I’ve never felt more seen in my life! Owning who you are privately and public is a pretty bad ass thing.. Hi I’m Jennifer, most call me Jen.. I’m a golden retriever, uhaul pansexual with no real intentions of an actual relationship… Wanna be my friend?!

Happy Birthday to the pretties girl I ever got to love! 💜 May today be all she hopes for and more.

Some days all you can do is sit with the heaviness, of who you were, what you wanted, where you’re going, and who you’re becoming. I miss her deeply today. Tomorrow is her birthday. I ache out of love, too.

I can feel the manic building, but we will be healthy this year… I will go eat with my sister and go to Sam’s… I will not be a slut, I will not be a manic asshole!

1:11 Happy New Year! 🎊

Me texts therapist… So ummmm yeah… She calls and we have a late session! Anyone else have therapy at 8:30p on a Tuesday lol… I’m so utterly thankful for my therapist!

Morning smokes are necessary!

I’m a selfie whore with no shame!

The first birthday message I see is my ex, but honestly it’s the only happy birthday I wanted this year… 💜🥰💔❤️‍🩹

Now that my bruises and cuts have fully healed can take selfies again… Last night was different but fun!

The struggle not to buy my ex girl & her man & her kids gifts is wild! I miss her, I miss him, I miss the kids… Her birthday is also in Jan…. UGH! Healing is not for the fucking weak!

For a girl who swims in boxers and a sports bra 98% of the time, I somehow own a fuck ton of swimsuits and accessories. As I purge, I see so many versions of myself peeking through. Nothing says BPD like staring at 9,000 personalities in one room 🤣🤣

It’s birthday week and I feel weird about it…

Home in bed. Not sure how to feel but we are here…

I feel like my niece tonight… That one red head, yeah that one.. I Miss Her… #💔❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹

The last 48 hours of my life has been some of the hardest and none of this shit was on my bingo card… December you was supposed to come in popping not fucking shit up!

The universe is wildn. I say one thing about being single and celibate and… boom… five titties pop up in my inbox. Like ma’am, please! I’m only a digital slut these days, not an in-person one… But y’all are out here testing my willpower on purpose. 🫦🫦

Lort Geezus… This time of year be doing the most with my ex’s. I mean I do like them neuro spicy…. You know she was just waiting on me to be awake to fire off 46 videos before 7:30a 👀 #SomebodyTakeTheWheel

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Sometimes you wake with such an ache in your chest, I’ve dreaded this week cause I know, I know… It has to end for real, I’m drowning now and there isn’t a life vest in sight… I’m just whyyy man… why you!!! I wanted you, I wanted this, and I worked so hard… FUCK #HappyMonday

Kill shot to the face… That one hurt friends…