jan. 11　☙❦❧ ›　637 c, 61g p jan. 12　☙❦❧ ›　let’s not talk about it !

been relapsing for a month now and only gone from bmi 18s to 16s lol #Flop

erm so ... everyone was so lovely and got me a slice of vegan carrot cake to welcome me and i tried to have a couple forkfuls out of gratitude, then went on my break, bought vodka and had a mental breakdown ... they sent me home early 🤹 i need to get my shit together

ik this perpetuates the whole stereotype about developing an ed for attention but genuinely one of my biggest dreams was always to have someone notice i’m struggling without having to say it

i really don't want to go 😁 but wish me luck

is it a bad idea to pull an all-nighter before ur first day at a new job

jan. 10　☙❦❧ ›　–0.2kg ›　681 c, 66g p i did it, going to attempt for smth similar today too 😵‍💫

help me decide my intake for today pls i can't make decisions for myself do i: - be a coward but feel slightly more comfortable - aim for same as yesterday and just deal w it - challenge myself further bc i need the energy

jan. 9　☙❦❧ ›　n/a ›　568 c, 63g p i know i was aiming for it but i feel fucking revolting i want to die

I May Look Bad...But I Feel Worse!

i genuinely have no idea how to up my intake (slightly) in a way that doesn't give me orthorexic panic *and* doesn't make me feel too full

one of my required readings HELPPP

telling myself i just need to be kind to my body so i can get through this next week, i'm still going to be well under maintenance but if i gain i gain, i can restrict more when push comes to shove 🧘‍♀️🧘‍♀️🧘‍♀️

ok i'm terrified but i'm really going to try and up my intake today. my brain fog is so bad and i have so much admin to do before i start the job + several readings for the first seminars

jan. 8　☙❦❧ ›　–0.2kg 🔪 ›　357 c, 37g p

erm yeah until The Entity made me a refugee in the 2006 war 🤩 i live in the uk currently

🥺🥺 might be overstating a little there anon but this is so sweet

lol ….. i have v orthorexic habits that caused my list of safe foods to diminish over time. i don’t think it’s helpful for me or anyone else if i elaborate on why i’m ‘scared’ of any type of food though

THIS IS SO CUTE hello hello :’)

i’ll consider it 🔎