remind today, that I am THANKFUL for YOU everyday. Thank you for sharing so many memories with me, watching movies together, laughing with me, crying with me, and loving me through when I don’t like your favorite movie.
You have forever changed my life. I am so happy you’re here.
Merry Christmas from me and mine to you and yours! ❄️ whatever you celebrate, I hope it’s happy, merry, and bright. Now excuse me while I eat my weight in sausage balls.
Also - thank you for being patient with me. I have not felt like myself the past 5/6 days. I haven’t gotten out of bed but a few times. Just in a really dark place right now.
Tbh, I jstarted thinking about you guys & everyone on the hot mess express. I am just sitting here crying because you are always so kind and nice and hilarious and understand with me all the time. Like… I don’t know what I did to deserve you, but I’m so glad we have each other.
Let me tell y’all about my Monday morning: 1.) stepped in dog shit, didn’t feel it - tracked it on a couple of rugs. 2.) opened my email to some pretty nasty hate emails. 3.) randomly got a text from my dad (who I’m estranged from)… this Monday can fuck ALLLLL THE WAY OFF.
I hope you always, always, ALWAYS know that your existence changes lives. Your smile at a stranger matters.
Your kindness in traffic matters.
You MATTER. period. Full stop.
No matter what your brain says.
No matter what life throws at you.
You belong here. You matter. 🩵
Hubben’s birthday was Monday. thanks to your support AND recommendations- I was able to surprise him with the titanic
@LEGO_Group
set. He has worked on it every free second he has - already finishing a third of the ship! Happy (late) birthday hubben. I love you!
This man finished the 10,000 piece titanic
@LEGO_Group
set TWO WEEKS TO THE DAY. over 4 feet long, moving engines, iceberg not included but beans giving it her best shot.
Just a reminder that whatever is thrown your way the next few days - I love every moment we spend together. I love watching movies for the first time with you, playing games, telling stories. I love laughing with YOU. You always have a community that values you 🩵🩵
Helllo. I am drunk. Honestly. Crossfaded. Love you. Be responsible. Please. I packed a bag to stay at their house. You do the same. Please love you pkwy baby.
Also what is actually up with all the Captain Marvel hate?? (Not my review but the movie in general???) I got sooooo many comments telling me to skip it and now people are shocked I liked it. So it’s real question for ya: why the hate on this one?
in case no one told you recently: I’m so proud of you. Look at the hard stuff you’ve been going thru & You’re not giving up!! That’s amazing. I hope you see a dog today. I hope you belly laugh at meme. I hope you know how much I love you. You deserve to be here. 🩵
Blake just rolled over, dead asleep, and said “Ashleigh… she wants to talk to you.. the lady who just went up stairs.”
So I’m not sleeping anymore tonight
hey by the way 🩵 thanks for being cool about the twitch stream yesterday. I got so many things done and we are back on track for a rootin’ tootin’ good time on the Hot Mess Express. See you Sunday for the LIVE on YouTube!
hey you. it’s okay to not: see family, leave the function early, not talk to certain people. it’s okay if you don’t feel “merry and bright.” The holidays can be hard, and your brain can be mean. Always remember that there is always a seat at my table for you - just as you are. 🩵
I think I've had just about enough of
@awk_ashleigh
and her movie reactions - too much mugging for the camera, and then screaming about missing obvious plot elements that she'd pick up on if she weren't A) distracted, or B) just dumb.
Sad thing is, she'll probably never change.
Being silly with you guys on the internet makes a bad brain day so much better. Thank you for existing and being here and riding the hot mess express! 🩵🥲
I’ve done my hair and make up. I’m about to get Taco Bell. And then I’m filming a couple (maybe three) movies. So this shit day can suck my productive DICK.
Let me tell y’all about my Monday morning: 1.) stepped in dog shit, didn’t feel it - tracked it on a couple of rugs. 2.) opened my email to some pretty nasty hate emails. 3.) randomly got a text from my dad (who I’m estranged from)… this Monday can fuck ALLLLL THE WAY OFF.
BEANS UPDATE: after three and a half LOOOONG weeks of Beans dealing with an eye infection in ✨both eyes✨ she is FINALLY better! Cleaning her eyes multiple times a day and hundreds of eye drops later this baby can finally see again and is feeling much better. ❤️
Good morning everyone! It got scary here in Nashville last night, with at least one tornado touching down in a neighboring town. Thank you for checking on us throughout the night! We haven’t gotten out to assess any damage yet.
Thank you for all your kind messages. feeling much better today, feeling more like myself, hoping the depressive episode is over. Sometimes you just can’t fight thru it & you just gotta feel it for a while. We’ve made it thru 100% of our bad days so far, I ain’t stopping now.
hey. the YouTube uploads have been on time but the streams have lacked because my mental health took a huge dip recently. “had to get a hair cut because I didn’t brush my hair so long there was a knot in it” bad.
I’m starting to feel better after a few days in bed.