I hate this life. I feel so hopeless. Things are just getting harder. I don't know how we are going to get by financially soon. I am so lonely. I'm struggling in all the ways.

Days like today prove how utterly alone I am and it has broken me 😢

Does a #lupus butterfly rash hurt, itch or feel hot? #NEISvoid

I'm struggling really badly and not one friend has "checked on me". Not one. I have even said I am struggling but they don't seem to hear me. So please stop telling others to check on their friends if you aren't even doing it. It's cruel. #sicknotweak

I had an appointment with my psychiatrist today. A very very very needed appointment. She did not show. No call. No text. Nothing. I'm torn between worry for her and distress for me. #sicknotweak #depression #ocd

I have zero Christmas spirit. None. Zip.

Why is #YellowstoneTV so good?!?!

My house is a disaster and even worse than usual as I have been super sick with pneumonia. I want to decorate the tree but feel I can't tell the house is tidy ☹️ #ADHD #OCD #chronicillness

#OCD is an asshole. It tells me that one of my ferts is sick because I didn't check their cage doors properly or enough. It isn't logical but mental illness isn't based in logic.

One of my ferrets is sick and I don't know which one! They are both acting normal but ferts get sick and pass quickly. I'm so worried 😟

This time of year . . . My loneliness and depression flood in . . .it's painful to pretend but also painful to not live and try and find joy. I'm so tired. #sicknotweak #itsokaynottobeokay

Metal straws taste horrible 😣 I can't get past the metallic taste!

17 has been falling asleep off and on since we got home from school. Makes me nervous. Did he just sleep poorly last night? Is he getting sick? Are his seizures breaking through? #medicallycomplex #worried

Anyone out there?

My hair has thinned so much 😢

Showering when fighting pneumonia is very very very hard😮‍💨 #chronicillness #NEISvoid

I am so lonely and so sick 😢

I don't want to do Christmas this year.

I have to say one of THE best series finales has got to be The Vampire Diaries. I will not be taking questions on this at this time lol

What have I learned? Kegels are important.