#shtwt

why did i ever think that my area was the only one with poor understanding and cruelty when it comes to mental health

when i first told my mom i wanted to kms she laughed and said "good, means it will finally be calm and quiet here" she thought i was kidding even though i'd been depressed af for a while. she didn't believe good people could be suicidal so

I hate being so sensative why do I spiral into episodes so fast I need to be put in sensory deprivation

i'm not thin enough to genuinely be anorexic #edtwt

nice thing about going to the er all the time with infections is that i can see the shit they use to treat it and slowly build my arsenal to do it all myself (˵ ¬ᴗ¬˵) yes i am still learning #shtwt

I wanna slit my throat I wanna hang myself I wanna cut myself I wanna jump off a high building I wanna drown myself I wanna bash my head I want to scratch my face I want to bleed I want to disappear I wish I could eat without the thoughts I want to die. I want suicide.

i've been on antidepressants and adhd meds for like 5 years, antipsychotics for two years (not anymore) and mood stabilizers for a year why does none of that don't do shit #shedtwt

nobody’s coming to save you

gotta keep my bed at least semi clean! (it didn't work) "૮₍ ˶•⤙•˶ ₎ა #shtwt

gosh i want to die

messyyy (,,¬﹏¬,,) #shtwt

boyfriend came to my place, saw all the blood on my desk, chair and bed and said i "need to get a grip" :( ´ he always knew i was like this cri #shtwt

have to bring my bunny from mom's to my place where i live with other students. bun's special needs and will have to take meds twice a day for the rest of her life. it's slowly hitting me that i can't kms cause the animal would die soon... can't do this anymore, i want to be dead

@soukokused i both miss and not miss it in a way. situation growing up was shit in school, at home, with bff and the cult. but i want to go back to tell myself that i don't need to be a clown. tell mom that jesus don't fix mental health. and most importantly i wish that i'd start sh earlier

don't understand why so many emergency surgeons seem baffled by the concept of sh. nearly every time i came they looked at me like they've never seen a cutter. some have even seen all my scars and asked me how or why it happened like what do you think bitch #shtwt

yeaah so it got worse and i had to go to another hospital in a different city (｡>﹏<) the guys in the one i went to yesterday were actual dumbasses, they considered suturing a week old infected wound

uncle can be an asshole to the point that i cry and mom don't say a thing, but god forbid i jokingly make a small dig at him and mom clutches her pearls at how disrespectful i am. i thought we were all adults fucks sake. feeling pretty alone in this stupid family

uhh oops. had a hard time pulling that swollen arm through a sleeve #shtwt

this was me at my thinnest (bmi16). still miss those times, i could stick my fingers under my ribcage which was pretty cool (,,>﹏<,,) #edtwt