Trauma dumping on streamers.
As someone who has made the mistake of dumping on others in the past-be considerate to not only streamers but to friends.
Taking care of you does not make you selfish. Wanting to talk doesn’t either. Just ensure you’re both in the right position.🧡
I know everyone was following her story closely:
Unfortunately her battle got too strong this morning. She was a miracle dog through so much and she was the best thing that has ever happened to me.
Thank you all for everything.We were able to say goodbye because of you🧡 Mercy
This is about DaydreamerDan. He abused me, my dog, cheated on me multiple times/sexually pursued others (sorry to the ones that got involved while I was here.)
Su*cide baited me, blamed me for my dog’s death, & gaslit me about everything that happened. This is the short version
Yeah you support women like wild
@bbjessTTV
!!! Why would anyone think different!
This y'alls streamer that preaches about not tearing down women and villainizes "females" for coming at her?
Just tried to give this aggressive man a fake number on the street & my worst nightmare happened: he called it in front of me & wouldn’t let me go 💀
Literally saved by a dude walking by who distracted him long enough & signaled for me to gtfo but 😭 not all heroes capes, etc.
So….tomorrow is officially my last day at my part time job (originally my full time.)
I finally have enough confidence to dive in and focus on my content 100%. Wild to think I was on the path to very corporate retail 3 years ago. This feels surreal. We did it. 🧡
Leave it to the ones “close” to him to defend an abuser/say everything I did was crocodile tears. Loads of proof in my phone of your friend I chose to sit on & you all want to be slick in the shadows & make theories you know nothing about for your boy you’ve known…a few months?
A lot has happened in the last 24 hours, etc
Opening up my dms and seeing that one of the absolute lights of my community commissioned this for me and said, “Because you gave me a place to call home.” Is going to send me to tears.
I’m so lucky to have you all through anything.
This is the last photo I could take of her before we MOVED on to euthanasia. Where the vet told me to take time to digest, get photos, etc. This was to keep her comfortable. For you to be so wrong and loud for Twitter onions is disgusting.
Absolutely go fuck yourself. :-)
I want it to be clear I still live with Dan and this isn’t the best time for me to speak up but as he pursues more people- it’s the right thing to do. Many people have witnessed this from my friend here to my family. I will get my thoughts together and I will talk.
Someone tried to make a Twitter account of me, being extremely transphobic, with my old username. It got suspended in less than 24 hours with no traction and now no one can use my old @ again for malicious attempts: LMAOOO WE STAY WINNIN. 🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺
I’m so tired but I've had some time to take a deep breath. I stood up for myself and that’s what I needed after months of paranoia, discomfort, and noticing weird shit, and now I can move on.
Thank you all for giving me the space to do it and for the kindness/validation, really
Tw// death
FYI my brother is dead and one of my mods used that against me to people that did not even know to fit their narrative while kissing my ass. That’s why they’re gone now. Details below and moving on~
A new chapter, same journey, same party people,
and always the Nyyt Club, party people🧡
IT IS DONE. Thank you so much for all of your love and support as we make changes & grow together. You all made this move easy, and although the memories will be missed- this is better🧡
Got a lot of what I needed to off my chest during stream, and am glad I felt good addressing more. Thank you all for giving me that space to be open and transparent, and work through it all. We keep it moving, keep growing, and it’s going to be hard, but it’s up in the long run.
✨ Friendly reminder that if you’re going to support your streamer/content creator friends- do it because you want to not because you want something in return. ✨
Thank you for giving me the space to talk. I’m sorry my thoughts have been everywhere/hard to form. Ty for reaching out/everything said. I’m sorry I couldn’t address you all live. I want change and for us both to grow from this. Please do NOT send Dan threatening DMs on my behalf
Today, a year ago, I made one of the best decisions of my life :-)
1 whole year of all focus/full time w/ the party people today.🧡
A lot of w’s & getting to fully dive into my passion w/ you all has been an absolute honor.
Thanks for believing in me and our space 🧡 Happy day
So….tomorrow is officially my last day at my part time job (originally my full time.)
I finally have enough confidence to dive in and focus on my content 100%. Wild to think I was on the path to very corporate retail 3 years ago. This feels surreal. We did it. 🧡
@ the 7 middle aged dudes on the Internet big mad that my lobster flops got an article cause they hate fun and hate seeing a powerful woman with crustacean feet
I am going to try to get everything out before I lose my courage to, & because it is where I feel the safest right now, and then I am going to make moves. It is going to be a rough one but I don't know how to type it.
Thank you for listening/ I'm sorry.
This is about DaydreamerDan. He abused me, my dog, cheated on me multiple times/sexually pursued others (sorry to the ones that got involved while I was here.)
Su*cide baited me, blamed me for my dog’s death, & gaslit me about everything that happened. This is the short version
Listen, 1st: splitting up from a shitty partner is GOOD & I’m not doubting how toxic that could be at ALL- and I hope that everyone is safe. That is incredibly important.
On that note- some of you all need a reminder that people can be their own shitty person individually- 1/2
I am just going to keep it transparent- if you orchestrate high school like cliques in the streaming space- don't exist near me. Too many of us are years past our bullied era.
Taking tonight to start responding to all the kindness sent my way-so apologies if I get real emotional in DMs. Then I’m ripping up this apartment for my mental, & prepping myself to take on tomorrow
This has been one of the hardest things I I’ve ever had to do, but we’re doing.
Watching a dude at a coffee shop mad fumble a date and he said to her, unprovoked:
“I know you. You’re really cold but you’re soft. You want someone to see it.”
RIGHT after talking about mass effect gun mechanics for 20 minutes.
Bout a month ago I switched up my diet/routine cause I was dealing w/ some sensitive hot gorl stomach probs that put me in pain a LOT.
Fast forward to today & not only do I feel better-but I’m not dealing w/ the constant painful bloating I had.
So mind if I flex on the feed?🥹
AM AIRPORT READY.
Thanks for having me, LA. I mostly only got to run around in the rain to check out homes, BUT we’ll be BACK BACK permanently in May so it’s not so bad :-) 🧡
See you on stream tomorrow y’all 🧡🧡
Thank you all for having my back, always.
Dan and I actually just found out that our downstairs neighbor also lost their beagle, same age as Mercy- on Monday. We brought them flowers and had a really nice, long talk about grief and this journey. There’s so much good in the world
Finishing re-arranging & deep cleaning a big part of my apartment, moving forward on a new place today, replied to a huge chunk of the kindness sent my way, & working on the rest. (I know no one expects it of me, it’s important to me to)
We’re chugging. We’re moving day by day.
Crumb of an update: 👃🏻
Ya girl is a little scary looking but they just took out my packing and I got my first trial of fresh air. My life is about to be changed- I couldn’t believe it 🥹
I’m asleep almost every hour but thank you all so much for all of the kindness and- (1/2)
So
@twitch
posted their Black History Month stream team vid & the amount of comments that say,
“Ok but when do white people get FREE advertising?”
I—literally all damn year.
Imagine trying to use BHM as a reason why you don’t have success instead of your dishwater personality
IT’S MY BIRTHDAY!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHH. Getting crusty and dusty.
Going live NOW for a short birthday stream to celebrate with my fav party people :-) thank you all for making this year so damn special already as always 🧡
So lucky for another one with y’all :-)
A year ago to now (‘:
A year since we took a leap of change and picked up DJing for the first time ever-and on stream.
It’s been a life changing one.
We celebrate today with bangers, throwback tunes from some of the first sets, and lots of love 🧡
🔴
Catching up still & for awhile, going day by day, but can't express how much cleaning, re-arranging, & making this space different is doing for my mental. Still ways to go but we're doing the thing.🥹 just wanted to celebrate a small move today & remember to do that.
(Also cat)
Holy shit what a dream.😭 This Twitch con was seriously one to remember.
Thank you to everyone that came out to hype us up during both the amazing StreamElements show & Late Night Buzz. 🧡💙
I’ve got so many feelings and thank you’s to catch up on, but I’m so lucky for you all.
Thank you all for believing in me & our space 😭
We fucking did it, party people🧡 Thank you for this opportunity to open so many more doors.
This is a W we pushed for but hope in the very near future we can see good splits for everyone who continues to work their assess off.🧡
Was struggling to convey my feelings about this on stream without balling my eyes out LMAO
but wow. Thank you. This journey has been really scary- especially the phone calls during stream asking if they can move forward trying something else,
to be able to do that because-(1/3)
It’s a little harder for me to make moves when I’m healing-
Dan went and got this beautiful picture printed out and this frame so I’d stop worrying about the paw fading and we could have a memorial present 🥹
The picture is from when we took her to the drive in- in October 🧡
✨ REMINDER: Please know that streamers/content creators DO NOT INTENTIONALLY miss chat messages, DM’s, comments/ mentions, or etc. It makes a ton of us very nervous when it happens and we are just trying to stay afloat sometimes. ✨
For many reasons, I have decided to remove the second half of my username- Kage.
Although it stems from my adoration and personal feels for Naruto in life, I am ready to drop it and move on to something more appropriate and more me.
Thank you for always supporting me.. (1/2)
What an absolute night.
It is unreal how much healthier and happier and MORE CONFIDENT I feel. SIMPLY can’t believe we are here (‘:
Thank you all so much for everything and for believing in us. 🧡🧡
Y’all brought the absolute energy to such a special day 🥹🧡so many emotions.
Celebratory selfies because you all have showed the offline YT sets so much love that we are 300 watch hours away from applying for YT partner (‘: 🧡
W’s pls very happy WEEK. 🧡 Thanks for the love- I didn’t expect 😭🧡
Please excuse our mess of an apartment right now but
FF15 was one of the first games I got to experience with Mercy when I adopted her. (‘:
Dan is now playing it for the first time from start to bring back the good memories. 🥹 Dan deserves the world.