilgrimage as many are aware. On Thursday evening, I bumped into an acquaintance in Cluny town. We talked about a potential relationship, he later assaulted me twice.

vibing the dawn of my sackcloth and ashes era.

And I'm some cases it's hard to know the exact moment when they stop, but then you look back and it's hella obvious. .

the chaotic urge to go into la boulangerie in burgundy and shout où est la chocolatine!?. IYKYK.

Crazy good for building focus, confidence and better social skills ✨.