Today is floor day. Just me lying on the floor with three inner demons and the families they've gone on to have.

I am very aware that I suffer for no good reason, but it doesn't lessen the suffering whatsoever

"Throughout history" kids are back. Maybe I should do a module on explaining what history is...

Grading, grading, grading in the morning, grading in the noon time, grading when the sun goes down #CatholicSchoolCoreMemory

The loneliness of one rewriting a draft

Guys, if you take the non-drowsy cough syrup and the non-drowsy antihistamine together, it's like you don't need coffee anymore

Have to make a vegetarian Xmas meal and my brain is frozen. There's sadya food and there's meat, absolutely no in-between veg dishes I can think of

As a kid/teen/young adult every time I wanted something or wanted to go some place, my dad would say that I can ask my future husband all this

Doc, therapist, chiro, massage therapist said I need to go off sugar and dairy to manage symptoms. I haven't eaten cake in months and now I'm dreading Xmas because I want cake, I miss cake, I miss my brain making little spark of joy when I eat cake, I hate people who can eat cake

This Canadian-Italian friend of mine just found out that many Indian men get out of long-term relationships and immediately have arranged marriages. She's screaming in my face asking me what that is about... So far my response has been: Have you met men?

Phenomenologists discovering my phenomenology...

Had an insane craniosacral therapy session today. This 50-yr-old man cradled my nape with one hand, moved my jaw with the other and very matter-of-factly declared, "You've never felt safe, have you." Yeah, I burst out crying.

Almost all my students start their essays with "Throughout history..." and then write about stuff that has barely had any history

Reading some social science papers... There are mathematical equations for the "tendency for racism" and indices for "avoiding responsibility" ... I feel like I owe amends to Derrida.

verge of breakdown but too many deadlines. so i'm rescheduling breakdown. hope it works.

There are emails to which I want replies and then there are emails I write because I have to and the email sounds like I want a reply but I actually really, really do not want a reply

Everyone is discussing toxic workplaces and toxic bosses... my ex-colleagues and I are virtually giving each other side glances... boy, do we know someone

Reading an essay on Museum Studies... it's like oh there was a rush to make giant museums after war bcoz art is transcendental and men will realize they're all brothers... And omg the lie! Like people are not looking at the Guggenheim and wishing they too had some blood money

Prof asked for pronouns. Wanted to write: "She" mostly. But sometimes I'm a dick and very "He"

Was looking at gowns for a friend's wedding. All of them had this leg slit and I'm thinking "why, it's neither good-looking nor comfortable..." it took me a while to realize it's bcoz men like seeing women's legs and now I'm like 'oh this is why I find shopping hard'