Not gonna lie, starting 2025 with cancer was not on my list.

"Who are you?" "I'm you, but somehow cuntier."

I'm sorry if I get annoying about being sad. Chemo really fucks with my emotions and I get too caught up in it

I'm so jealous of everyone who went to the Short N' Sweet tour... and super jealous of the people who are gonna go... Short N' Sweet is so important to me and my recovery

I've decided that I'm not gonna see Sabrina at ACL. I should focus on using that money on medical bills and taking care of my health. Sigh...

Honestly... this year is the worst year of my life. Having cancer sucks... thank god for Man's Best Friend. Thank you for all your hard work @SabrinaAnnLynn @TeamSabrina

I really wanna stop treatment

I hate chemo so much...

God... everytime I have to go to chemo, I feel so sick and nauseous...

Having my 11th round of chemo today... yay... next week will be my12th. I'll be 2/3rds of the way done with chemo after next week

I'm feeling better. Hope i didn't worry anyone. I am struggling, a lot, but I'll be fine, eventually. Also, if anyone wants to play Borderlands 4 tomorrow, let me know. I love you.

If you're hurting, if you're in pain, if you're numb, you are not alone. The feeling is terrible. The voices in your head get meaner and louder. But that's not you. Know that you are loved. People care about you. If you think that's not true, know that I love you for you. Always.

I hate crying.

I wish I could go a week without breaking down.

Sometimes, when I'm sad, I'll look at my signed Sabrina insert. Then I start crying for a different reason.

I love you all

Although, it is annoying to me that almost everyone I told in my real life that I like Sabrina, they just assume I like her for her looks, which has never had anything to do with. Her music literally saved my life. It's so important to me that I'm able to listen to her music.

I cannnot understate how much I love my Carpenter friends on here. I always feel like I shouldn't allowed to be a Carpenter because I'm cis straight male, and Sabrina is for the girlies, but y'all never once made me feel unwelcomed. And y'all put up with me crying about cancer

If anyone wants anime recommendations, here are some of my favorites. Angel Beats Re-Life Your Name Ride Your Wave A Silent Voice Anohana School Live They all have heavy moments, and some may have made me cry

Bro. My hands hurt so much. Like, even opening a water bottle hurts so much.

I remember last year, when I had lost a quarter of my weight from sickness, my girlfriend came to my house. She immediately hugged me and said, "you look so sickly..." I replied with, "well yeah, I'm dying." I think she lightly hit my arm after that. Good times. I love her.