I dealt with a lot of racism growing up and it made me hate myself when I was younger. Now Ive fully embraced that this is who I am and I love ALL of me. YOU ARE ALL BEAUTIFUL! LOVE YOURSELVES!! 🖤
Another cop showed up this morning and brought a mental health expert. I just got interrogated for 20 minutes wearing nothing but a robe, barefooted and in 40 degree weather.
So, I talked to my landlord again. Apparently, people who just walk around the property reported me too? I’ve been scaring their children (which is honestly really funny) but if I’m too loud again in 14 days, I get evicted. Pretty stressed rn tbh.
I’ve been backstabbed way too many times recently that I have no desire to have friends who I can’t trust in my life. Why people gotta spread false stories to fit their own narrative? Cheap gossip? I really don’t deserve that and I’m separating myself from those types of people.
I’m sorry I have to take out my doggo every hour of my streams. I don’t have a yard to let her roam in since I rent a townhouse. I know a lot of people get upset with me since it delays/derails things, but I have a responsibly to make sure she is happy and healthy too.
I want to trust people, but how can I when everyone who has ever been close to me has backstabbed, lied, used, or abandoned me. Pushing people away feels easier but I want to heal.
Emergency. My house is flooded so I have to delay my subathon for a bit. I saved my router but apparently the buildings hot water heater exploded while I was sleeping last night. Saved the router tho.
I truly appreciate everything you all have done for me in 2023. It's been a very hard year, yet we kept fighting regardless. I'm manifesting positivity for 2024. We got this together. Gonna be live a bit for the final stream of 2023! (art:
@ClickDraws
)
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the way ive been too afraid to stream and havent left my bed in two days. first vtuber to have the cops on my ass and to be evicted for existing yay! one of the cops was pretty cute tho. maybe they should come back. 🥴
I'm so sorry I haven't been responding to messages. I have been unbelievably overwhelmed and stressed. I'm kinda shutting down again. I do appreciate everyone checking in. I'll be okay. I just have a lot going on right now.
I just went outside to take out my doggo. It was raining. I was wearing my black fluffy jacket with the hood up. A person drove up and stopped for a bit which was kinda sus. They drove up very slowly to me, rolled down the window and screamed
"OMG I THOUGHT YOU WERE A BEAR..."
I’m not a character from a fiction. I’m a person. I’m not a side character in my own life. I view my friends as equals. No one above me, no one below me. If you’re my friend and you treat me differently b/c of numbers, then I don’t think you’re a real friend. Positive vibes only.
Been taking some time to touch grass and heal mentally a bit. Within the week, my neighbors have bought me groceries 3 times and are now offering to take out my trash. These are the same people who called the cops on me. I am beyond confused and feeling insane whiplash.
Dragon Ball/DBZ was the first thing I ever became hyper-fixated with. It inspired me to do so many things, and it lasted until I was an adult. This one hurts. Rest in peace, Akira Toriyama, and thank you so much for all the magic you gave us. ♥️🐉
Thank you so much for such a lovely WeebCon experience! It was so wonderful to meet and talk to so many of you!! I miss everyone already! Till next time, Tricksters! SCREE!
Omg. I’m at the wedding reception and I really am the only single person in the BUILDING. They called all the single people and I was the ONLY person to walk up. My little niece came up and one of the groomsman’s wife popped up so I wouldn’t be by myself. I caught the bouquet. :P
If I am "soft" for disliking race jokes when I know firsthand how harmful they can be, goodness. I hope you or your friends never have to go through it. There are plenty of awesome memes without bringing race into it.
I told a story about how I lost my fingering on a chair which led to me dropping it on my foot and then breaking my toe. Chat told me it's "gripping" not "fingering".
I am lost.