New Macy work fit unlocked !🔓🤎🤍 But it’s missing something…🐶🐥

A lot of people here think getting reposted as thinspo is the highest compliment known to man because that’s their personal goal,, to be seen as spo,, but trust me dawg once it happens you’re gonna change your mind 😭😭😭

STOP BC THEY ACTUALLY HAVE BIG ONES???? I was js curious so I looked it up and they genuinely exist🫡

I’m scared that I’ll actually do it. I feel like there’s something inside of me & I have to take it out by preforming a surgery. I can’t see or feel it, but I feel it in my mind like it’s real even tho I know it’s not, it’s a leech & it wants to hurt me so I have to take it out

Also again I’m getting this urge to “preform surgery” on myself, wtf does that even mean? But it’s all that’s going on in my head “I must preform surgery, I must preform surgery” THIS HAS NEVER HAPPENED WTF IS GOING ON? I want to open my arm up & sew it back up😀? Help pls

at work I had 4 banana mini muffins I made for my customers, & after work I had a pb&j, a light+fit yogurt & cashews, I started crying after but wtv, I got possessed by the recovery demon 🫩😭 like OMFG dude just pic one, either recover or don’t! IM CONFUSED & EXHAUSTED OF THIS

I don’t even wanna talk abt what I ate today… At my 2nd therapy apt my therapist convinced me to eat a rice crispy treat & i was so hungry & gave in & then I didn’t get home until 4:15 & it was almost time for work so I had mac&cheese,jam& 2 containers of cottage cheese😭

It was like when I feel the need to purge, it’s like I’m in a trance & I can’t stop myself. I think it was bc I took too much of my medication, for some reason I’m so dumb & I always think the more I take the better I’ll feel even tho it doesn’t work like that🫩😭

Cookie dough latte omw to therapy Btw yesterday I had a bunch of mini muffins I made at work & also 1 of the cookies I made My mom booked me sessions with both my therapists today🫩 bc I tried to preform surgery on myself Monday night… I took off my toenails🧍🏼‍♀️ha..ha.. wtf😀

Cinnabon latte🫡

Yeah that took me less than 10 minutes 🥱 Nobody loves cottage cheese more than me… This isn’t as good as goodculture but it’s still cottage cheese & also less expensive, I’m also currently eating goodculture !(with jam ofc)

Oh and I put a few bunny crackers in this & then at work I made mini lemon poppyseed muffins and also banana ones & I had 1 of each. I feel ridiculous that I have to state all of this but I feel absolutely terrified if I don’t write this out? I just can’t lie 🫩

After work(js now) I had mac&cheese w strawberry + blueberry jam & a whole container of cottage cheese, also bc I’m greedy — a mini container of cottage cheese too😭🫩 I don’t have work tm but I’m thinking of going bc I rlly wanna sell my treats 😭 it’s too fun🧍🏼‍♀️

Bday cake latte omw to work I’m too scared to eat rn🫩 But! I’m very excited to sell the lemon rolls & all my cookies!! It took so long to decorate them all🫡

Peanut butter banana pumpkin brownies🫡

Omllll🫶

I decorated the lemon poppyseed rolls !!🫡🤍

Pls come back I miss you I’m sorry pls🫩☹️

—that I didn’t eat. I don’t like that I look different now, I miss myself, I miss what I used to look like, I liked looking small & sick, I HATE THAT I LOOK BETTER NOW I HATE IT I HATE IT I HATE IT I DONT WANT TO GET BETTER WHY DID I DO THIS? IM SO STUPID I JUST WANT TO GO BACK

I zested myself instead of the lemons🥲 I prepared all my cookie doughs(I ATE SO MUCH DOUGH) for work tm & I also baked the lemon poppyseed rolls so they could be frosted tm & ofc I had to have some But now I’m crying bc why did I eat? I feel scared that I ate today, I wish—

On the drive home I had some bunny crackers & then just now I had mac&cheese(the whole box ofc😈) with strawberry jam, a whole container of cottage cheese, & more of the crackers My stomach hurts, but it was good🥲