celebrating the new faces of psychiatry and medicine. mental healthcare, queer faith, restorative justice, Survivor. he/she/they. thoughts mine; not med advice.
Pride started as a revolt against government-sponsored violent raids of a space harboring oppressed people with nowhere else to go. This Pride is dedicated to freeing Palestine. Our liberty is bound together. 🇵🇸🏳️🌈
i live at the intersection of "wow my job is so fulfilling, i am so privileged to do this work" and "wow i am absolutely depleted, i am just a cog in this broken system" and frankly i am both too thrilled and too exhausted to try to reconcile these feelings
today, me and my citron vala pumps by steve madden were very honored to receive the Iowa Psychiatric Physicians Society 2021 Resident Excellence Award. take THAT, imposter syndrome!!!
YALL. im officially a child psych fellow, so time for a reintroduction.
im kevo/beanie, your agender, queer, filipinx-american serving lewks, and tweeting about health equity, restorative justice, faith, iowa, feelings & beauty pageants.
v grateful to share space with you 💖
i thought i was a pretty bad medical student. now, i think i'm a pretty darn good physician.
students, hang in there and have hope. your internal monologue can't predict your future.
the phantom of the opera opened on broadway 33 years ago. tonight Emilie Kouatchou took her first bow as the first Black woman to play christine. (video: ig/bwaybelters)
got asked to be an ambassador for a scrubs company with only "women's" and "men's" lines. told them i was neither, and that i couldn't represent a brand that doesn't represent me.
tl;dr my queer morals got in the way of getting free clothes 😢
In 1972 Dr. H Anonymous—in a stretched mask, baggy tuxedo, and a voice modulator—declared "I am a homosexual" at the
@APAPsychiatric
Annual Meeting.
50 years later at
#APAAM22
I and many other out and proud LGBTQ psychiatrists remembered Dr. John Fryer, the man behind the mask.
my stepdad transitioned to hospice last week. i'm home for the weekend. sitting next to him as my mom gets a bit of a break. sun streaming through the garden-facing windows, essential oils perfume the room. he's half asleep, mumbling about board meetings and photos with his wife.
start of med school vs finishing fellowship
i was trying to come up with advice for 2014 Beanie, but i couldn't think of anything. he had everything he needed to grow into the person i am today. so all i'll say is thank you. for everything. i'm so proud of us.
i'd been managing my mental health well without any meds, but after 4 years, it's time for me to re-start an antidepressant. i'm thankful for the many on
#medtwitter
who've paved the way for providers and trainees to be able to be open about their mental health treatment. 1/
throughout m1-m3, i used aesthetic as a way to hold on to a sense of self during med school. the right is how i portrayed myself during m4/residency interviews. i regret that choice, but i cant blame me for assuming the left versions wouldnt be accepted in the culture of medicine
posting this photo of my living room while awkwardly standing by myself in a gay bar. jeeves, how do you make friends in a new city as a shy girlie in your 30s
frantically scheduling a hookup this weekend to avoid the embarassment of telling the PrEP clinic next week that i haven't had sex since i last saw them
not mister. not miss. doctor.
this ones for all yall giving everything to bring your dreams to life while also searching for the path that leads you to your truest, freest self. keep going. keep discovering. keep inventing. you are nothing short of amazing.
#MTTTT
Good morning all! Made ya wait a little longer, although some of you just posted anyway! 😂
It’s Thursday, which means it’s
#MTTTT
! Let’s love ourselves out loud again today! ❤️
PS: We’re actually getting thirsty this week, right? 👀🥵
in tagalog, we address older brothers with "kuya" and older sisters with "ate." my dad and his partner have been sending me pictures of my one-month-old little brother, calling me "kuyate beanie" and it makes me really happy.
i spent too much of this year very sad, very worried, and very tired. still, i have lots to be grateful for. specifically, i wanted to thank all of you who blessed me with kindness, humor, beauty, and encouragement. i wish all the same things for you in 2022.
happy new year 💖
it's nice to have friends who can remind you of your glow up.
i'm proud to have been a barista, and i'm proud to be a physician. green apron or white coat, i hope i've worn both with generosity and dignity.
also please tip your baristas!
got out my special shoes to celebrate reaching 10k followers. thank you to all the they/thems, exasperated healthcare workers, chicken nugget aficionados, and bots who made this possible 💋
one time a premedical student came up to me and said "hi! i think i recognize you from all the pictures you post from the bathrooms in the children's hospital," and that was my very first taste of fame.
before disregarding a minoritized person's anger as improper or unprofessional, be skeptical about your qualifications to assess whether their anger is appropriate given their experience.
idea: the hospital hosts a quarterly health fair where providers freely exchange services e.g. i listen to a dermatologist's problems while they give me botox
every sunday night as i let real housewives of salt lake city rot my brain away, i'm like "i cant believe i used to know what a 'loop of henle' was ??"
i am very eager to share that i've been elected to serve on the
@ACLUiowa
board of directors!
ESPECIALLY now, as the rights of lgbtq individuals and immigrants all across our state are under attack, i am v proud to join the team working to protect and restore those rights.
LGBTQIA kids in every state need all hands on deck fighting for them right now. they need safety, they need love, they need models of strength, and they need to see a future for themselves.
immediate support is available through the trans lifeline: 877-565-8860
one is for water one is for flavored water one is for coffee one is for ice coffee one is for tea one is for getting me out of my windowless office i dont have a problem you have a problem
still thinking about the pharmacy tech who said "can i congratulate you on your eyeliner today? that wing is perfection" as they handed me my wellbutrin.
@HyVee
pls give them a raise.
the waitstaff here think im not going to finish all 3 appetizers and the entree i just ordered but jokes on them my filipina grandmother taught me that full is a social construct
last month, twitter told me me i had to eat 1750 chicken nuggets. i cant do it all at once, but i am starting the
#beanienuggiechallenge
by doing a taste test of every nearby nug and sauce i could find. 7 establishments, 45 sauces, 66 nuggies + popcorn chicken baskets. LFG
still thinking about how
@AshleyGWinter
had the audacity to post her absolutely stunning wedding dress under MY christmas glam thread. a hate crime ? y/n
one of the best things we can do for young people is to instill in them the belief that asking for help is a strength, and to embolden them to hold tight to that belief into adulthood
👑 Congratulations to Kataluna Enriquez, 26, Filipina-American who took home the title of Miss Nevada USA. She will make history as the first transgender woman to compete in Miss USA. I AM SO HAPPY. 🏳️⚧️🏳️🌈🇵🇭
i want to be someone who makes the world feel less heavy for the people around them, even if just for a moment. thats the goal. everything else comes second.
our students cannot thrive in a country that will not ensure their safety. i cannot help children and families cope their way through shooting after shooting after shooting after shooting after shooting after shooting after
i share an office wall with one of my co-fellows, and today she learned that her husband has more up to date information on my life because he follows me on twitter. anyway hi zach.
i'm used to trying to derive meaning from things. all of this, it's just happening. i feel everything. he rests his hand on my knee, swiping it with his thumb. i thought he was consoling me, but he mistook it for his phone. it means nothing. and right now it's everything i have.
hello new friends. this feels nice. thank you. i have nothing to promote other than radical self love. i hope you give it a try. use code BEANIE for try it for freeeeee!
trauma-informed care must include community trauma. we need to recognize when physical and mental injury result from structural violence. and in trying to protect and heal the individual, we should also seek to protect and heal the collective.