Gonna eat only 40 min max again bf plehh

I think ik why im maintaining my weight for such a long time and not losing. I started eating for 1+hrs nd then plehhh cus i was lazy af but usually i only ate 40min max and then plehhh. And bc i now eat so long , lpts of food gets digestesd bf i plehh.

Atp um just waiting for heart attack to just die already.

If only i enjoyed losing weight more than i enjoy eating food

My childhood trauma didn't make me stronger. it made me a people pleaser. it made me forgive way too much. it made me not speak when i'm supposed to. it made me an extreme empath.

Water retention is going crazy rn. My face is so numb?!like wtf. Like my whole body is so heavy and im constatnly feeling hot and having cold sweat. Its not fun. Also my head hurts alot. So fr i need to b/p less for some time to lose the water weight.

Hello! I think im gonna do my first 18hrs fast again tmrrw after 2yrs👍🏻starting in 2 hrs

Wish I had a boyfriend Or an irl best friend I have no one

Have had ed for abt 8 yrs now but still dont want to recover. That's so f Sick

Ik im addicted to food nd b/p daily but for gods sake please let me have peaceful night sleep!!😭😭Cus what do you mean that i also dream abt b/p-ing every night!!??😭😭😭😭💀

Hope my anorexia takes me in 2027 Hope my anorexia takes me in 2027 Hope my anorexia takes me in 2027 Hope my anorexia takes me in 2027 Hope my anorexia takes me in 2027 Hope my anorexia takes me in 2027 Hope my anorexia takes me in 2027 Hope my anorexia takes me in 2027

I have never told anyone at school pr any of my old friends that i have an ed. Im too ashamed. Imagine trying to explain them that i b/p every day abt 4-8 hrs bc of some shitty childhood trauma that made me hate myself.🤡

Imagine a person attempting suicide because of how much pain and torment their mind is experiencing. They survived. Now in a hospital and treated like a criminal, and watched over as if they were a circus act. They’re feeling even more ashamed, heartbroken, and hopeless.

I don't understand why ppl look down on bulimics so much, purging is so incredibly dangerous and to willingly force urself to do it even tho ITS FUCKING EXHAUSTING like we put ourselves through so much, just because it's different from restricting doesn't make u any more superior

Having edema again..hate it and myself rn sm. Hipe it will go away soon. Taking laxs again hope it helps a lil

Took 19 laxs. Pray for me oh god🗿🗿

Tried socialising and now I want to slit my wrists open

i was talking to my therapist about this weird mindset i have where i cant indulge in anything because im too ugly. ill put off watching shows, playing new games, going to events, even buying certain things because i feel like im too grotesque to have nice things/experiences.

do you ever feel so ugly and hideous and disconnected from your body it basically feels like a humiliation ritual to go out in public