Dear Supremacists....... #FuckOffHate https://t.co/w7fUhNu2Ll

For the last 12 days I’ve assisted as a team lead for a #GetOutAndVote campaign in a state that is not my own, walked 116.1 miles (and counting), endured 30F with 40mph gusts, rain, nearby gunshots & incessantly adhered to COVID-19 safety protocol. Did YOU vote today?

Love one another. Support those less fortunate. Lean on your friends when you are weak. But never forget how amazing you are. You don’t need social apps for validation, ever. You are all in my thoughts & I hope you are staying safe & enjoying life, even in 2020. Much ❤️, Mutt

I don’t regret refusing to bully others online or do I question the legitimacy of my anxiety. Be extra mindful of your own limits. Today’s world is like no other; you are allowed to be scared or overwhelmed. But don’t allow 2020 to alter your morality or respect towards others.

You are all very meaningful to me and I’m sorry that my mental issues have kept me away. I decided to not make the events that pushed me away public as to not perpetuate sensationalist behavior on social media. Sadly that also meant isolating myself from these triggers.

I teared up witnessing POTA absolutely failing to denounce white supremacist & hate groups. Disappointed doesn’t cut it. I am SCARED of another 4 years. There is nothing more important than voting. I came out of my hole, which is painfully difficult right now, to beg you to vote.

I’m still far from comfortable with coming out of the shadows. But I’m healthy, safe & appreciate those who checked in on me. I’m totally avoiding telegram completely so please don’t think my silence there is personal. But this evening I felt it was necessary to break the silence

Peace Out - Peace To You

The world might be falling apart, but one blessing is that new new Run The Jewels blasting in my car teaching me always relevant, rarely not absolutely on point gospel of Killer Mike. #PraiseRTJ4 🙏

But this is how I personally save black lives. Leaders need to regroup and find a way to fight that won’t clearly kill more people than the evil it protests against. Love you all. Please be careful.

And to ignore how clearly a single event, even with PPE, causes huge spikes in both transmission and deaths, we are literally killing people, directly or indirectly. If you ignore that this is a different world right now, you are criminally negligent. I wish I had an alternative

I care about black lives so much I question how, during a pandemic, anyone could support an action that will absolutely lead to real and actual black deaths. I believe every single reason why you must protest is legitimate and share the same frustrations, but people will die.

Let’s say you make it very easy to feel comfortable with my actions but maybe impossible to return. At least not now, not in this fashion. It’s too toxic & the inability to target justified frustration correctly means this lifelong advocate lost traction he may never get back.

And in offering a perspective regarding today’s events which could save actual & real lives, people I respect act in ways I do not respect. And again until you invest everything and then realize how much terrible behavior, both by Nazis and by your friends, you endured...

Person I’ve tried to help for years wished my greatest fears upon me when I said I needed space. I finally can say no and protect myself, which is amazing, and because people let this current environment remove common decency from their vocabulary, that person lost a resource

I stepped out the last few days because it was important for me to try and give some perspective that someone who let social media and the hysteria and the poor behavior of others for the same reason, ruin his mental health, can have. And it’s clear doing so was not smart.

Oh and I’ll be fine because I’m half way through Gaga’s new album and somehow she’s invoked the same feelings she did in her prime without the product feeling regurgitated or forced. That’s very difficult and I’m far more critical with pop, and I’m lost in Gagaland. Thank you!

All I know to hold true is this: my life has always been fucked up, but every bit of my journey is a blessing and all the good I give eventually helps me when I need it the most. The times I let hate, fear or grief take over is when I do the most damage. Good luck my friends.

I’m half white, half Japanese, with a sister married to a black man with two of the most beautiful children ever made. I hid from the Klan. I had multiple breakdowns just because being me is fucking hard. Some consider me a leader, while others hate, attack & truly have harmed me

That’s a poor excuse and makes you worse than the naive bigot or racist. No matter what flavor of race, gender, orientation, if what you are doing is directly putting down another, then I’ll continue to aid and protect the disenfranchised mess you create, and hope you find peace

Also with the current environment I’m vanishing again until it’s less toxic. Just wanted to stick my head out and say I’m alive. Love one another. Lead by example. Be better then those that try to put you down. We too often hurt those around us in our struggles for happiness