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she/her | life on pause due to severe ME & co (since 2019)♿️ land back! 🇵🇸🇨🇩🇸🇩🏳️⚧️
Joined December 2022
Lmao I’m sure there’s a whole posse of cops waiting outside his door, guns drawn, to defend him and his partner from… *checks notes* the most savage roasting I’ve seen in my time in god’s green earth.
*cracks knuckles*. Give it up for Dirty Delete David and his idle threats!. Yknow, for a widdle guy who just wants to be weft awone, you sure do run that pie hole. Now David, this didn’t begin with your “harmless” tweet about me— which wasn’t, mind you, since your little
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It hurts so much looking at old photos of me. I had no idea how pretty I was. She feels like a stranger now. Oh what I would give to be trying on clothes in an H&M fitting room right now
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Anxious attachment literally wires your nervous system to think you will die without a specific person. Dating multiple people helps keep you grounded in reality. Instead of putting one person on a pedestal you get to weigh your options and find a partner you’re compatible with.
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But that’s exactly the point. It prevents you from developing Limerence, which is where you project desirable traits on someone they don’t actually have. Ppl with anxious attachment almost always benefit from dating multiple ppl, scarcity mindset cultivates limerence.
Dating multiple people during the talking stage stops you from actually caring about anyone. You start seeing people as options instead of individuals.
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Funny how men accuse women of being overly emotional, when men act on their emotions far more often and can’t discern feelings from facts. If they’re emotionally dysregulated, suddenly you’re the villain. There’s never any self-reflection or curiosity when a conflict arises.
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Bc they don’t view you as human. When you do something that exposes your humanity (being vulnerable, asserting boundaries) you fall from the pedestal they put you on and they no longer view you through an idealized lens. Then they think *you’re* the one who changed.
I have a question . Why is it so easy for males to devalue women.“She did this so she is no longer for the keeps”, “she said this so no one would want her again”. Like what importance have you bestowed on yourself to make you feel you can decide who has value and who doesn’t.
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Daydreaming about ways to forge social connection despite severe ME… I thought maybe I could plan a 10 minute party? Like invite a bunch of friends to hang out in my living room for only 10 minutes. probably would cause too much anticipatory anxiety. fun to daydream about tho.
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“Stop making your illness your whole identity” What identity? Idgaf about your opinion of me, you’ve never had to slowly watch everything you love about yourself get taken away as your body breaks down in the most horrific way possible. The illness did that, it wasn’t a choice.
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Watching brand new cherry flavor while having hallucinations from withdrawing from a psychotropic drug is… interesting to say the least.
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This painting makes me think of all the tortured souls who are hidden away in darkened rooms, grasping for the light #MECFS.
I need money, buy my shitty art, a thread:.11*14 canvas, mixed media paint original abstract .$25 each plus shipping in USA only.If anyone wants to suggest titles for any of these, feel free to comment and b**st. #SharingIsCaring
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She’s Come Undone by Wally Lamb.
SERIOUS INQUIRY: what should i read this week if i want to get worse as fast as i can.
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The brain is the most energy consuming organ in the body. It becomes very apparent when you have severe ME/CFS. The eyes too. Just processing light takes a lot of energy.
does thinking hard burn calories? I get so hungry after thinking.
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Isa’s birthday is coming up, please help them out!.
My birthday is on Monday, it’s gonna be yet another year bedbound with very severe #MECFS. It’d mean a lot if you could boost my CF for specialists & other medical/daily expenses, sending funds or buy items from my gift list, I made a specific bday gift list. Links below ⬇️.
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Recently my aunt accused me of “isolating” ??? No? I am isolated due to my disability. I’m trying to accept she will never understand. I will always be handling my illness in a way that’s unacceptable to her. It’s upsetting when they don’t see the invisible barriers stifling us.
I haven't had my phone on for a week. My dad: "Why the heck not?!" I try and fail to explain PEM. isn't this the opposite of how parents normally are with their offspring + phone usage? I'm not using it ENOUGH for him. LOL. he'll never understand the level of willpower this takes.
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For me, anyway. Because of my attachment style, I pour into people until there’s nothing left of me. I often don’t realize I’ve self abandoned until much later. Letting someone love me without giving something back goes against my nature.
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If I could do it over I would tell myself not to date. It’s not and never was worth it. But I had people in my life telling me “there must be a way around it” and that it was black/white thinking to believe it wasn’t possible. They were wrong. It is impossible at this severity.
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It makes me sad to realize how many times I abandoned myself to placate others, putting myself in PEM and causing irreparable damage. I just wanted to be loved. It came at a tremendous cost.
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Please help Rhi out!.
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But of course it feels flu-like, our immune system is affected. Idk if this makes sense, just thinking out loud. No one could’ve convinced me I didn’t have reactivating EBV those first few years. It felt like I just had mono that never went away.
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I think the assertion that the trigger is relevant is mainly due to how it feels in the body. I was convinced I had “long EBV” for a long time because I couldn’t differentiate the symptoms of the virus vs what followed. It feels flu-like so ppl assume viral persistence.
I want to talk about something I think gets lost in the "LC is different than ME" vs "ME is a part of some LC" debate. That is that ME isn't defined by the trigger but by the disease. Meaning. It doesn't matter what the trigger is, but any immune trigger can activate it.
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