nothing i do will ever be good enough, beans arent good enough, whatever i do for my parents is never good enough. i despise myself and everything around me everything is so overwhelming and stressful i just wanna end it all i cant take it anymore it will never get better.
i promised him i wouldn't do anything stupid but it just keeps on getting worse i cant stop cutting my thighs are covered in cuts my arms have a few on them i dont know what to do theres blood all over my bed when does it ever get better
the urge to baby him and hold him in my arms and help him solve every single one of his problems and AADUIHJBSG why must he be so skrunkly BUT SO FAR AWAY LIKE I WANNA HUG YOU AND SQUISH YOUR PRETTY LIL CHEEKS AND LIKE GET OVER HERE ALREADY >_<
hes just the sweetest little thing when hes in littlespace im genuinely in tears my hearts meltinggg AHSHBDDB >_<
he makes me stim out of pure joy and happiness
#ageretwt
ill never find anyone like him again.
theres no one else like him
hes unique and what i have with him can never be replicated, im so grateful i have him.
"do you still love me" id be dead if it werent for you i owe you my life, even more, i owe you literally everything, youre literally so sweet and you show me so much love and affection why would i not love you
"I ruin everything with my own selfishness"
"I'll always be in a constant cycle of feeling like this."
"I am selfish, angsty and embarrassing. I have become someone I hate."
"I will end up sad and alone and the only person to blame will be me."
- Manifesto, Sign Crushes Motorist
i forgot that shedtwt isnt quite "normal" and socially accepted and always get confused why i get blocked by my fave ageretwt posters,, then i remember i run an account on twt where i slit and starve myself 😭
how can a person vent, fall asleep, wake up and feel even worse than they originally did im genuinely such a horrible person all i do is plague his life with my problems that never even fucking solve themselves i hate myself he deserves so much better than whatever the fuck i am.
@mafuslit
this is so fucking real except my mum doesnt really give two fucks about my eating, ive wanted to be a part of edtwt so damn badly but im just too much of a pussy like ive set goals and everything but idk what to do now ajahsnmrnrnrn my fear of criticism rn: