Finally remade a public EDtwt account so that I can interact with people more 🥲🖤 Following my mutuals back as fast as I can! Still deciding on if Im gonna tag my private EDtwt or not, but feel free to DM me for it if you dont have it yet 🖤

Super rich and creamy mocha coffee for only 100cal and with 3g protein 🥰

Reminder to check your DM's if you havent in a while and your notifications are messed up, haha 😂🖤

This thread is a mess and Im kinda just spilling out some thoughts to process them, do NOT take this as educational 😭😂😅😭

I find that other disordered traits are so much easier to see in the moment, like I have a way easier time being able to tell that Im having a binge/compensate/ARFID type moment because those behaviours are so much more obvious, but not eating can be written off in so many ways?

My phrasing is really not the best in these tweets, I recognize that and Im open to correction on it, Im just trying to get these thoughts out best I can 😭 I have no clue how to be fully self aware of my behaviours in the moment and it kinda of distresses me 😭

Like when Im in those moments I usually see it as. Idk like recently Ive been labelling it as "food fatigue due to improper stimulation" but a year from now?? Am I gonna be labelling it as food fatigue or am I gonna see it as "holy shit I was so depressed I swung into anorexia"??

Anorexia is so invalidating sometimes because theres times when I look back and Im like "oh ya that could TOTALLY be classified as anorexia" but when Im in those moments I DO NOT see it that way. Does that make any sense??

(Also, hands looking a bit skinny in a photo for once 😳)

How do you guys deal with your smoothie getting stuck on the walls? Sometimes its whatever but it sucks if I have protein powder or chia seeds or something in there 😭 Ive resorted to just using my spatula to push it down back into the smoothie but its a bit awkward 😂

I wish my phone captured colours properly because my smoothie basically looks like if red velvet was pink, haha. It looks so pale and orangey on camera tho 🥲 (220cal, 8.6g protein, 9g fiber)

Im craving a big meal and then some snacks while I get st0ned and watch horror movies but Im too broke to afford delivery and Im still worried about my frostbite 🥲💔

Idk if its the "normal weight effect" or if Im just really good at dealing with Drs but no ones ever given a fuck about my ED even when Ive straight up admitted to it. Like Ive told my psych that I have an ED yet shes still fine prescribing me meds that can make EDs worse

I think another part is that if theyre not in ED spaces, theyre not gonna know that that sorta thing is taboo in our community!! Theyre gonna be happy they have someone to talk to about it finally. They might not know they have an ED and see it as positive motivation

OMFG IT FINALLY HAPPENED I ACCIDENTALLY SENT SOMEONE SOMETHING WITH EDTWT CONTENT IN IT

Also funny cuz like... IM ALMOST 28?!?! Im only a cusper, I do NOT think Im who people are usually talking about when they say that phrase 😂 Baffling 😂

Sometimes I feel unsure on whether or not I have ADHD cuz somethings I really relate to but theres other things that I see a lot and I cannot relate 😭

the guilt that comes with an ed is such an awful feeling

Keep wanting to make a 20+/25+ EDtwt post but Idk if Ill have the headspace to keep up with it after and dont wanna be one of those people who come off as if theyre just doing it to gain followers because thats not true, I DO want mutuals 🙃😭😵‍💫

My post reached non-EDtwt so I will be spending the next half hour blocking non-ED accounts and minors 😬😬😬

Its not fun trying to get off of it. I dont wanna be wasting money on this but I could LITERALLY DIE from the side effects of trying to quit so until I can get more money to afford weening off of it Im kinda screwed, its so fucking backwards