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+ The tears were flowing faster but for now Lucifer felt more relieved than anything . His wife didn't fully hate him . . . After squeezing his eyes shut and pressing his wet cheek against her chest he let out shaky breath . ❛ I know . . . ❜

At this point he wasn't expecting any kind gestures from her . So when her arms wrapped around him he felt shocked, but only for a brief moment . His arms were quick to wrap around her frame, squeezing her tightly as if being afraid to lose the grip . +

Observing, partly expecting him to hit the wall at any moment .

Nothing good to offer ? Pffff don't make me laugh . You are currently offering some quality time for an old man . ( He grinned a little, hoping the little joking would keep the mood light . ) Mhm . Maybe that is why it feels so easy to talk to you .

+ ❛ I love you too . . . I always have and I know I always will, no matter what . . . I hope you know that . ❜

+ of those tears away, only for new ones to form right after . He wasn't going to beg for another chance because in deep down he knew he already had too many . . . And too many times he managed to fuck things up . +

For so many times Lucifer had imagined what it would be like to see her again . To talk to her, to . . . finally know she was well . And the reality was far different from any of the thoughts he had . But he couldn't blame her, only himself . Arm lifted and dried some +

+ ( A simple genuine smile . ) I do . Besides, no one else has chatted like this with me in a long time . It's nice . . .

No one's was, but we can decide ourselves how we want to use our time here . I'd say we have time to try all kinda of things and see what we like most . ( Leaning a cheek against the palm of his hand Lucifer smiled . It wasn't teasing or playful like usually . ) +

❛ I need a drink . Strong one . ❜

+ With a shaky breath the fallen lifted his gaze on her once more, being well aware his cheeks were stained with tears . ❛ I was genuinely happy to see you . And maybe I was hoping . . . that you would be at least a little happy as well . . . ❜

❛ . . . You probably don't believe a thing I say at this point but I would change so many things if I could . I've always stuggled with expression myself the right way and I made you suffer . I know saying sorry won't cover anything but I am . . . really sorry . ❜ +

https://t.co/Ze0UFwa2GO Can this app stop messing up my replies ;-;

+ ❛ You know Heaven . I know it . They would've found another way . . . I thought agreeing to that was the best for our family . ❜

❛ And I'm sorry for that ! I never wanted to increase your burden but I just . . . Yeah, maybe I was a weak coward . . . ❜ His gaze fell, few tears escaping his eyes and falling on the floor . She had all the right to be angry and upset . +

Ready to fall back to his depression era .

+ ❛ But I got better . I got better and you . . . Why did you leave ? I've missed you, Charlie had missed you . We needed you here . ❜

It did come as a surprise that was the way his wife thought about him . He could already feel tears forming in his eyes but held them back, not wanting to break down in front of her . ❛ You knew I was struggling . . . I know what I did wasn't the way I should've acted— ❜ +

Those words were like daggers to his heart . He stood there shocked and pale, trying to find some kind of words . ❛ What . . . what do you mean by that ? ❜

https://t.co/Ze0UFwa2GO The mood for angst 😔 I need ittt .