This was the poem that I wrote when I was at my lowest (before diagnose, before therapy). I hope this could remind myself and you guys to stay alive.
So stay alive.
Stay here.
Maybe I don't suck as much.. Mungkin tekad gue semenjak kena diagnose dan rutin terapi untuk jadi agen akhirnya kesampean juga. Udah sekitar 5 orang yang pergi ke psikolog setelah ngobrol sama gue..
GUYS WE WON! FILM INI JADI FILM TERBAIK DI 2 KELAS GENDER DAN KAMI DAPET UANG 200RB HEHEHEHEHE. I DO THE SCRIPTWRITING, SUTRADARA-ING, AND PEMERAN UTAMA!
Guys aku lagi bikin projek short film yang kurleb begini, basis dari teori feminine writing Helene Cixoux dan kami bakal riset ke Women Crisis Center setempat buat ngumpulin data dan wawancara sama penyintas. God I love my major. (overshare)
Gak cuma itu, I remember I felt really productive and worthy after that full booked month. I realize I just based my self-worth on a mere booking. It was not positive, it was shallow and could turn toxic. It's okay if I was not active as I used to be. It's okay to just exist.
Absolutely. I like to randomly hug my mom when I am touch deprived. Suka tiba-tiba ngusel ke adek juga sebelum wajahku ditendang. But I agree. Human physical touch is something that connects me more than anything. I love being touched.
Aku dulu : "aku nggak mau minum obat karena long-term effectnya jelek"
Aku sekarang : "yaudah gapapa kalo obat bikin lifespanku berkurang, asal hidupku lebih berarti dan aku lebih sedikit menyakiti orang"
Mengajak semua kawan2 yang punya gangguan kejiwaan untuk yuk tidak denial, berobat ke psikiater, menjalani gaya hidup yang sehat, melakukan terapi, itu semua untuk diri kita sendiri biar fungsi kita sebagai manusia bisa berjalan baik.
It's okay to enjoy the present as it is. I don't have to earn more in order to feel worthy. The amount of my clients does not define my self-worth. Their impression also does not define my self-worth. I am still worthy as I am. Even just by existing (slow-living theory).
Setelah berhasil membuat naskah monolog based on You're On Your Own, Kid, now Faren is making another monologue script based on Folklore. Precisely these three songs; The Lakes, Illicit Affairs and Tears Ricochet. Wish me luck!
@rentfess
Tidak lain dan tidak bukan adalah Faren. Kadang suka mikir sayang banget personaliti semenarik aku tidak diketahui orang tapi kemudian mager wins. I'll just stay underrated. Btw in case..
- manager :
@seariyours
@rentfess
I expect to fail in convincing you how intimidating I am, because I am simply not. Instead, you will find me being goofy and stupid most of the times. But did you hear how funny guy has THE stamina and simply a big dick energy? I am confident in both my jokes and on bed. -
Sebagai orang yang suka apa adanya dan go with the flow, kalo memposisikan diri sebagai client, gue gak akan suka tipe yang ngasih excessive affirmations padahal kita baru 10 menit ngobrol. Kayak, santai dulu gak sih?
Hal itu membuat wacana tentang cinta di kepala gue semuanya transaksional. Lo dapetin gue dengan kualitas ini ini ini, gue dapet apa? Lo punya kualitas apa? Kalau kualitas ini habis, cintanya juga.
Bisa nggak sih kalian ini gak mudah terpancing sama konflik yang gak berdampak ke kalian? Kritis dikit, jangan semua dipercaya. Akurasi yang spill juga gak jelas darimana. Bukti juga perlu diteliti lagi. Apalagi akun-akun yang tertuduh. Sadar nggak kalian itu juga jahat?
[Ngobrol sama Daren Bagian 8]
Birthday is about spoiling the little kid in you, but Daren was too worried since he is an adult. What can be so wrong to spend money on celebrating life once a year, dear Daren? Faren, in this case, is the embodiment of little kid.
Istirahat, vakum, break, close kalo perlu. Kita cari source of money lain, lo punya skill. Buka komis nulis atau ekspansi les Bahasa Inggris. Gausah ngorbanin hal paling esensial dari diri lo sendiri; self esteem.
Btw habis ngobrol sama dokter umum faskes 1 and she told me that it's possible to stop taking pills. I have a high hope. BTW BB GUE NAIK 4 KILO ANJIR KENAPA YA.....
YA ALLAH APAKAH TERLALU BERLEBIHAN KALAU HAMBA INGIN MENARI DI BAWAH BULAN PURNAMA YANG MERAH SAMA SEPERTI PIPI INI KETIKA BERGANDENGAN DENGAN SEORANG LOVER YANG HAMBA SANGAT AMAT SUPER DUPER EKSTRA CINTAI
Sorei has always been a delicate girl, dia tuh fragile banget kayak petal bunga. Wanginya kayak mawar, she's burning red. With passion. With ambition. I will never stop admire her work ethic and spirit toward her work. Sorei is that secretary you find fascinating to look at.
Aku pernah full slot di bulan Februari. It was something I will always remember. It made me happy and excited, apalagi pas itu emang aku awal banget terjun RW Twitter. Rajin promosi dan semangat mengasihi clientsku. Tiap kali mereka puas sama sesi, aku ngerasa makin enchanced.
— 7 November, A Recap and A Start—
Things that I'm very grateful today :
• my mom hugged and kissed me the very first thing since I woke (I feel so loved)
• bought pizza for only 25k, a medium one! (pizza is my favorite thing in the world you can't stop me)
Ini ceritanya aku udah ke Nelongso karena dibeliin Mas Zenith terus INES SAYANGKU ITU malah gojekin aku NELONGSO JUGA akhirnya aku meet up dengan bapak gojek di NELONGSO sekian atas cerita lucu ini
Father, don't blame us for trying to 𝙡𝙞𝙫𝙚
For trying to 𝙡𝙤𝙫𝙚, for wanting 𝙢𝙤𝙧𝙚
dystopian era
content warning: nsfw / vulgar terms / harsh words / blasphemy / emotional manipulation / corruption / gaslighting
I have a petname for her, which is bocil. But she's not childish at all. She's very mature and listening. Very fun to be around with and very caring. I call her bocil to remind her she can be a child around me.
Shock your followers with facts about you
- pernah makan 6 donat sekali duduk
- pernah minum aqua yang di dalemnya ada ikan cupang
- pernah nidurin tai kucing
- bisa tidur 15 jam
shock your followers with facts about you:
- Saking social butterflynya kang pentol, bu pop ice, kang cilok dan kang cilor semua itu teman saya.
- Tidak bisa makan jika tidak ada sambal.
- Makan itu opsional.
- Picky eater.
- Betah seharian didalam kamar.
- Manusia loyo.
Faras tuh suka banget sama Indomie. Kata gue kalo teknologi udah semakin maju rasa cinta ke Indomie dia bisa berubah jadi Pembangkit Listrik Tenaga Indomie. Sebenernya gue tuh gak masalah dia lebih suka Indomie daripada gue cuman kadang gue cemburu biar tuh anak gak mie mulu.
@rentfess
Aku enggak available OTP, Sender. But I do teach private English every week so you may consider me? Lot of people also told me I have a native-like pronounciation. Thus, we can study together! Do contact my manager if you wish my company!
@seariyours
Tuhan ngasih Kak Rangga sebagai hadiah karena selama ini Faren udah sabar nunggu dan sabar menanti bahwa nanti bakal ada yang dateng dan mencintai Faren apa adanya. Kak Rangga akhirnya dateng. He finally came.
@rentfess
Oh I was never a soft spoken dude. I am petakilan pecicilan young energy typa dude yang tiba-tiba jadi kalem for your presence. I like to show how mature I am around you, ya walau I end up jadi bayi juga when there's just you and me. I love to show how reliable I am to you. -
@rentfess
KITA PLANGA PLONGO BERSAMA! Ini sih, besok aku ada kegiatan KKN sama anak-anak SD. Perhaps you want to listen to my story? As a starter sebelum kamu cerita lagi kenapa kok ngerasa kosong. We can find ways to make you 'feel' again! Let's do it with me?
- manager :
@seariyours
Ibaratnya tuh gini wir, lu punya pacar tapi dia istri-able. Tapi lu berdua belum lulus kuliah WKWKWKWK apa kita nikah aja? Nanti pas kita skripsi bocil udah hamil anakku dan aku otw menjadi bapak terkece sedunia.
Special thanks buat Vivi karena udah nemenin Faren di hari sialnya. Semoga beliau diperlakukan baik oleh dunia sebagaimana mestinya (emot love cupid cinta banget sama ayang sampe stupid)
@khaIayak
Jangan biarkan society stopping you from being your true self, which is full time wibu. I support you with all of my senses. Infokan portal ke Isekai.
@beautandbrute
Onix Senoparty, baunya kayak ngajak pacaran. Harganya under 100 yang 30ml, aku pake itu last 7 bulanan soalnya aku cuma pake 4-5 semprot. Ini aku mau beli yang FWB soalnya aku bener bener butuh FWB (now)